COMPLETED POEMS (Page 2) ♥♥ Јϋѕт Ŝсаяѕ ♥♥: Keeper I'm the place you refuse to go, and yet always are I'm the reason you don't sleep, I am your scars I open the door to your soul, a unique destination A place in which you seek your own salvation I breathe fear into your other wise normal dreams I'm the crypt keeper to all your silent screams I'm the thoughts you think and refuse to say I'm the boogie man, fueling your dismay I'm the place in which your sins are cast I'm the constant reminder of your past I'm just a doorman at the gates of hell But I am the place in which you dwell I am the demon with in yourself I'm am YOU and no one else. ♥♥ Јϋѕт Ŝсаяѕ ♥♥: STAY: I see the past in front of me my future now behind My life, my love, My everything, a notch in time Etched into every part of who I am There's no antidote for my superman Kryptonite itself, only seems to be a light Fading fast, as I slip off into the night What I'd held on to, never was enough Standing on the edge, I feel one last shove Looking up all I can see, is your fisted glove Beaten into submission, like a slave You forsake the love I gave No longer will you stay. Standing on the edge, swaying in and out Looking back on the past, then straight down. That's a long way to fall from where I stand Loosing the grip I had on your trembling hand Staring deeply into your eyes as you let go I feel my heart shatter, before it explodes Unable to breathe, I scream it all out Its a long way to fall when your looking down. What I'd held on to, was never was enough Standing on the edge, I feel one last shove Looking up all I can see, is your fisted glove Beaten into submission, like a slave You forsake the love I gave No longer willing you stay will you sway will you stay ____________________________________________________________ BECAUSE: Another page torn, another one burned You won't know the future till its been turned Let go of your ego, cause I've let go fo mine Leave me here in solitude, all I need is time To ease the pain of this fading day and the madness that fills my mind Because.... I don't wanna be an after thought I don't wanna be the cause I don't wanna be the one you run to when you get lost I don't wanna be the secret garden in which you hide I refuse to be the one who feeds upon your empty lies Reaching back to turn out the lights... I see one last vision of you as I bid good night You'll be gone by the time I wake No sign left of the heart you played Moving forward, and moving on A new me wakes with the dawn Because.... I don't wanna be an after thought I don't wanna be the cause I don't wanna be the one you run to when you get lost I don't wanna be the secret garden in which you hide I refuse to be the one who feeds upon your empty lies ____________________________________________________________ JUDGMENT DAY: Long ago I lost my soul My severance pay, a lump of coal Leaving what I cherished most; Sliddin down a slippery slope Fumbling, fast, falling hard; noting left to mend this heart No end in sight, no resting ground No salvation, for me now Sleepy eyes and restless thoughts, Burning dreams, and silk slipknots Faded memories, come to cross Just letting go? or pushing off? Either way, I'll have to pay For this is MY judgment day. ____________________________________________________________ untitled: buried under this caving life past the point of wrong and right laid out like a human sacrifice bloody tears fill my eyes chopped into pieces and shredded sliced up diced up, beheaded skewed, burnt, and caramelized infested, amputated brutalized Mute, deaf, and blind sedated, choked, and tied alone, and empty, decayed expired, discarded slave bound by my own choices worn down and broken Feeding the disease I'm still choke'N ♥♥ Јϋѕт Ŝсаяѕ ♥♥: gentle gestures of a promising future Now you hold the knife and I"m threaded with sutures You've cut me open and left my heart to bleed Torched my soul and made it scream You destroyed all the hope I held inside of me Banished the person you said you'd always need So let me go if you don't want me, let me be free I've always loved you, but I was to blind to see Your love has changed and it's not for me anymore So tell me what I'm to do when you love me no more. ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ Time is a memory I can't afford Moving on by yourself is a bitter cord Longing for a time that doesn't exist My heat isn't breaking and in my eyes a heavy mist So cloak me in the darkness so no one can see All the memories I hold dear, laying at my feet Let the night whisper it's sweet melody Let me just pretend it's song is for me Let me forget very bitter word we ever said Let me cherish all that we once had Let me wake to the dawning of a new life Let me leg go of being his wife. ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ I have dreams that carry me on even the darkest of days I have a passion inside of me that will always find it's way A moment in time when I'm okay with my choices a time of no regrets A space thats all my own, and memories of you I'll not forget Passionate glances and a fiery touch It wasn't to little nor was it to much I can't say I don't' miss your lips or the way you smile But I'm happy for the time we had together all the while i hope that wen you see me you miss me just a little too i hope that I meant something to you Because you gave me a reason to live again You made me feel as if it wasn't a sin So know that I think of you and smile Remembering our moments together for a while. ~~~~~~~~~~~~~ Its wrong for me to want you, and yet I don't care I'd touch you again anytime, anywhere I'm sorry you feel guilty for giving in to the pleasures of the flesh But I love how you touched me, because you touch me best I can still smell the sweat, and taste the passion I still feel my legs tremble, from our last session So flip me over, and touch me, as you have before It's not making love, but it's so much more Kiss me passionately, let me feel your lips on my skin I'm lost in the visions, of the guiltiest sin So sweet, how you look at me, and smile when you do I wonder if you're thinking of me, the way I do you. I see us naked, entwined in one another's embrace. The things we've done, are things I don't want to erase Let me remember you, give me a reason to move on Either confess your love for me, or break away at dawn ♥♥ Јϋѕт Ŝсаяѕ ♥♥: I know what I see and I know what I want But somewhere along the way my love was crossed. And even now as I lay here surrounded by the pain I think of what I could have done and you'd still be the same. And I know that I could have roped a rainbow for you Would of gone through hell and back, even brought you the moon And I'd still be here crying, dying inside You gave up on me, and gave into your pride. ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ Trapped inside my own mind a master of illusions Yet it's my very own game that's crated such confusion I've created a person to fit everyone's tailored needs I've become a human chameleon changing my image to fit each scene So consumed by what others will say or what they might think That somewhere along the way even I have started to believe That I am a Chameleon hiding from the rest of the world Conforming myself inside and out hiding behind a warriors soul Oh I wish I didn't care about the opinions that pass my way But how do I begin to chisel off the mask that's been engraved Or to forget about all the pain that I've held inside Knowing I'd die before I'd let them see my shattered pride For I'm afraid the sunlight might wither away my true Identity Even melt the one person I so much long to be But how can I risk it all and after all this time? Will I be strangled as my old ways begin to unwind? Do I remain a human Chameleon controlled by my emotional fears? Confined to this life style and my own warden after all these years ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ BENEATH THE RUINS BURIED BENEATH THE RUBBLE, DUSTED AND TORN LAYS A HEART THAT BEATS SHATTERED AND WORN ACHING, AND CONFUSED... NOT KNOWING ITS FATE TRYING TO BELIEVE THAT ITS NOT TOO LATE LIFE LEFT IT TWISTED, BATTERED, AND BLEEDING STILL IT BEATS, EVEN THOUGH IT SEEMS TO BE FADING CAUGHT IN A MOMENT, FROZEN IN TIME I THOUGHT I FELT A PULSE, BEAT OUT OF LINE WONDERING IF ITS JUST A WAISTED THOUGHT OR IF ITS TOO LATE, AND ALL HOPE IS LOST WANTING SO MUCH FOR A HUMAN TOUCH WONDERING IF IT WOULD ALL BE TO MUCH SCREAMING, MY HEART BLEEDING OUT IN TEARS CONSUMED BY MY THOUGHTS, AND EMOTIONAL FEARS SO CONFUSED ABOUT MOVING ON HOPING I DIDN'T WAIT TO LONG KNOWING, NO MATTER WHAT I DO LIFE MOVES ON WITH OR WITH OUT ME, THERE WILL BE A NEW DAWN SO I PUT MY HEART AND SOUL OUT THERE ONCE AGAIN LEARNING TO TRUST, HOPING THAT IT WON'T BE SLAIN WALKING TOWARDS THE LIGHT, HOPING TO FIND A REASON TO LIVE FOR TODAY, LEAVE THE PAST BEHIND ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ I wrote this one in APRIL of 08 Lost Day breaks, and I'm weary..Beatin down from the wind My soul, is tired.. and yet it tries time and time again I place my faith and hope in others, hoping to be strong Coiled up on the inside... they know not what is wrong Smiling on the outside, laughing right on que Its make or break, and you'll never know I'd break for you Let me out of myself, Even I can't stand the angst I'm climbing the walls, trying to get things straight So I close my eyes and dream.. of all I've ever known Quickly I'm reminded... that all I am, I've never owned Self tortured for caring, and held to a standard I'd never slay So quick to give of myself.. that I got lost along the way I gave to much to someone, and I lost my way ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ Never I never saw you take your first steps, or take your first fall. I never held you, never rocked you, or watched you play ball. I never kissed you goodnight, never tucked you in. Never hugged you, never loved you and yet I did. I never heard your first words, or your first cry. We never had a chance for