Nunya Bizznizz (baybeblue) Offline

baybeblue: Yesterday was a pretty good day. I woke up in a great mood. For a moment I felt like myself. I put makeup on did my hair and did thinga. These are big steps because lately I just wear sweat pants any only go out if I need to. Hairs always a mess and I don't want to be around people. But yesterday I was not afraid.
The universe didn't like my confidence. While I was at the store this guy comes up to the window trying to sell these pills and asking for other types of pills. My friend was talking to him and the guy who was obviously on something got loud and mad reaching into the car. I flipped I started crying and shaking he followed us in the car and rode our ass. I mean I seriously had flash backs I remembered laying there on the ground looking up into Lucas eyes I remember begging for my life. I remember crawling in the mud to get away. And I know this random in counter at the store is not the same. I know he doesn'tknow what I've been through. I know he was just being an ass. But I was so afraid he was going to hunt us down I was so afraid he was going to try and kill me. It'sso hard to smile when I'm so on edge.