My 23rd Birthday!

I am so excited my birthday is Sunday. I can't believe i am turning 23. It feels like just yesterday i was turning 16. It seems so far gone. I just feel so old when i look at my nieces and nephews. they were born when i was like 10 so watching them grow up makes me feel old. I am so much more mature than i was 5 years ago. It seems like such a long time ago. God how time flies. The song "Don't Blink" by Kenny Chesney seems to be so true to me. follow the link listen to the words and you will find it is true.

Death, Relief and Complications

My Grandfather passed away last week and his funeral was yesterday. I was shocked by the news that he died. I also thought for a moment that i could finally give in and tell the family my secret that i had harbored for years. I wish i could then complications ensued. I wasn't able to make it to the service because of lack of funds. But i didn't really want to go. I keep getting messages from my family wanting me to come in and be with them during this hard time. I can't revile my secret yet because they are all missing him still and i was taught not to speak ill of the dead. I guess i have to hope that in the future when i do tell them that they will understand why i didn't want to come home for the service. I want to let go and tell them that he was horrible evil and hurt me badly. He sexual abused me for 8 years. It started when i was 8 and stopped when i was 16. I made it stop at 16 because i learn in civics that what we were doing was incest and statutory rape. I told him it was wrong and that i would stop. It ended. Now i have to keep the secret a little longer until my family is ready to hear the cold hard truth.

Christmas Celebration Fun!

I spent Christmas Eve with my boyfriend's family. We ate and exchanged gifts. In total i received two gift cards, a journal, finger nail files, a Carrie Underwood CD, a video game, and my two favorite gifts was the blanket his sister made for me and the photo album he gave me. The blanket was made to my taste. it is pink and purple and filled with images of Tinkerbell my favorite fairy. I love Tinkerbell. She is so cute and sassy, just like me. We also played games and had a ton of fun laughing and carrying on. I am getting to know his family more. The more i am with them and the more i learn about them. I find myself loving them more than i love my own family. It is just crazy how i feel about his family. They are so wonderful. I am glad to have been so readily accepted into his family.

Christmas Spirit

I am the Christmas Spirit. I love this time of year. All the decorations, the sparkles, the food, and family. I love the feel of this year. It is a time to celebrate and be thankful for all we have. I feel so happy this year. I am going to spend it with my boyfriend and his family. I can't wait. I am excited.

Inconsiderate Dumb ass Brother

My dumbass brother barged into my house at one in the morning unannounced. Didn't call me or text me just barged in. It pissed me off. He is so disrespectful, inconsiderate, ass hole, dumb ass jerk. I can't wait until my lawyer files the papers to get him the hell out of my house and life. I am so fucking done. I want him out of my life and out of my house. I AM SO FUCKING DONE WITH HIS DISRESPECTFUL, INCONSIDERATE, DUMB ASS!

MId-Term Next Week!

Being in college sucks. I have such a hard schedule this semester. Philosophy, World Literature II, Biology, and Anatomy & Physiology II. So much reading and so much work online. It is so hard plus two idiots causing trouble and emotional distress. I don't need their bullshit. But as always i am a trooper and can get the stuff done. Please Pray for Me. I definitely need it. Hoping for A's and B's and maybe one C.

Merry Christmas and Happy Holidays!

Today is Christmas for many people. For those who celebrate this holiday then Merry Christmas but this is also the Holidays for many people and i want to say Happy holidays to them. Please take this time to celebrate with friends and family if you can. If you can't at least call them and let them know you are thinking about them. If you are a Christian don't forget the importance of this holiday. Christ our savior was born on this day. In closing have fun be safe and celebrate with loved ones.

Prince Charming!

My Prince Charming,

my dearest prince, i love you so much indeed.
i see us married one day with a family of our own.
a few animals running around. Great careers for both of us.
Our Modern Fairy Tale Come True!
Please dearest prince say you will love me forever.
Please dearest prince say you will be faithful forever.
Please dearest prince say you will be caring forever.

Your Sweet and Loving Princess
Cinderella

Graduation is just around the Corner! Pinning Yay!

Congrats to me! I am getting my pin from Practical Nursing school. i have worked my ass off since august 2013 for this degree. I still have to take my boards to get my license but that is just a technicality. I graduate/ get pinned on May 7th. i can't wait i am so done with the torture. I am going to take three semesters off from getting my RN. I am going to take those three semesters to work on my Associate of Arts degree. then RN school. I will also start working as well. i will start applying after graduation while waiting on my temp license. Also a two week vacation with my sister right after graduation. then when i get back i will have my temp and my confirmation to take my board exam.

SO EXCITED! YYYYYYYYYYYYAAAAAAAAAAAYYYYYYYYYY! WOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO WHOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!

A death in the family

Some people say pets are just animals nothing more. I disagree. All of the dogs i have had in my life time have become more than pets they have become family. Today we had to put to sleep our 8 year old female full blooded American Boxer. She had been sick for over a month. She had surgery today and the Vet found Cancer. Instead of dragging it out and letting her suffer we chose to put her to sleep. It is heart-breaking to put to sleep a member of your family. I remember the day my mom brought her home. she went prancing through the living room. i say she was "SASSY" and that became her name Sassy. She will be missed. She was more than a dog, She was family. She was a daughter, a baby, a sister, and a best friend. She was the best family member anyone could ask for. If you believe in prayer, please pray for our family's loss. I included a pic of her as a puppy so you can see how cute she was.
Rest in Peace Sweet Princess. March 17,2015