hello & Goodbye. Your eyes they never blinked, and your lips never smiled. How do I get over loosing my child? I never saw your face, or watched you swim. I never heard you laugh, or play with friends. You never touched my face, or got to call me mom. Somehow you’ve touched my heart, so how do I move on. ♥♥ Јϋѕт Ŝсаяѕ ♥♥: SOMEDAY: Unaware that I was pregnant, I didn’t see the signs. I didn’t have a chance to tell you, there wasn’t time I hope you see your brother he’s there in heaven too I hope you know we love you both, daddy and I do. What a bitter sweet blessing, to know I am a MOM What great pain it brings to know you too are gone. I feel so very lucky, that you’ll never know this pain. To loose someone you love, really is a shame. So play on the clouds at heavens gate It won’t be long, but we’ll have to wait. Someday I’ll see your precious face, and hold you for a while While today is not that day. I look up to you and smile. For it isn’t all about the loss that we have seen. What means the most is that your there waiting just for me. Written On 04/22/2007 ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ In the Shadows: Written 04/19/2007 It’s here in the shadows that I cry Hiding myself, it’s how I get by Lurking beyond the realm of reality Crawling around, so lost from sanity Screaming for attention, yet no one listens Crying inside for the chance at one kiss To touch a woman, sweet and gentle So we’re my words just accidental? I hint and I ponder how far to take this Wanting her more, not sure I can fake it So into the shadows I return With out a touch, or concern It’s there in my mind for me to keep Thoughts of her kisses in my sleep Fantasy: Written in 1998 He took me on a fantasy trip, and sent my spirits high Then he took a knife to my heart did he think I wouldn’t die? Well he was right cause my hearts still beating and you know something else I’m still breathing, I’m alive! My eyes can still see as they always have no tears to blur my vision I’d be damned! And I’ll be just fine knowing he’s not mine I have it all where I want it, stored safely in my mind. So why must they all be so consumed and worried about my pride when it bothers them more than they have the right So just listen to my screaming voice Listen you haven’t another choice. Yes, he took me on a fantasy trip and sent my spirits high then you took a knife to my pride, Did you think I wouldn’t die? Well then you were right cause I’m alive, and Believe it or not with out him I’m just fine. Thanks for your concern but it wasn’t your dime to spend. I took my chances, and i chose to take them on him. I’m the one who willingly, and knowingly went along for the ride. I spent my money on a roller coaster, knowing I couldn’t ride for life. So why does everyone feel as if I need a refund or some justification? I knew before I jumped in, that there was no destination. So how can I be disappointed when all I had was fun. I knew better than to think he could be the one. So give me some credit of knowing I can fend for myself. He’s not worth putting my life in the grinder or up on a shelf. Yes I’m allowed to be disappointed cause the ride is over. But whining and crying about it won’t bring him any closer. Letting go: written in 1998 I know what I see and I know what I want But somewhere along the way my love was crossed. And even now as I lay here surrounded by the pain I think of what I could have done and you’d still be the same. And I know that I could have roped a rainbow for you Would of gone through hell and back, even brought you the moon And I’d still be here crying, dying inside You gave up on me, and gave into your pride. ♥♥ Јϋѕт Ŝсаяѕ ♥♥: The Ties: Written in 1997 Lost in my mind controlled by illusions Trapped inside my own world filled with mass confusion Caught up in the spider web living in chaotic land Walking on the wild side who’s to say whats wrong or wright So I close my eyes and hold out my hand becoming a victim of your circumstance Shot through the heart gouged by your knife You once gave me your love and now you take my life As I awake from my confusion still trapped by all your illusions I slowly realize that one plus one is no longer two. Its sad to say but oh so true. The tie that binds me is ME not you! To late: Written 1998 How do I begin to explain what I myself don’t understand Its not as easy as you think, to solve this problem that I have So I’ll try my very best to help you see my side Al thought I’m not sure I can, it’s sure is worth a try It started about a year ago one midnight by the moon I looked into your sparkling eyes and my heart felt something new My face lit up with so much joy & my soul began to shake Over come by an un-tangible fear, my heart was now at stake And as I began to tremble, so shook up inside Overwhelmed with emotions, even Webster could not define I looked up into the darkness, and to every star my soul cried out Please let me know, just what this silence is all about To know myself, what you would say before