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BishyKatieBug: Sooooo blood work and interrogation by the CDC and some other state health agency people done. Took all friggen day long. I still feel like crap and still no answers for another 6 days. Lovely.

BishyKatieBug: My niece had her first baby a couple of days ago. She did wonderful! Baby Viktor is an amazing little baby boy who is so quiet and calm. The first night after delivery my niece was horribly sick and was throwing up and every time she would she would pass huge amounts of blood. Day before yesterday she was so much better through the day so they released her and baby to go home. Yesterday she was still swollen in her abdomen and her feet were still swelling. This morning she calls me in a panic and said she passed a blood clot the size of a softball and was running a fever of 103.0 and she was shaking and pale. Needless to say she is back in the hospital. I dont think she passed all of the placenta and I feel angry at the medical team that delivered Viktor for not checking this and ensuring that there wouldn't be any more issues. With me being sick, I dont dare go up to visit her and she is mad at me for staying away. I really wish that I wasnt going through this virus crap and had the energy to go up and be with her. When it rains it pours.

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BishyKatieBug: Hi! I know I know... I havnt been on much.... get used to it... bwhahaha OK so seriously... I have been mondo busy working on me With the help of family and friends... yes bitches you KNOW who you are and thank you I love you for your encouragement and support and shoulders! So that being said, I ummmm... well to sum it up... Im not being put on hold... Im living life as it should be lived and ever so much enjoying every fucking second of it It was hard for a bit to wrap my head around it and accept that for my all over well being health it must be done... by hard... I mean a couple of you got some teary phone calls of anger and frustration and well ya know.. but thankfully 2+2 DOES again equal 4 and not longer equals purple banana. Met some pretty great guys along the way, NO NOTHING SERIOUS! More like friends who flirt... not even benefits hahahaha I know lame... but I am not prepared to give myself emotionally to someone like that right now...(ok once I did and it was amazing) but we talked about it and he respects me and my choice and he calls me and sees me all the time still... that shows me some stuff... so... well Adam and Eve made a whole hell of a lot of money off me. What else... oh... Work... yep been busy there too... super duper hours and then... because I have a work additcion... I hit the ranch and have been bailing and buckin hay for my family... yeah! Next month... cattle drive.... awesome..... that part isn't so bad... so long as bees don't try to bite me this year. hmmmm what else... I have been totally enjoying every second that I can with my little terrorist... the kid is growing sooooo fast.... Seriously... he needs a time out for all of that. pffft. He is already talking about going to school and how great it is and how he wants to get on the bus... I am going to blink and that energy for school will disappear. He already knows what Kindergartners should know... he tested for it from a friend of mine who does entry exams. She was shocked... I was bummed. Amy was like that too and for the firs 5 years of school it was a battle because she got bored. Round 2 is coming I know it. Oh! Friday, I was able to get a ME night... went out with friends and it was nice to see them! Yes you! LOL Missed you all! We have to do it again! BEFORE DART SEASON!!!!! well that pretty much sums me up... I think.... I dunno... a lot has been going on so my money to be honest is that I must be forgetting something.... but this will have to do. I miss all of my friends here and I wish I had more time in the days to be able to drop in and see you all.... but.... each da has only 24 hours in it and during harvest.... that's not nearly enough. Just know that I love and miss you all! Special message to Matt, I am happy for you and I hope this new company treats you like that gold you are! Its a hard industry but the owners of the companies have every ability to make it as comfortable as they can. You are making huge sacrafices and I want to take a minute to say thank you. ok... now... Im off to bed... (I say this as I look at some laundry that needs to be folded and I could do some dishes... ) lol ha...tomorrow... day off to have burn out avoidance.

BishyKatieBug to MontanaMatt: Wow Matt... I've been gone too long! You still gonna be driving or are you done with all that?

BishyKatieBug: Radom text from a dude... wanted me to talk dirty to him... ugh.... pfffs pass man.

BishyKatieBug: Well so it's here... 2 days ago... the end of Duane and I. All because he has a nosey kid and instead of talking to me about what his kid told him that he thought he knew about, we fought... I had done nothing to show that I could not be trusted and therefore got to put it lightly extremely pissed and said fuck it... packed up mine and juniors stuff and headed back to dads.... heart broke and bummed out and highly dissapointed... i keep thinking about him even to this day... huge depression setting in and im just trying to stay busy to keep my mind off things.... I wish there were good guys out there... I am losing hope. I feel like I can't trust ANYTHING or ANYONE any more. I cry alot and can't sleep or eat or focus... it's great. NOT. Everything was great until we moved in and getting Duane to see that he was acting irrationally and unfairly is like pulling teeth. He keeps calling... and texting... says maybe we moved too fast lets take it slow and just talk.... Im in a shell and saying hell no Im affraid... but yet he doesn't understand that. completely at a loss.

BishyKatieBug: I have been losing weight.... fast... and I have no idea how....my jeans are baggy my shorts are baggy... when I was unpacking everything I came across a pair of old jeans... 2 sizes smaller... I thought egh what the hell... tried them on... and they fit. I knew I kept them for a reason. Now I just wish that I had shorts that fit lol oh well... its nice to have jeans that actually fit my butt again.

BishyKatieBug: I need a drink.... or ten.... but... Im a mom and I have to work early in the morning... so no drink or twenty for me. Need a decompress time soon though or I think I may just explode...

