Russian agression

I guess all of us have heard about Ukraine. As come from Baltic states, i really do understand them.
In 1990. January we had similar actions in my country, i was quiet small by that time, just for years, and i do remember the feeling people had. The feeling i had already than. Felt lot of stress around, people were afraid. I remember that my father also wanted to go to our capital to stand in barricades to protect the independence we gain just half year before, only my mother didn`t let him go. I`m happy cuz just in next days were killed people. We didnt had so many victims as it is in Ukraine now.
But the thing i wanted to say, all the actions in Ukraine are already seen to my people, we have already experience this, just not so bloody. but facts are same. Putin desire to get back all the countries that was in Ussr, not less than that. He definitely have plans for Baltic states, as well as for Ukraine. Right now Ukraine is more favorable target, cuz it is not in EU neither in NATO, so doesnt really have International protection.
I think his plan is to divide Ukraine, cuz all is too much for him now, so he tries to get Crimea, where is larger amount residents - russians and trustful government to Russia. So it is not a surprise for me that Russia claim to protect their people, so they get army in and it is all that they need. So they will claim territory with blessing of russian residents and trustful people in local government.
Thing that actually does worry me, that neither EU neither NATO havent said any serious words about this. Not more than " please stop this violence". Doesnt really work for Russians, they have plan and they will stick to it. The worrying part, is if EU and NATO wont do anything, i`m afraid Baltic states will be next in row.
And it is also something what my people have experience once as well after WW2 when The Allies in conference in Tehran in 1943. agreed with Stalin demands to approve borders he desire including Poland and Baltic states, this approval cause to my country 50 years of occupation and only in 2 largest deportations to Siberia around 60 000 people (pregnant woman, little children etc) . Woman who is my neighbor have been deported, lost in Siberia father and unborn sister. My grandmother brother who was coming home from school was convicted to 25 years and deported. He was just a child by that time.

So dont tell me that Russia just want to help. All that they want is territory and more power.

opss

I cant believe i havent wrote anything for all past year...But as i looked all my poems, everything what i wanted to say its not really in english...

there she sleeps

Rainy day today

all tears rain down

from broken heart

***

Fall in 1000 year sleep

waiting for the prince

who will never come

***

There she sleeps

Beautiful and quiet

waiting for the dreams come true

***
There she sleeps

1000 years

eyes still full of tears

***

Rainy day tomorrow come

when she wake up

when she break

/Elaiza Avota/

Hide

I hide from past
i run away from tomorrow
I disappear in time

Like teardrop fall down
i fall with you in sky
there is not time no space

with naked foots i touch the clouds
and sun is my playground
i dive in you

i close my eyes - not to see
how really gray is everyday
how really far is you and me.

/lila alguna/

Breath

breath in just this time candy rain
this quiet pleasure whispers
breath in just this time one touch
this one sensual kiss

breath deep, enjoy the moment
breath sweet and easy
don`t think, do not exist just feel
breath me deeper in

breath out one more time chocolate steam
strawberries and ice cream
breath out one more time innocent kiss
one real sweet look

let me breath you deeper in
breath sweet and easy
don`t dreaming, don not exist just feel
let me breath you in

/lila/

too perfect to be real...

you dream of me to bright
too shinny i`m in your mind
too perfect to be real
i`m not godess on earth
as u love tho think
i have my sins, my crime
my dark side
but still u see me to bright
to shinny and light
i`m not so lovely
as u choose to keep me in your mind
i`m not so sinless, not a godess
i came from dark going to dark
asking not to be pulled out
not to be found in devils crowd
i`m in my home.

/blonda4ka/

How I would spend $10,000

well looks like lot of money...but in my contry its like half so just 5000 well with 5 000 thats not so much so i just would pay for my studies at last...so i could studie... but as i dont have such money at first i jaust have to earn it

Songs I would put on a road trip mix CD

ok here it goes...
1)Guns N Roses - Paradise city
2)Marilyn Manson - [s]aint
3)Bodybangers - Bodytalk

and lot more others good songs

Turn off light...

I want turn off light in my life
Cuz today too hard to breath
Air too cold, too sharp
To feel sweet happiness

I want turn off light in my life
Today i`m just too sad to smile
You want to see tears in my eyes
There is no more tears

I want turn off light of my life
Sleep enteral life
Not to see, to be free
Enjoy Dream world thankfully

I want turn off my life humbly
Sincerely regret
All things I haven`t done
Cuz I have lived according to my heart.

You can call me dirty, wicked
But you even don’t know me
You can try to judge me
But my judge the God will be

I`m not afraid
To look in Gods eyes sincerely
Humbly held my head high
And ask forgiving trustfully heart.

/blonda4ka/

Run away from 1000 eyes

I want to scream
end this life and run away
hide in hell
still having hope
never been found

you came out of dark
shining and bright
came to hell pull me out
make me believe
that this is how it should be

but I`m tired to live in this perfect world
tired not to feel, not to see
I can`t fall again and again
don`t have strenght to stant up
to held my head high

I can`t face it again
want turn off my heart
hide in hell
having hope never been found
never been pulled out

but you came out of dark
shining and bright
have you ever lost in hell?
dont you never tired pull me out
make me believe that this is a way it should be?


/blonda4ka/