I speak at all If only there were a way, to let you know before I take the fall Maybe if you could just hear it, it lingers on my every word or if you would just look at me, its so obvious I’m sure. But you never saw it, you never did catch on And one year later here we are in this same old spot I’ve finally told you, as we kiss to see the dawn You bid me farewell, as your ready to move on. Why couldn’t you see it, that I was there for you How could you find another, you say her love is true You’ll never find someone to love you like I do. She’ll love you even better, because you love her too. ♥♥ Јϋѕт Ŝсаяѕ ♥♥: old Poetry COLORS OF EMOTIONS So many emotions so little time I'm left to wonder which one am I The color of a blue sky turned gray Mixed with some red to define the rage The color of murky waters, the brightness of a brand new dawn But you can get lost in those waters and drown before long The color of a black bird free to ride the wind Or the slow fading existence of a long time friend The pain and joys of loving, the colorless taste of death The sorrowful ways of evil sent to destroy your path The color of a bulls eye not meant to be untouched The painful cries for help when destroyed by another's touch The ups the downs the highs the lows Where life will lead, only time will show. JUST ONE WORD: I've seen a river cry and ocean of tears I've felt my heart break overwhelmed by fears I've seen the sun fade into the night I've seen a dove fall from flight So many things I've seen to many I've heard I know it all but just one word What is LOVE does anybody know It'll pick you up and then let you go Wrap its arms around you and then let you drown When you need someone are they really around? CREATED ILLUSIONS: I see black and white blinding my vision I've stared so long I must be going blind Look into my eyes theres tension Pier into my soul and find What used to be love is no longer What is, is now something stronger If only what was in front of me Could be inside of me, and then one with me Confused, scared and so shy I dare to peek into those eyes A Smile or two won't do I want to be one with you TAUNTING ME: Taunting me, and teasing me slowly you tear me Unaware of my pain, you don't know you're not me A smile a day keeps my conscience at ease So long as you are pleased Dancing around in my dreams living inside my head Knowing good and well that I've been had If only I could hold on to what I see If only my dream world could forever be Slowly you taunt me tearing me in two The tie that binds me is ME not you A one way street is what I'm going down Only I'm wrong ward bound SO one again I close my eyes Once again I'm hypnotized Controlled by an image trapped by a man Under no circumstances will THAT happen again! UNTITLED: I try to write down how I feel but only get more confused. To know by all these guys I've been used. I try to figure out who what when where and why but all at once I begin to cry. Knowing I was told lie after deceitful lie. I wonder if any of them remember my name. UNTITLED: He sure knew what he was doing right from the very start He shot his little bow and he shot my heart Down in cold blood he said its time you learned how to love UNTITLED: The eyes I look into never stare my way The lips that I kiss never seem to stay The smile that I see I know its not for me The words that you whispered For so long I did believe The hands that I hold Seem so stone cold The things I've tried to change your mind But I was always left behind The love in your eyes is no surprise But who you share it with makes me want to cry I knew this dream would never last forever Because you would always have another The way I loved, the way I cared But still you never were there But its not impossible you see To love someone who isn't loving me TO love someone who doesn't know you're there The misery the pain I see All of this just so you might love me The way you love the way you care To me will never be quite fair To hurt someone when all I did was care The hurt inside I can't oblige But no longer can I keep it hid inside TI tried for so long To hold on to that someone who now is gone I'll never be the same for you I do blame For making me feel such shame I thought you were the one Then you showed me, and bang when the gun My heart now in two In my mind remains thoughts of you Oh mind of mine what am I to do why is it so easy To let someone deceive me When I new all along they'd never need me ♥♥ Јϋѕт Ŝсаяѕ ♥♥: Jan 15th, 1994. 