 Friends         | having fun in the sun  dliberity14: HI, - I LIVE IN LEESBURG WANNA CHAT AND GET TO EACH OTHER, MAYBE LUNCH? 5 years ago • Report • Link 0  carin1: Love is like a friendship caught on fire. In the beginning a flame, very pretty, often hot and fierce, but still only light and flickering. As love grows older, our hearts mature and our love becomes as coals, deep-burning and unquenchable
carin1: the meaning of friendship F - forever there when you need them R- remember when there forgotten I - in our heart,s throu thick ,n, thin E- endless mount of love N- never to be forgotten D- designed to be around thoose that matter S- support when needed H- here to be shoulder to cry on I- it take,s a-lot to make them but it take lot less to lose them P- please who so ever read,s this please remember that people are more then name,s number,s and discription,s it what they do and the feeling,s that matter so please don,t treat other as stranger cause friendship is more then a word carin1: my thoughts on jealousy.........my friend... Jealousy I hate this. Fuck her. I'm better than her. You're mine. I can give you the world. Well... Maybe she is better. I mean, That's why you're there Right? You're in her home Feeling her skin Kissing her lips... It.. hurts so fucking bad. ... I miss you. ... Leave her and be with me. carin1: A FRIEND IS A FRIEND WELL BEYOND THE END BECAUSE A FRIEND LIVES IN THE HEART AND IN THE SOUL WHICH TURNS INTO SWEET MEMORIES WHEN YOU FALL APART AND LOOSE CONTROL A FRIEND IS A FRIEND WELL BEYOND THE END BECAUSE A FRIEND SHARE A GOOD CHEERS THROUGH SADNESS AND TEARS LETTING YOU KNOW THAT YOU HAVE A FRIEND HERE A FRIEND IS A FRIEND WELL BEYOND THE END BECAUSE A FRIEND IS THERE THROUGH SORROW AND PAIN LAUGHTER AND SMILES BECAUSE AT ANYTIME A FRIEND CAN BE THERE carin1: You give to me hope And help me to cope When life pulls me down You bring me around You teach me to care And help me to share You make me honest With kindness the best From you I learned love With grace from above It's for you I live And I want to give carin1: closed are my sunken eyes tears gracefully crawl down my face I take another straight shot of whiskey as my head starts to race the cigarette is still burning and the sweet smoke tickles my nose My body is going numb I can no longer feel my toes I can see my black mascara tears as they fall onto my breast there are scratches and dried blood pretty purpled bruises decorate my chest my red lipstick smeared and hair full of knots I shove more pills in my mouth chasing it with three more shots my body is beyond broken my mind completely lost a lesson with a price myself an expensive cost he was too strong and heavy I couldn't get him off top with his hand over my mouth I kept screaming stop his cold eyes just watched me as I fought hard and cried he crushed my soul over and over as he thrusted deeper inside the world slowly went dark from the fighting and pain I woke up bloody and dirty from the sound of the rain now the bottle is empty and the room in spins I put the razor to my wrist and rip it across my skin the blood paints the floor everything is slowing down the darkness is back again and its now all around The cigarette still burns as the smoke does an exotic dance it moves so slow and graceful putting me in a trance there's an empty whiskey bottle a cigarette burning and a note the blood is coloring the white paper red where "I'm Sorry," is faintly wrote I weakly smile as I stare at the broken body I just escaped indeed an expensive cost for the price of rape carin1: i am a submissive woman. i find pleasure, joy and fulfillment from being submissive to another in a loving relationship. i am not weak, or stupid. i am a strong woman, with firm views and a clear concept of what i want out of my life. i do not serve out of shame or weakness, but out of pride and strength. i look to my loving Master for guidance and protection, for never am i more complete than when He is with me. i know that he will protect my body, my mind and my soul with His strength and wisdom. He is everything to me, as i am everything to Him. His touch awakens me and His thoughts free me. Only in serving Him do i find complete freedom and joy. His punishments are harsh, but i accept them thankfully, knowing that He has my best interests always foremost in His mind. If He desires my body for pleasure, i shall joyfully give it to Him, and take pleasure myself from knowing that i have brought Him happiness. However, the pleasure of the flesh is but one facet of any relationship. The love, the trust and sharing, the words spoken and felt, those are all parts of this relationship. my body is His, and if He says i am beautiful, then i am. No matter what i look like to others, i am beautiful in His eyes, and because of that i hold my head high...for who can tell me that my Master is wrong in seeing the beauty in me? If He says i am His princess, then i am that…regal and graceful. And if i see laughter at me in the eyes of others, i do not recognize it, for who are they to call my Master wrong? If He says i am His toy, His slut, His tramp, then i am that…as wanton and dirty as He wants me to be. And if others do not see this, then it is they who are blind, not my Master. my mind is His, to expand, to explore, to know as only He can. i have no secrets from Him…for secrets are a thing that would keep me from being more perfectly His. Secrets would put a wall up between my Master and myself…and i do not want walls. His lessons are not always ones i would seek on my own, but they are lessons He has decided i need, and so i learn from Him. my soul is His, as bare to His touch as ever my skin could be when i kneel naked at His feet. Never a moment goes by when i do not feel His presence, be He miles away or standing over me. If i were to ever displease Him, His displeasure would be a blow to my soul, worse punishment than any lashes could be. The anguish of my soul that i feel when i disappoint Him is harder to bear than the physical anguish i feel when His belt caresses me with fire. i spend my days knowing that the energy and thought He puts into our relationship is as much for my benefit as for His, and look forward to each lovingly crafted scene that we do together. His part is much harder than mine, and i know this and am grateful that He cares enough about me to spend His time and energy so freely on me. i have the easier job: to feel, to experience, to let myself go and abandon everything to Him. i am His pleasure and His responsibility, and He takes both seriously. i am a submissive woman. i am proud to call myself that. my submission is a gift that i do not give lightly, and can only be given to one who can appreciate that gift and return it tenfold. Only to He who has that strength will i give myself fully, because i am strong and proud. i am a submissive woman. carin1: Your pain is the breaking of the shell that encloses your understanding. Even as the stone of the fruit must break, that its heart may stand in the sun, so must you know pain. |
