When you think you've hit rock bottom...

Justsillyme
Justsillyme: Only to realize that, what you thought was rock bottom before, just scratched the surface.

Just wanted to ask all of you how you got thru the difficult times. I know that time heals all wounds, but to pass this time is just the problem.

I made this account to get over everything, and make some new cool friends. Even that is difficult to achieve...Sometimes I just want to sleep and never wake up.

Life is hard. Period.
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andi loves u
andi loves u: i know how u feel, that may be hard to believe but trust me i really do.
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Sorceress Warrior
Sorceress Warrior: I just lost a beloved pet rabbit 2 days ago, had to put her down because she suffered a stroke and was having seizures that left her little body twisted and paralized. I was devastated and still feel the emptyness left by her death, however I know that she is at peace and isn't in pain anymore.
I reached this way of thinking by understanding that everything in the natural world has it's cycles, even us humans. By observing the world around me I saw the cycles and was able to see my own place in it.
Inner peace is hard to come by, I know I use to work in toxic workplaces that crippled the soul.
Insead of focusing on pain and darkness and misery I began to focus on my own talents, abilities and inner truths to survive day to day.
If something happened I just remined myself of my own inner good and all of the good in the world.
Prehapes this rant does not make sense but I had a long jouney out of darkness in order to find this inner peace.
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Justsillyme
Justsillyme: Hey Sorceress, that does actually make sense. Everything comes full circle and everything is a part of it, whether ur rabbit or my life its all the same.

Anyway thanks for sharing and sorry about ur rabbit =(
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_Awhinanastyle_
_Awhinanastyle_: There was a time last year, during my last year at high school, that I really hit depressive bottom. I was like that for two months maybe? I played alot of sport and my academic results started to show my commitment wasn't exactly in academia. I thought I'd had it bad before but it was nothing compared to what I experienced. Stress, school, work, sport and boys (of course) just piled on top of me and I couldn't handle it. I thought I wasn't good enough for my sports, that I was slacking off in work (when I was actually the best one there and doing overtime), I was so thick because I couldn't focus in school.
I went to my parents and a couple of months before final exams, they let me take a week off school. Which was huge.
I ended up going hiking by myself (Im into the outdoors) and have some 'me' time. It was great. Getting away from the familiar environment that I'd become accustomed to and all the catalysts for my breakdown really helped! I was able to think about my options clearly, not have to worry about lack of time.
I went back to school refreshed and happy again. Exams were great too.
From my experience (if you love the outdoors), go away for a little bit and just have some personal 'you' time. No fuss. It does wonders for your mental state I tell you! (Not that you're mental, or me for that matter).
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Iloveroses
Iloveroses: We kinda in a similar situation, though I don't know what you're circumstances are. In my case, my BF has just dumped me. I am really miserable. Like you said, time heals, but what do you do while it's doing that? Could take years. And I kinda resent this guy sort of chased me, and now, he's dumped me! bo-ho,ho...
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marshallhale
marshallhale: The truth is years later when you look back, these "Rock bottoms" are what makes you who you are. Each hard period you experiance in your life makes you a stronger and better person for having overcome it.