11:54pm lol ha ha OMG This is old Look into my eyes Can't you see it there Listen to my words Can't you see I care Feel my heart beating Can't you see it beats true Hear my gentler whispers Can't you see I love you ___________________________ I can hold you when I want to All I have to do is close my eyes I can love you when I want to Or is it all just in my mind ___________________________ My fears overwhelm me as I watch my life fall apart Constant concern and worries of not knowing my own part Living day by day hoping for some kind of change Not knowing simply why I should remain __________________________ ♥♥ Јϋѕт Ŝсаяѕ ♥♥: Don't touch me, I'm not part of your game I have no intentions of being played NO don't, don't tell me you want me Stop right where you are Even if I wanted you, I don't want it to go that far I've been down the hard roads that lead me straight to hell And I swore to myself no matter what I couldn't fail So I shut down and built me a wall ONe so think around me so I couldn't fall But here you come again The strength of 10,000 men Your tearing down my wall, now I can see the sun I can hear you cry now your victories been won ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ Can't someone please tell me whats going on My hearts fallin and I haven't even know ya long You spoke to my heart, aimed cupids gun Shot me right down & boy I think you've won Cause you've got a hold on me, my heart and soul Theres something about that just won't let go You wrapped me in a blanket of your words Kissed me gently and then made me go absurd My minds all confused my hearts in love You're my angle in disguise the one from above How else could it feel so right thinking about you day and night ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ I never meant for this to happen I've done my best, maybe I haven't I've held my tongue, closed my eyes Tellin myself to keep it inside Well I tried! I've been holdin back and holdin' on Falling apart cause I know it's wrong I know I should just run away Yet somethin's tellin me I aught to stay ♥♥ Јϋѕт Ŝсаяѕ ♥♥: Why don't you tell me what you've done to her Why'd she disappear with out a word Gone with out a trace Still something familiar about that face I know shes still alive I just don't know where Something awful has happened, I know shes scared. Maybe one day she'll excape from your spell Just maybe she's trapped somewhere in hell Years go by but its all the same What she thought was love, to you was just a game Now a victim of the war She dares to find herself once more The truth let ti finally be known And now hes all alone Because she is me And together we are free No longer a prisoner, victim, or slave Because she is me and together we are brave Reunited with the only one who believed Because she is me and she is all I need ♥♥ Јϋѕт Ŝсаяѕ ♥♥: Keep in mind some of these date back to 1992, I was a preteen then, and so they are a little more cheesy and dramatic. I can't believe I'm even posting them. its just to show you my progress as a writer, and to remind myself how far I've come in LIFE! Today I watched you pack up the last load One look back at me and you hit the road What I needed more, was for you to be there What I needed was to know that you cared I needed so much more than you ever gave Money and jewelery were nice But not even the purest of gold could have paved the way My heart travels down a dusty road Kept company by an empty soul And you could have gotten there in such and effortless drive But you were to scared to to drive off the pavement, so you gave up the love of your life UNTITLED Distance is nothing to this old heart of mine For the love I feel can out read the hands of time Way beyond the galaxy Deep with in a fantasy Deeper than the ocean blue Stronger than what man can do Longer than this world shall turn Deep inside I'll always burn You see no matter what the reason Month, year, day or any season My love for you will always last Bound eternally by this spell you've cast UNTITLED I awake today as if it were the first I feel like just yesterday you said to me its only getting worse But I"ll take it one day at a time Its gonna take a while, to find my mind You kissed me softly, closed your eyes and cried There was just to much pain for you To much you'd been going through I reach out and touch you, to hold you in my arms Never once would I believe you'd be very far And then one night just before dawn God came to take you home And I cried for forty days and for forty nights Just knowing it wasn't fair it just wasn't right UNTITLED What you see isn't what you get If you think you know me don't place your bets I smile all day, cry all night I care, but I don't... I'm so selfish inside Underneath the covers in a cave far below I've been where nobody knows I've walked across a burning sea I've kissed a bumble bee I've held out my hand and let Satan touch me So don't think you know me, I'm not who you see There's a deeper, darker side to me UNTITLED Time has never been kind to me Its held me under water and asked me to breathe Flew me up into the sky and told me now you better fly Had me running around in circles trying to find Something I lost maybe my mind Gives me one heart, tears it in two Guess thats what I get for being such a fool If just once you could have showed me your love My life may have meant enough Now I"m so unjustified I may as well have died I can't understand why but you almost were so right UNTITLED Your heart just don't know what trouble lay a head