letter from the one who abuses you this might be what it says. or thats what mine said.

Lil_Sis84: dear love,

i dont even know if i have the wright too call you love anymore. i know that i have beat you and done you wrong.i cant begin to tell you how sorry i truely am. to let you go is something i will never do. why cant you for give me? have i made you grow cold? have i hurt you be on repair? iam sorry that i have blacked your eyes beat you in the chest untill you could no longer breth. there is so much more that i have done but iam sure i dont have to wright them down. iam sure they are scared in to your mind like yesterday when i held you down and beat you untill i couldnt hear you beg me to stop. iam sorry that i have broke you and made you cold. just let me try and make this up to you. i wont do this ever again. i look in to you eyes so black and still pertty u are to me. i cant let you go. even tho i know that is what you want me to do. i know that you deserver better but still cant seem to let you walk away from me.at one point you use to smile now all you do is cry. i know you might think that i dont feel the pain but i do every time i strke you i feel it to. every time you bleed i dont know why but it makes me feel good. i know that is sick. i know you sit and ask how could i beat the mother of my child and sit and watch her bleed. i cant answer that. i have made you cold so no matter where you go any way no one would ever love you again. i have marked and scared you you are mine. leting go will not happen untill you are dead. sorry just cant. i will not let you walk away from me. i love you.

love me

Liz: have got so many letters like this. they say the same thing every time. its just something to try and make there sick minds feel better some how. i dont see how it dose but them sick ass men drive me nuts. i have lived with one for so long and the pain never gets beter no matter how many letters you get.

Lil_Sis84: this is my frist one and i dont want another one becuase its all just f*cking lies. lies that hurt just as bad as him hiting me so i tryed not to read, but it showed me how sick he is. it all so showed me that hes not goin to let me go. what do you do when you can see that from a letter? when a letter comfrims it all? when you know that your life is goin to end in his hands might not say that but just read it and u might see what i see. i dont know. men like this make me sick and to think that i live with it every day. im not goin to let him get me down tho not worth it and if he dose get me down iam not goin to let him see it.

tylerdurdensbrother: he will never change

tylerdurdensbrother: something is wrong in his head. no excuse either. Ive been to hell and back. Id never hurt a woman. no matter what the reason.

Liz: all men say i would never hit a woman and then most men do or trun around and hit them. thats what mine told me to i will never hit you now look at me siting here in a room brused and beat to where no one would even know it was me if they seen me. wtf some men are true to there words dont get me wrong but some are not. and when u have been threw hell like me and a few others in this club it is hard to trust the word of any one. let alone a man

Lil_Sis84: yes there is something wrong with his head. yes i know he is never goin to change i know this hell we all know this. but what do u do? look the other way or what? you have a good point and so dose girl. when u have been put threw hell like some of us on here it makes it hard to trust any thing,or any one for that matter. but there is times you have to trust some one. there is times where u love some one no matter what hell you have been threw. there is love out there for every one,but finding the rite one is the thing. falling in love is hard after being abused but u can fall in love again. rather that love is from a distance or up close u can fall in love again. but the way he has done me some day he will pay he willl be sorry for what he did becuase in the end he will be the one in all the pain. god will damn him for what he has done. god will damn all thes men that iam sure of. all the men that has abused woman it dont matter some how they will get theres thats how i look at it. thats what keeps me strong thats what keeps me going. staying strong is sometimes hard tho. standing is even some times hard.

southernbelle: Have u taken this letter to the police? It might be a good idea!

rita2468: hey lil sis, I dont really know you, but I do know the pain you feel. I was beaten and abused both physically and emotionaly for 18 years, I finally got out when I realized what it was doing to my girls. I agree with Southern take the letter to the police, take out a protective order and stay away from him!!!!! I dont know you, but I know this you deserve so much better than him!!!!!

Lil_Sis84: yes mom i did they are keeping it in case anything happens to me. they will know what happen.

