Baby Names

It goes First Middle or Middle names the last name is my dirty secret lol

- Girl: Destiny Beverly
Boy: Wyatt Raymond

- Girl: Elizabeth Beverly
Boy: Isaac

- Girl: Clairisse Sabrina Beverly
Boy: Michael Raymond

-Girl: Maria Carin Beverly
Boy: Percy

Short Story and true story

The Lightly colored room seemed at ease with everyone, nobody noticed the figure of the angel above the room almost to take the place of Jesus. I stood in the very back not being seen by anyone, I am not out of place because nobody has even noticed me since I entered. My dark clothes make great hiding while standing in the shadows and I will be trying to keep it that way.

The cold room will soon fade once everyone starts walking, body heat will overtake coldness but at the momment it doesn't seem to be bothering anyone. Someone is talking about how weird it is to be here, they can call it weird all they want or even upsetting but I call it nothing.

I see someone I know touching the walls because the paint is coming off, but if he doesn't stop picking he could ruin it or maybe make this place better. I don't see why we wouldn't pick some where better to go, this place looks like it cost a penny for us to use it and for something like this that should be so respected we get something as shitty as this. I feel sorry for my friend who is up front, she's the whole reason we are here today. She looks miserable I will be too if I am here any longer, of course I know her she's not even paying attention she doesn't care that today is about her, she holds her boyfriend's hand and stairs off into space like I would. I watch the person speak barley paying attention mostly watching his lips move and thinking how I miss spending time with my best friend.

Someone should turn the light on or maybe that's as bright as they go, it seems dark in here and it's almost like everyone wants to be in the shadows they want to feel upset even though I see a few smiles on some peoples faces. As people get up and start mingling I keep my distance I don't want to be seen like this it's not right.

She's been my best friend since I could remember but yet I can't bring myself to talk to her, this is not like me at all and for some reason I know after today everything will change even she will.

Everyone is talking some even to strangers but I have stayed in the shadows looking straight at my friend trying to figure out what to say, no matter how bad it's going to hurt me I have to talk to her. "Not yet." I think, "It's just not time."

People go to her, touching her hand or face, even kissing her on the cheek they smile at her but don't say much. One lady says, "Everything is okay now." I consider her words but inside me I still feel I need to say sorry to my friend, to ask her forgiveness and that is why it's so hard to talk to her.

Her boyfriend sits beside her shaking his head looking to the ground. I know he feels like it's his fault, out of all the people he feels like he could have done something, but I know her she would have told him before it wasn't,"No one could have stopped this." That is something she always says but this time is different, this time I can tell her I feel as if I could have done something that if it wasn't for me this wouoldn't have happened. I could have told her to stay home that it was to dangerous but I didn't and now I have made everyone upset.

Her parents look my way, trying to hide from them would be no use they always could spot me even in a large crowd like this. As they start to approch me I can't help but think that my friend would follow but she can't people have crowded her and I understand why. "She doesn't blame you." Her mother gives me a hug and all I can do is smile. I just think, "Well she may not but I sure do." Her parents call us the "A" Team because we have the same first name. We were always together almost like twins but not at all. "Stuck like glue" her father had said once, "Always together like a fork and knife" her mother always says. Are birthdays are the same too, and less then a week ago we almost had the best birthday ever. Were here now and our birthday was ruined and I can't even confront her to tell her how sorry I am or to say how bad I feel about all this. It makes me sick how stupid I am being, that is my best friend up there and I can't even go say "Hi"

Finally I have to go see her I am sure the family won't stay around long and I can't miss my chance to tell her how sorry I am. As I walk toward her everyone stops what their doing and whoever was talking to her is moving aside, almost like I am the most important one to go see her but I know I am not. Her boyfriend stands up and hugs me, I haven't known him long but I do know he is a good man and that she use to talk about him all the time about how much she loves him. I stand and look at her, the rose that I wanted to give her I now place in her hands of course she would take it she never refused any gift I give her.