You tell it to run, but it just falls instead You tell yourself it won't happen this time But when you turn around you're still standing in line You keep waiting for love to surround you Life you up from the world around you Hold you close keep you near But thats like tryin to walk off a pier UNTITLED A lovers lust given one last chance In hopes to find romance Not knowing what's in store She spreads her legs in loves own war Truly believing she'll find what shes looking for A sudden shout of uncomfortable pain Not knowing yet whos won the game You know what you want you know what you need But no one but me will bleed UNTITLED Just once or twice I'd like to tear you up Make you beg and plead till you've had enough To run my hands through your hair No more games of sit and stare Touch your body through and through Then bring heaven here to you Kiss your lips long and hard Loy on our backs beneath the stars Explore each other test our strengths Keep on going till we can't Caress your body kiss your skin Then we'll do it all again Climb on top a mountain work my way down All except for the screams, there wouldn't be a sound ♥♥ Јϋѕт Ŝсаяѕ ♥♥: hell its me can I share with you my fantasy's Can I tell you all my body needs is for you to touch me Well I hope you don't mind, I'll say it anyways I need you to slip your hands between my thighs Thrusting hard while I moan and sigh Run your fingers around my lips As I suck on your fingertips Lay me down on the table or across your lap Once we get going theres no turning back Kiss me softly kiss me long I wanna see if you can last, if you're strong ___________________ The sun sets on a fading life We dare to ask for one more night So unaware of what lay ahead I know I should run, but I fall instead Lost in a world of confusion Trapped inside my own illusions I'm melting away The sun burns like a fever on my face I just can't escape the heat One last could of smoke and I'm engulfed by flames Lost and gone forever what a shame Vanished from reality Trapped inside morality Forever.... Just confused __________________________ You and I moving in the dark Body's close, souls apart Shadowed smiles, Secrets unveiled I need to know the way you feel I'll give you everything I am, and want to be I'll put it in your hands if you could open up to me Can't we ever get passed this wall All I want is to just once see you in the light But you hide behind the colors of the night _________________________________________ I see the light but I can't get to it I know the pain but can't break through it The colors so bright, but my eyes are dull My hearts over flowing but not quite full I hear but its mumbled, mixed up and confused I offer my love, but still I am abused ♥♥ Јϋѕт Ŝсаяѕ ♥♥: :::::::::::::::::::::::::I WARN YOU::::::::::::::::::::::::: THIS IS A VERY PERSONAL AND NOT SO NICE TOPIC IF YOU ARE AN EMOTIONAL PERSON PLEASE DO NOT READ IT. Left alone with three dirty old men But its all my fault in the eyes of my friend So now what do I do, now that I've lost my pride Alone in my life, I wished I'd have died They should have just killed me, Cause I'm dead anyways I don't know how I can make it to another day I don't believe in believing anymore My minds not working, heart's dead on the floor My eyes have cried so much that I can't shed a tear I wish I could see but I'm covered in the shadows of my darkest fears  X: “Visitor” I didn’t ask you to f^y@ me I asked if we could talk I didn’t ask you to marry me I asked if we might dine I didn’t ask you to have my children I said you were charming I wasn’t picturing you naked But that doesn’t mean you wouldn’t look good that way I didn’t ask you to f%^z me I just liked something you said I know I’m a legal alien Everyone else has an agenda They’ll tell you anything they think you want to hear Because their existence has been reduced To an unending pursuit of a soft, wet hole Preferably attached to an object of a size and shape That Hollywood and society tell them is desireable In the world from which I come Py~&w is a means, not an end Can you blame them, really? As much as men and women hate one another If not for this logic-free drive to screw Our species would die out fast Increasingly fewer women with kids Want anything to do with their father Beyond his income Gee It just makes a guy want to run right out there And plant his seed everywhere that he can Yes, I know The men who do these things are pricks Yes, I know It’s ALL men So I trust you’ll feel no differently Knowing that an alien visited Offering an alternative And you chased him off the porch As you would a drunken Jehovah Witness It’s what aliens come to expect I didn’t ask you to f#&$ me But it’s as if you wish I had ♥♥ Јϋѕт Ŝсаяѕ ♥♥: Insanity manifested Beneath tangled eyes Nooses tightened Hate rationalized Love betrayed Trust tossed aside Decaying ruins Left alone inside Damaged heart Bleeding pride Ripping existence Open wide To those I loved Now cast aside Pretending smiles Your lies collide False intentions