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Crimsin_: Always was.. always will be. 4 months ago • Report • Link  0  Binxxy: Admission Can't hear the storm Over the static in my head Misfiring synapses Making me wish I was dead Unraveling from the center Fraying on the edges Tiring of this balancing act Precarious footing on the ledges Of sanity, of all that's me Wishing I was blind so I can not see The face in the reflection Tired worn and crying A thin facade Hiding a spirit that is dying Not much to hope for Even less to celebrate So pathetic this is comforting So sad that this I cannot hate  Bitter Sweetz: nice poem. The message is sad though. Message me anytime here to talk without judgements  Crimsin_: Well written as per usual, draga. Message is definitely concerning though. Even if you don't love yourself, I love you and so do so many people. Never forget that. Crimsin_: Need to take better care of yourself, draga. Love you and would like you to be around a while longer so if you could take care of yourself that would be great, okay? Kay, Thanks byeeee lol Binxxy: Inflection Look into to my eyes and see All that I despise in me The constant failure festering Everything I'm questioning The erratic thoughts that lead nowhere The desperation, the constant despair Everything pure has been defiled Overwhelmed by it all pain compiled Nothing left to hope for Too much to forget what is gone Constant flashback torturevision The nightmares go on and on Not enough reserve to hold out A siege entering it's final days Falling into nothingness All that is me betrayed Binxxy: Armed In the falling snow I see all of the faces And I lose my fucking mind Yes I lose my fucking mind The bitter voices Reminding me I'm a failure Pushed to far this time Way too far this time The only thing that's left of me Is what I haven't burned down The agony the apathy And all this fucking hatred Erratic thoughts and actions Convictions made of clay I'm waiting for an ending That seems to far away Rotten heart and broken mind A display of disaffection Emotions that just don't seem real Sociopathic perfection Irreverent and irrelevant A worn out party favor Over loading psyche Pushing into danger Just a little snap to ease The unending building pressure Every word or action Greeted with a censure Battered skin and broken dreams Cover all that's seething The countdown is nearing zero On the ticking bomb within Binxxy: Out of True Stretched and contorted Beyond all reason Failure to cope And internal treason I bend but don't break But have been pushed too far The only thing left Is covered with scars Drowning in confusion Seething with pain There are no more tears Just an ocular crimson rain Wishing for an end Yet stubbornly pushing on How much longer can I endure this Before all that I am is gone Binxxy: Patience Scattered thoughts upon a canvas A hellish mosaic of what was Added in a touch of now All of this I am surviving how Rendered useless Beyond obsolete Is it just parts of me or all of me That would be best to delete Separating from all that was me Falling away into obscurity Deceptive breathing There's no healing Emotions dead Heart still beating Tired mind beaten to submission Hearing the echo of the derision Faded spark clouded eye Slow agonizing descent Waiting to die Binxxy: This is the first thing I have written in over 2 years. Not sure what to think of it. Static It's all just a blur Well past what I can endure Stretched to the point of breaking A futile undertaking I'm just a statistic A stupid human trick Always the butt of the joke The camel's back that broke Target of derision Because of my decision Just because I decry your delusion Doesn't mean I want a revolution I can't stand your ploys Or my mental white noise I don't want this shit Or anything that comes with it Can't move forward Too far gone to go back Nothing whole left inside of me Everything obscured by the cracks Bitter Sweetz: Feel better. Things will get better. May take a few tries and some.time.. Cloudy days won't last forever  |