"Ashley." I touch her hand, it's cold but so is this room, "Please forgive me, I am so sorry for what I have done to you." One last look at her beautiful face I Close her casket a tear breaks through and without saying goodbye to anyone I walk away.

Keep Going

The next step in life is always right around the corner
Get up an live life, because
One day you won't be able to.
Don't let life get the best of you
Don't let pain tie you down
Take everyday like you may not see the next.
When everything is coming down
Stand up an fight to do something about it.
Today
Tomorrow
A month or
A year be adventures.
Do something like you would never do
Just remember you only live once

Their Place

She looks out over the water
The sun slowly rises, and
Life begins to appear.
Sitting in the grasss looking out to the world a smile forms on her
pale wet face
No matter how much she cries
The memories will always make her smile.
You were always there for her
You helped her through her troubles, and
Know matter what you always said you loved her.
She remembers when you showed her this place
It became a place for both of you to be together
This was the secret you kept from everyone.
She thought there was no better place then to let you go
This is where you came, and
This is where you leave.
As she let your ashes fly over the mountain top
She looked up and said
"I'll always love you Nanny."

MoonLight

The water sparkles like a crystal
The moon shines bright like a flash light
uncovering all the dark secrets.
Standing by the shore
With toes slightly touching the cold waves
Stepping closer into the water
The feeling of excitement overwhlems her.
Stars twinkle above one is never the same
as another
The night is calm and quite
Not another soul in site.
Diving in the cold quickly turns to warmth
Bathing in the lake
Nothing is like a swim under the full moon
Beauty is indescribable.

Trying Harder

Trying to fight through the days
A step at a time isn't helping
A tear a day makes it worse
It just won't go away.

Flash backs by day
Horrors at night
It just won't go away.

Every person is scarier then before
Every dream is worse then the last
Another bad memory
Another ruined day.

So uncomfortable
Nothing to say
Hidden in my clothes
It just won't go away.

Don't want to talk
Just leave me be
what do you want with me
I just wanna cry.

Trying to fight through the days
A step at a time isn't helping
A tear a day makes it worse
It just won't go away.

Flash backs by day
Horrors at night
It just won't go away.

So uncomfortable
Hidden in my clothes
It just won't go away
Please just go away.

Someone Cared

It falls shatters.The glass cuts hard. the cut deepens blood pours on the cold hard wood floor. Was it a accident was it on purpose. No tears will stream down those cheeks. Who am i talking about. Girl, guy? Do you even care? She breaks the only glass thing in her house. Now the vase her mother gave her lays smashed by her bare feet. The cut makes her weak but she doesn't move. She's watching her blood and water mix on the wood. This is actually real she thinks. Why won't she move. She stands there repeating what just happened. Why her vase is now shattered pieces on her floor. The cut is deep but you can't tell because there is so much blood. Who am I talking about? Do you want to know? Do you even care? There's your answer no one cared until now.

I Remember

I study the room
Cold with wooden walls
Sitting alone all I want to do is cry.
Memories of us flow like a river to my mind
I remember your smile, and
The way you laughed when I tickled you.
I remember you telling me to be strong when you saw me cry.
The room gets colder when
I remember how you held me in the Winter, but
Where are your arms now?
As tears run down my face
I remember your last words before you drove away, "I love you honey and soon we will be together again."
Do you think he remembers me up there?
Do you think he's saving me a place beside him in heaven?
The hospital called, and
I remember When you never left my side when I was sick
Now, I never leave your grave.
“Don’t worry I’ll always love you.”

Finale Days

The rain will fall
The clouds will sore, And
When all seems lost
The sun will shine, but
Not all is good.
Days an nights will pass by without notice
Weeks will become months then years
Not a single soul will even care.
Everything will go unnoticed,and
Not a person will look
Until one day when we have gone so far that not even the great earth can take it, and
Everything around us begin to collapse
Will that be the day you finally look around you an see everything is wrong