Hang in there. There's always a rainbow after a storm.
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cyberbot3000
cyberbot3000: i just fell off my bike and broke my two front teeth last week. things seem to be getting better maybe they'll get fixed this week!
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jayjay20091
jayjay20091: ive been at the bottom and to me there is only one thing that is gonna get u back up and running with a smile on your face, good friends...a good friend shows up in ur time of need...i should know
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sour_jouice
sour_jouice: Hun, I am there know! It is scary when you figure out how to off yourself, and no one find you untill it is to late!
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sour_jouice
sour_jouice: And no offense to the person who posted the post before me...I walk around every day with a smile on my face! I feel like a f%&w%w# clown! If they only new what was on the inside, just how dark and deep it is! But, as they say, suicide is only a perment solution to a temperaly problem! Yet, it is still on my mind! Every F-in Day!
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ajtta112
ajtta112: In my personal experience, hitting rock bottom...as hard and utterly lonely and painful it feels inside, it has always presented a time of growing. Although difficult to "sit on your hands" so to speak, once you are able to find a calm clear mind, acknowledge where you are and how you got there. I have learned many hard lessons and asked myself very hard questions but in the end it really surprises me how it all made sense. Everyone falls down, but its in getting back up that changes your heart for the better and gives wisdom.
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Morsy
Morsy: Falling and getting back up do make you stronger but after enough times it does wear you down both mentally and physically. I would rather not hit the bottom and unfortunately to avoid that happening so many times i have had to limit my contact with people. I have no patience anymore because I have hung in there despite my own struggles to realise these people feed off people like me, it's a fact of life if you are in any way too caring or compassionate. So I have to put up my palm and say that's it, that's all you get.....because when I could have done with support,they all disappeared. It can't be a one way street and just because there are people that care doesn't give anyone licence to take advantage of them, nor to abandon them when the tables are turned. Ok rant over...be well and take care of yourselves
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ajtta112
ajtta112: very true, l also agree although i know we all may not have that blessing as simple as it sounds, but friends...when i was at the bottom I had no real friends and surely no one i trusted in a fragile state like that..but i turned to the real relationships that I had a part in the damage and did what i could to repair (my case family members). It turned out to be ok, its a bit better when you have someone to be right there with you. btw tried to add you as a friend , if you need someone to talk to let me know. if it werent for a few random people's hands up i wouldnt of made it back up!
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lexy38
lexy38: I had a breakdown in my late 20s. ECT , medication, off work, lost the love of my life, became addicted to painkillers, go to a clinic everyday to take suboxone and more. Rock bottom is different for all. When I look back I think how hopeless it seemed and realize how far I have come. Don't give up without a fight!
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Morsy
Morsy: ajtta I don't recall getting a friend request please try again....or I will request you if it's a bit dodgy
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skruface
skruface: i was at the bottom a couple days ago..now things are starting to look up
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adolph_G
adolph_G: wow people when you hit rock bottom you will know it well maybe not but the people around you will cause there will be a big thud and then a big red stain from oooozing fluids but really if you keep trying you never hit rock bottom either give up and hear the thud or keep living and get on with it either way stop whining
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pepi1
pepi1: If there is anyone out there in recovery you've probably heard that the ultimate rock bottoms are jails, institutions, and death.. so true. it can be hard but try to realize that everyday free and above ground is a miracle.
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PinkHarts
PinkHarts: I too have hit the bottom more then once its a never ending cycle for me it seems. I have made mistakes like us all but gesh not that much or that bad to be cursed with such bad luck. I feel like there is no light at the end and many a times want to just go away but there is something that keeps me from doing it that i cant explain and in a way kinda cool and freaky. yesterday got the best of me got in my car with the intentions of driving like a wreckless fool for the consequence but just as i got on the highway my car broke down but then minutes later(after chilling out) my car started and ran fine ever since so i believe it was meant to be crazy? I have been extremly depressed and so stressed that its done such a number on my health that im scared its gotten the best of me. I just want to be happy i want friends and family i want to feel pretty feel appreciated not like im wasting space. because of my past i have a terrible time trusting people and have no self esteem to where im pretty much embarrassed to be out so it pretty much leaves me lonely and it hurts so bad. I know there are people who have it worse then me and my heart and hugs go to them but sometimes i feel like im the most unfortunate ya know=/ i hate that it seems i want a pity party i dont i just want to be able to smile! to feel wanted! feel loved! I pray to god that i get the chance to overcome this challenge because i do wanna live because i feel like i am something more then a waste of space i know i could do alot of good because i have a huge heart. I pray for everyone to overcome there heartache and enjoy life because they deserve nothing less just keep an open heart. everything happens for a reason they say so i guess accept everything as they are and maybe thats our ticket to happiness the key is being able to accept how can I allow sadness hurt or evil
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Alliegirl7
Alliegirl7: Hey Pinkharts, it was kind of scary reading your post, it was almost as if I wrote it myself. I feel exactly the way you do. I too want friends, and to feel like I'm more then just a waste of space. It is kind of encouraging to know I'm not the only one out here that feels this way. I don't have any answers and I'm sorry but I thought if you knew you weren't alone maybe it would help you to get through some how. I hope you do find the light at the end of the tunnel and if you need a friend I am a good listener.
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kama311
kama311: firstly i'd like to appologize. I'm sorry i dont have much to help bring your spirits up other than well if your reading this know that its another second passed by that something utterly terrible didnt happen again. really thats all that keeps me one step away from ending it all. Like i said i'm sorry my words should be discarded, if it helps you can give your pain and hate to me and i'mm carry the weight straight to hell with me tonight.
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LifeIsAMess
LifeIsAMess: I know how you feel. I lost my job 4 months ago; have exhausted my savings and now rent and bills are due. I have shed so many tears and prayed but nothing has changed; it seems to get worse each day.
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gayle50
gayle50: There is so much sadness in this forum that I can identify with, that it scares me. I have alot in common with most of you, but depression is real - I know - apparently I'm clinically depressed and probably have been for most of my 50 years.
Ask yourself what would make you happy... if you are like me you can't answer this, because you don't have a clue "how"to be happy. Sad isn't it?
I am presently on antidepressant meds and am feeling better- a little better. I talk to a councellor and am of the belief that stop crying and live with it is the only way to be! I have learned, that kind of thinking is wrong, and that it isn't my fault. That it actually changes things in your brain and sometimes you need medication to change the chemical imbalance.

My Dr. told me I can be happy I really don't believe him, not just yet anyway.....I am selling my small business and have only 3 days left....who am I and o my god what am I going to do???

My life is 3/4 over and I feel I haven't even lived yet.

Sorry I don't have an uplifting thing to end with, so hang on friends, that's what I'm going to do!................G
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lostone63
lostone63: hitting bottom,just seems to make me stronger. I have lost several folks close to me in the last couple of years. I wallowed in sadness for a while, untill i remembered my job in life is to be happy.

Some times being happy is very hard.
when i am at my saddest, i try to help someone who needs help more than i do.

I Keep remembering the old saying " I Wept because i had no shoes, untill i met a man with no feet".
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thezman60
thezman60: When the "stuff" hits the fan it hard to clean up the mess.
I know that everyone has issues, issues are not the problem its how we handle them is where the problems rise. Frist off there are a lot of good people out there who been thought it. And most are willing to help you if you want it. That is the key you wanting help and how far will you go to get it.
Insanty is knowing there a better way to live and not doing anything about it
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