About me...
<P>Hello, <BR><BR>My name is Cody Sheffield (obviously). I'm writing this section to explain a little about myself and to give you a general idea of who I am. Now if that isnt why you came here to read this, than it's probably best to find something else to do.<BR> <BR>I guess I'll start with my personality and my traits, and to sum it all up, I'm pretty unique. Since I was a kid I have lived a life where I have not only learned from my own lessons but attempted to do so from others as well, and I've been told it seems I see the world in a much larger light than normal. As a result I have a tendency to analyze everything around me in deep detail, and that includes myself, my thoughts, and especially my emotions. I also tend to do the same with others but I never assume to know so much about any individual, as often enough I've been proven wrong. I live my life day to day by Bushido, or a code of honor, and a strong set of morals. I believe this to be one of my strongest stregnths in my life, in everything that I do. This doesnt mean I'm a stiff, I enjoy good humor and get as much of it as I can. I'm very laid back, and I try to always take the time to appreciate the beauty of in the world around me, and this has alot to do with my faith which I will explain later.<BR> <BR>When it comes to things of an emotional nature, I'm very cautious and protective of myself, partially due to my past but I also believe it to be a good policy in the present. Despite this I always do my best to be as open as possible. I have no fear or shame in speaking anything at all of myself, though some things are hard to find the words for. Things like my emotional ties to my music that I create (yep, I'm a musician), and how a given song symbolizes feelings I could never find words for. All in all, I'm a pretty complicated man, but when it comes to my personality, I'm extremely caring, open, and laid back.<BR><BR>I suppose I should talk a little bit about the activities and hobbies I enjoy. They an integrated part of my life and have truly come to define who I am. I should open up right now though and say I'm not too much into sports, save for one that I will describe later. Taking scenic walks and wandering through beautiful forests and the sandy coasts is about as sportly as it gets with me really. Not the greatest quality in most peoples eyes, I know. God created some of the most beautiful things in the world we could ever see and I feel ashamed when I don't take the time to admire such things here and there. The only sport I really participate in and study is Iaido. I've come to have a natural fascination with it. For those that don't know, Iaido is a japanese martial art of swordsmanship that involves alot of giving in order to recieve the knowledge it offers. Hence I attempt to keep it a discipline in my life at all times. I'm not the greatest at actual combat and tactics by any means, but this is NOT the purpose in which my study and fascination derives, but rather to respect a given thing in life, learn its lessons, and integrate it into my life. Basically to be an example of sorts.<BR> <BR>Now aside from that being the only sport, I have hobbies as well. Firstly and foremost, is my music. I create a form of electronic music known as "Melodic Trance". Imagine if you would, taking a 'techno' club song, and mixing in hints of classical, or other scores, in order to create something with a tune that makes your emotions soar, this is what I aim for. My music is ultimatly a form of expression, and it still gets much more deeper than that. In my music I attempt to show the listener things in my heart that there are literally no words for, feelings and emotions that are sometimes so intense that they could never be described. True love, is an example of this... its sincerity (as it is meant to be respected) is beyond all words. The loss of a true love, is equally and painfully as intense. My largest goal musically has always been to show the one I hold closest to my heart, a piece of a beautiful world they never dreamed possible. It has always been to see a picture of such is one thing, but to be able to hear and thus feel the emotions, is something else entirely. Yeah, I know... It's deep... <BR><BR>Aside from my music I enjoy trying to understand the mechanical workings of compact sports cars, and mostly imported. Honda, Nissan, Toyota and the likes. I also enjoy gaming now and then, though not as much as I have in the past. I'm far more selective than I used to be in what types of games I play, and most tend to be some pretty epic RPGs that will unroll over time. I guess all in all I seem to like alot of guy stuff, except for watching romance movies =O but they also tend to depress me somewhat when I am missing a significant other so I also stay away despite my enjoyment of them. It's the other things I feel make me alot less common, particularly my music and my fencing.