Lil_Sis84: there is alot of people that are in the same boat that iam in and wish it wasnt like this, sorry to hear that u went threw that for so long

Liz: iam so sorry rita alot of us go threw this every day. some people dont see the pain and hell we live in. most people look the other way or trun there heads like nothing is wrong. some one tell me when all this is goin to end. is it goin to take more woman dead befor any one dose a damn thing? dont u people think this is enuf whos goin to be next nadya,lil sis, or me? befor u people see this s*it is real? that people die every day from abuse. where dose it stop? when he holds u down and beats you fro your last time. i have been threw this stuff way to long and i sit here waiting on the next time and wonder if its goin to be the last time will i finely be free of all this pain and abuse. a letter dont mean nothing. when they say things like that they just do it to butter u up and knock u rite back down again. YouTube listen to this song might make sence or might not. i dont know if it will or wont. this is a song that i listen to that some times helps me get by when iam haveing a bad day. just listen when some one is crying out for help because that might be the last time u hear from that pearson. so listen to them is all iam saying. i have been beat and cryed out for help so many times. no one will listen dont know why. wish some one could answer that for me. becuase some of u people look at me like its my falt just like he dose or tells me its my falt like he dose. some one tell me why that is

Lil_Sis84: i love that song. its a good song. shit he showed up here this morning about 5am he didnt stay long just long enuf to make my life a liveing hell how about that? f*ck forgive him that will never happen. this dumb ass needs help. i need help all so becauses hes goin to kill me i see that now. he has done all ready made me dead well the bigest parts of me that is my heart and soul. what more can he do? thats what i keep asking my self. damn some times i wonder if happness comes from this for him but the letter said all that i need to know. i guess it would any one if not something its wrong. he smaked the shit out of me telling me that some one was here. no one was here he came in and looked every where and in every room he knew there was no one here. i dont understand it dont think i every will. iam so sick and tired of it all. trying to keep my head up and stay strong is becomeing harder and harder each day. some day it will all end because i will give up on it all. it happens to us all where we want to give up some time. its not a good feeling but i feel that way all the time. time is something that he has took form me. he has took every thing that once was mine. but has lost my heart. iam so sick of this ass hiting me and geting by with it. call the cops no one comes and when they do come it takes 3 to 4 hrs for them to get here most of the times hes done gone then it makes no sence to tell them any thing. but still i do makes reports after reports still nothing yet.

Lil_Sis84: iam tired and sick. i dont know if its because he has me ran down or what it is. every thing is falling apart around me but he has made me to weak to fight back any more. he has made me sore my body dont want to move. tired is one thing but now iam sick to on top of all of all the shit what more could go wrong. wait might not wait to ask that ? becuase something eles then will come along. frist the letter and now this damn i cant win for loseing. in the end we all die any way but i never dreamed my life would be ended by a man that abuses me guess i was wrong on that note.

Liz: sis just try to stay strong. that is all you can do at this point. you said u was sick last time we talked. how sick are you? might need to go see a docter if you are that sick. i know that you are afride to go to the docters because u think they will take your kids if they see what he has done to you but dont lay there and die if you can get better. hes not goin to kill you because i know that you are stroger then that. i know you wouldnt let him kill you. not only becuase you got alot of will to live but all so becuase of your kids. just keep your head up some day soon all will be well again and you will be happy and never abused. i know rite now you may not see that and rite now it wouldnt matter much any way but if any thing think of them babies and how lost they would be with out you. we all get tired so time we all get sick some times a man beating on you makes all that worse. but u have got to got to stay strong. plz dont give up you have been fighting way to long. i know you may think that no one care of no love loves you. but just look at all the people here on wire that love and care for you. look at them sis. every one of your friends think of you as there lil sister and think of you as a good friend. alot of them would say they have never met no one like you befor. they respect you sis. so keep you head up and know people care and love you. dont let him take that from you. dont let him kill you. you say he has killed the best parts of you you say that is your heart and your soul. sis he hasnt killed them you still got a big heart and your soul is still there to becuase if they wasnt you wouldnt care for people and love them the way you do. so rember when you are down when you are out or want to give up. people are here for you to see it threw. f*ck him dont let him get the best of you. he might hit you and hurt you but the best of you is on the inside. i feel the pain you go threw you know that me my self is there where you are to. so many people are. u do what u do best fight the fight. dont let him win you have came to far and falt for to long to let him win this fight.