BishyKatieBug: So I checked my schedule... starting tomorrow is day one of a 46 hour work week... if I could pick up just 14 more hours.... I would be loving life.... I will be keepin my fingers crossed for hours to be forfeited.... need the money.... got goals ya know.... first one... divorce! Second one... bills.... then... breathing room and build up savings Im motivated and independent and kicking some ass! I am tired of living pay check to pay check... that shit stops starting last week. Just TRY to stop me.... I will stomp you like a bug on the ground.

BishyKatieBug: And another 12 hour work day today... was nice seeing that in 2 days time have 24 hours clocked Bustin my ass... aint nobody ever say I am afraid of work lol

BishyKatieBug: 12 hour work day... no lunch break... had a total of 2 quick pee breaks... hell yeah... that's money

BishyKatieBug: ugh.... all I gotta say about the past ohhhhh I don't know.... week..... one thing after another.

BishyKatieBug: So I love animals I really do.... but I am about fed up with the ones here.... they keep potting in the house and it is sooo gross. I get they have accidents in the house while I am at work because I am gone for almost 11 hours, but over night? Seriously? Last night Duane let Cheddars sleep on the bed with us. We sleep with the door closed. I said ummmmm what happens if he needs to go potty? Duane said he will scratch to wake us up and let us know.... NOT.... the cat pottied all over my work cloths for today and on the floor... So not only did I step in it all, but when I am getting ready in the dark.... lets just say this girl got 2 showers this morning.... The floor, that is on Duane. I knew this was gonna happen.

BishyKatieBug: I have done it. I cleaned this ENTIRE house top to bottom both levels. It looks great, smells great, and is so nice to look at! I hope when Duane and Chris get home they enjoy it and that Chris helps and actually does chores to keep it up. I busted my butt on this house.

BishyKatieBug: Wow.... huge fight with Duane about additude.... we get that sorted out.... and now he wants to move out of Blackfoot and closer to Wyoming and bring junior and I with him.... scarey move but I have done it before. I just want to get settled and call a place home... I don't want to be moving all the time...... it would be nice to get back out into the country again. I definitely want to make sure I have a job. Could get back into ranch work.... don't really want to do that but it isn't entirely out of the question. I don't know. My heart says yes yes yes... my brain says where the fuck did that come from..... is he going to actually settle down? I do know Wyoming is where his soon to be ex wife is living.... kinda makes me wonder. I know that he lived in Wyoming and loved it... I was born there and lived there for awhile.... hell I don't know at this point. It is still in the thinking step for sure.

BishyKatieBug: One more sleep and my boys will be home! I took tomorrow and Thursday off to be able to spend some good time with Duane since he is home only tomorrow and then loads again Thursday afternoon. With the truck breaking down and how much it costs, he is gonna be on the road for awhile this next run.

BishyKatieBug: I am the most spoiled rotten girl ever.... ok ok I have the BEST boyfriend ever! Jason Aldean... wonderful surprise!

BishyKatieBug: HOME!!!!! OMG!!!! I have missed you all day! Hi Junior! Hi puppies! Hi kitties and kittens! WOW.... Monday... ok well THIS Monday.... was brutal... glad it is over. HA! Bring it Tuesday, I am prepared now.

BishyKatieBug: Ugh Monday..... where the hell ya come from.... well actually where the hell the work alarm come from so fast.... gonna be a looooooong day.

BishyKatieBug: So Duane and Chris are still in MO. Duane and I were on the phone this morning and he said he needed to go as he thought perhaps his truck was on fire as it looked smoky to him inside the cab. The truck didn't catch fire, that part is ok. What Duane discovered is that something entirely different is wrong. First there was a cable (not sure what cable or what it does) that was missing so the truck wouldn't start. He gets a tow into a truck stop and gets it in the shop. With it being Sunday, of course it is not an easy fix, starter is potentially shot, so he wont be able to pull out until tomorrow. Oh and another 1k on tires. Good thing he has an open delivery on Wed out here then he will be home. He is very quiet and subdue in conversation right now. Not entirely normal for him. Chris was looking forward to seeing the ST Louis arches today as well, but that obviously without a part delivery miracle is not going to happen. Did I mention that trucking life is rough?

BishyKatieBug: Got Juniors room all cleaned out and set up and dusted and vacuumed. He says he loves his room at daddy Duanes house, it's beautiful LOL Duanes ex gf.... SLOB! ugh.... I scrubbed that room top to bottom and cleaned the carpets and it is sooooo much better. I can't believe someone would allow a house to get so damn gross.... good thing Im here... these boys would have seriously gotten sick with what I found that she let start growing.... nasty! The entire upstairs is cleaned with the exception of the storage room. I will have to go through that mess on another weekend. I am not excited to do so but it has to be done. I also have to go through the fridge and freezer and do a deep clean on that as well as the oven. I would bet money that all the previous girl did was sit on her ass... lord knows she didn't work so god only knows what she was doing. This house is starting to look and feel like a home. Like a family lives here. I found a bunch of Duanes wild life picture he took and found frames and got them up on the walls. I would love to add pictures of the kids when Amy and Zach come back. It would be nice to have Chris, Amy, Zach, and Junior on the walls. I would like to see about getting Duane to take some of the animals, they are family too after all.