<BR> <BR>I guess some of you may be wondering what type of relationship I seek in life. Well, I'm generally open to most things. I've never been too quick to judge a person based on intial impressions. When you think you know all there is to know about someone sometimes, there always seems to be a surprise waiting around the corner. Now naturally I look for people who have similar interests, but I'm well aware that some of my interests are my own, and that they are the result of decisions that I made on how to lead my life, and as far as this goes, I expect often enough I will be along in this world as far as who I am is concerned. But mainly, I look for someone who understands what it means to live a moral life with a sense of honor, and never underestimating the power of what it means to live ones life based on faith and these ideals. I look for someone who can truly see me for who I am, and can learn to hear the words that my heart speaks to them, both through my music, and through mutual embrace.. I have only ever sought a true and sincere long term (permenant) relationship but I will not neglect someone looking for a friend at any particular moment in thier life. Like I said, I'm generally open, and will have to see where my life, faith, and love will take me.<BR> <BR>Sometimes I've been asked what my idea of a perfect date was. Well, this would depend ENTIRELY on the other individuals interests as well as my own. For me personally I am an extremely (and I do hope not overly, if there is such a thing) caring person, and I would try to do something that would fit into our unique tastes. If we both had a common love for candlelit italian tastes and enjoyed a moonlit walk down a shoreline, than I would be all for it. If it was something so simple as a quick bite to eat and out to see a movie that's great too. Or something so simple as sitting together sharing our words and thoughts with one another, it truly is almost anything possible.<BR> <BR>If your curious about my previous relationship, read on. If not, skip this paragraph. I believe honesty to be the best policy in life so I feel this is important to get out in the open. Needless to say, it's very deep. My last relationship was actually one of my firsts. I do not believe in short term relationships but have come to learn that not all of the world is like this. We got together in high school and spent 2 years together before I got testy and questioned if she was as devoted as I was. It eventually turned into neglect that I never noticed until it was too late and I lost her to another man. The time we spent together was not things I can put into words, not that they dont exsist, but I simply dont know them. I always believed in loving someone completely, sincerly, without question and with her I did, but because I had fear of a repeat of what happened in a crush before her, the mistake cost me all of it, and to say it was a lesson learned in a massive understatement. <BR><BR>I spent the next 5 years trying to prove to her and myself, that I was mistaken, and while it was too late, the resulting sorrow and sadness skyrocketed my music and looking back there were pieces created that would have never been possible otherwise. Pieces that to this day will still bring tears to my own eyes, and even potentially others. Some of these pieces of the past I only ever wanted her to hear, but they were never heard, others were strictly personal. I look to move on beyond the past and create and share a love unique to the other individual and myself, with the hope that it will last an eternity here on earth and hopefuly in heaven if that is how it works.<BR> <BR>Speaking of heaven, there's my faith, which is first and foremost the most important aspect in my life above all things. I was not faithfully strong growing up as I feel I should have been, but over time I have come to learn that there was a lesson in such a thing and it has taught me to be eternally thankful for what I have today. Growing up as a teenager I experienced alot of troubled times both in life and emotionally and I found it difficult to find God in the mix of things. Long story short, over time I gained a truly unique understanding of my own faith through what I had realized were God's own actions in my life, and he did so in a way that I could no longer deny God. I live my life today with a complete understanding of what exsists beyond my own senses and I walk with God as he allows me to do so, and I allow him to take precedence in my life above and alongside my Bushido. I have faith that in all I have and will recieve in what is left of my life will be out of his own will, and one day he will smile with mercy upon the world and I will see firsthand where my faith truly stood in his eyes.<BR><BR>Hmm, what else is there. The matter of my career and long term goals. Currently I'm employed with Keller Williams Realty. I recently returned from Michigan so I'm on the market for more and more work. As far as my dream job is concerned, firstly is full time musician and DJ, but to be more realistic, I aim for my aspirations to know more about import cars. Im hoping to go to a school to learn to become an automotive technician and then in the future to eventually specialize in import sport compacts. Well, eighther that or to work in computers, networking or hardware. It's an open future for me and I guess I will have to see where it leads. I may even end up working real estate, heaven forbid...<BR><BR> But anyways, all in all I am a unique person, and I seek friendship and even love from someone that can see that for what it is and understand it, and love me for who I am and allow me to love them to the fullest degree possible. If there is anything at all more you would like to know about me, please don't hesitate to ask. I'm a very open person. </P>