quiver: hi sis. i dont know the pain u go through but i do know mnie , is there anny relation. the hell if i know. but i do know this if i could help i would, like most ppl would like to. and some times listen is the best.i rember the men in my moms life. hitting my mom not cool. im keep to my self around serten kind of men. and im peritty much a aloner, witch i like cause i can c the evil vile hate in humans. this includes my self im no saint, but im better then most men.so what im trying to say is hatting these so called p#&#&w~ need my forgivness so i can move on it takes time to learn.no im not implying u sould try what i do cause im diffrent. just talking .Ok yur turn

lovebugu: some women think he beats me bcuz he loves me how stupid is that if i was the sis or cuzin of any girl being abuse i would just hit her with frying pan to knock back the sense up her head

quiver: if some one was to hit me, id what some retubution.if some id knowen 4 a wile hit me than there is a problem. know one i have knowen has ever tryed that, cause id killem. thaey r not my freind.(stay aeay leave alone do not go near, danger). that is how i deal with ppl like that.

lovebugu: kill him!!!
SORRYY NOT GOIN 2 JAIL FOR NO PSHYCO PATH

quiver: well good glade too here that. but if it were my children or my fam in general i would no question. i would murder in a hart beat. and my word stands. fuckem all!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!.

rosebud22: do they have a home for battered women, we do here, and you can take your kids until you can do something make copies of all letters.what about your family.

quiver: now i know i have been agressive and would hate to deture annyone from talking in here. and i guess i should clairify alittle better of what i would say and that is I KNOW HOW TO HIT, and i have been hit mannytimes.im a fighter i have backgroung in knowlage of how to hit.i have a responsability to myself and ppl around me, im also a diffrent man, im not the same man that hits these wemon because of a wrong opnion or because she is drunken fool out of her mind. so yes i have been hit by wemon and i left. ofcorse u the reader will not simpathize with me, and if u do, well i dont want it. annyone who hits me or wants to get in to a hostel physical fight is not my freind nore can i love that person. I am into physical sports have been sence i learned how fast i could run from the enemy. i can not help how ppl think, only how i react to ppl words. most of the time i leave or ignor, and there r other ways i deal with ppl ubtuse behavour.now if it were my daughter or my wife or my family being abused, phyiscal i would have a hard time managing my emotiouns. and it has happend to me, i will not go into details on this cause its none of annyones busses.and i was ableto restrain myself,thankgod.so going to jail for a cause i belive in yes,cause i know the consaquences of my actions. i call it going pains or getting older or being mature or i can go on. witch im trying not to.
just wont wemon who have benin abuse in all ways, NOT ALL MEN R THE SAME.
ARGUMENTS WILL happen and opinons will be said, to me its up to the person to manage him or self.and yes sometimes its not your fault. i would never ,never say stand up to him or stand beside him cause of lak of whatever.to hell with him or her(persay-laton for insight).ok that is enough of my opion 4 now.

quiver: opps 4got one more thing i was going to say nothing and just read what ppl type on here. i feel that my opion matters how big or how small,good, bad it matters,cause i matter.

rita2468: quiver yes you are entitled to your own opioion, and yes there are women that do hit......bottom line is no one should hit anyone man or woman....you are the better person by leaving.....

lovebugu: well if someone hit me im gonna knock him down

quiver: c i had to learn how to stand up 4 myself, not jsut how to hit but how to hit in my mind.and how not to hit in my mind.to hit someone is not right.in asport is, and i enjoy it.i have to got to bed now latter hope all u wemon will be allright to night and do somthing about it. how ever u doit do somthing a bout, and yes it hurt to get hit, trust me i know, im a sportfighter and might i add not averygood onelol.