Families divide High and mighty Side by side Fuel the separation Keep it in stride Tell me you love me Deny the denied I'll not go away I merely reside Just another scar So easily implied An ugly fixture you'd like to hide ♥♥ Јϋѕт Ŝсаяѕ ♥♥: Tangled barb wire clinches around my chest The more I move the tighter it gets Each puncture radiates pain through me Begging and pleading to be free As the rust travels through my veins I struggle to escape my shredding remains Bleeding out, fighting to stay alive Twisted metal piercing mind contrives As the matters of my flesh start to fall With a fading effort I squall Begging for relief from the torment To late for me now, no time to repent Enslaved to the pain I chose to hold My soul had a price, and I sold ♥♥ Јϋѕт Ŝсаяѕ ♥♥: Fragments of a broken life Laid out like a sacrifice Plagued from fears of yesterday A little girl sent off to play Used and played with like a toy Just a game to those little boys No justice for her fragile mind Just beaten down over time Welts to show his mighty power Blistered red most any hour Plenty a tears upon her cheeks Shameful secrets she does keep Unjustly condemned for merely existing Parts of her they keep on twisting Warped and shattered she still tries To forget the reasons of her own demise Her youth destroyed, time doesn't stop Year after year, just another shot A river of blood flows from her soul Of nothings is there left to extol Fist to face, rage for a cause Beaten for her unwanted flaws Not knowing her worth she complied Mouth shut, legs spread open wide A child, torn from the inside out From the ruins a monster sprouts Her soul taken, no longer her own Before you now a mechanical clone Years of hurt and pain ensued Vile filth projected in her mood Shying away from human touch Yet needing it so very much Damaging herself more than they ever did All from not knowing, she was just a kid Carrying the burden of those painful tears Buried beneath the ruins after all these years No shelter for her to run and hide The screaming demons won't subside Hate and self loathing intertwine As her inner beauty quickly declines And then.... Through the pitchest dark of night She sees a ray a spot of light. Shining through to break the still Giving her strength to fuel her will A gentle hand, who means her no harm Softly he cradled her in his arms Wiping away years of inner guilt Destroying all the walls she'd built Never once pulling away when she tried Allowing her for once a place to hide Comforting her time and time again Showing her what it meant to be a friend He smiled and melted the ice around her heart Tearing the years of torment all apart Showing her the way out of her own tomb Giving her a chance to finally bloom A peace of mind to drown out the screams With in him, she finds the will to dream NO longer afraid of her tarnished past Beyond her fears, to a place surpassed A better person for all she never was Better today finally, and all because Someone showed her how to finally love Giving way to the courage to rise above TheMoo: Wondering through an exile self imposed Life was grand so we supposed But in the end life is not all we do is sit and rot . Always trying to do whats right Sometime's we feel its a losing fight Strife and conflict pave our way Struggling towards a judgement day . Falsifying who you are so stragers like you from afar Your true inner self makes you cry you only wish to stay alive . Life is hard enough as is without the who's real quiz You wake up you live you die No one makes it out of life alive. TheMoo: Inner turmoil inside my thought The wellspring of me is in a drought I wish only to bring others joy Yet they treat me like a toy . Many lives i've yet to take Too many hearts i've had to break Happiness I wish to see Brought to them, straight from me . Things like this can rarely be No me enough and then you'll see With all these thoughts i slowly fade I lose more of me day after day . I do what i'm able to do Try to brig joy to you But such a task is a major task So one request is all i ask . No me for me and judge me not Whatever you think, i am not I ask you this and i say please Know me for me, i wish only to be. TheMoo: Demons from withing my soul tearing things taking toll To tear them out is all i ask But such a thing an inhuman task . I do thinks i wish not to do No forgiveness from them or you My cheshires smile or my inner strife I dont deserve this kind of life . Happiness is all i want in person, phone, or font I've done bad things as have we all I feel it coming, a long hard fall . My life will end, i'll cease to be will you remember moo, or just me. You hardly know me i am just a name a few measely letters associated with fame . Know who i am, and be afraid I'll see you soon on judgement day. TheMoo: The cheshires smile my cat at heart wants all the while tear you apart . i fight the urge to take your life the angry surge causes much strife . know who i am know where i'm at dont turn your back on this demon cat. |
