I Am No Longer Your Concern

WineNSarcasm:
No, no you may not ask me how I am ! And dare not speak my name,
for there is one, whose name is upon your lips, mind, and heart all the day
and this name should be above all others in your life now.

For 20 years I tried to show how much you were loved and adored by me;
and yet this was not enough to stop her from capturing your heart from mine.
I cannot stop the pain from showing on my face;
nor the tears that come when I am not looking;
nor this damnable ache in my chest that I have learned to live with...and to live with well !

The abyss that I now call Life is as dark and unforgiving as the Fates that have cast me here !
and I beseech them to tell what lesson I must learn from all of this;
and what have I done that could have made it possible that I deserve this wretched suffering !

I cannot even bring the words to mind that would justly tell of "how am I" to respond to your queries.
Indeed, how cruel that you should even ask.
You must not come,
you must not ask.
I must not see your face,
nor hear your voice,
for I am no longer your concern.
My well being will be what I so choose to make of it now;
whether I choose to live amoung the dreary so low and so deep,
or to gather up all my courage and face each day with mere content and sheer fortitude,
I shall make my way through this devastation as I sweep up all the shards of what is left of my soulless heart
knowing that when this is through;
when all my emotions have taken me to my knees;
I will rise above and continue on stronger than before !

And yet even now, even now in all my agony,
I pray for you !
For your happiness and for your protection;
for I had once loved you dearly and want no harm to enter into your life.
Only do not, I request, ask me how I am,

for in all my anguish, I have no answers for you now....