i've never done a blog before, so if i seem a little awkwards.... i came to this site hoping to find new friends. and thankfully i've done that. but there was something more that i didn't expect. i've started to learn about empathy and seeing things from other people's point of view. i seems my motivations and expectations are not the same as everyone else's and i have to learn to be aware of that. it's not just me attached to the convo even though it's easy to think that when all you can see is words.
Until this week-end, i've been blissfully unaware but then i think i offended someone by being so careless. i've alway considered myself to be a very conscious and considerate person but now i'm not so sure that that description fits. it seems easy to pretend to be someone that you're not to appease other's. in fact, i've met some people that are so busy acting like someone else, that there's nothing left of the "real them"; the whole thing becomes some alter-ego.... an escape from themselves and an out-right lie to those who fall into the trap.
But, that's not me. i'm not comfortable beng that kind of man. i'd much rather have friends that apreciate me for who i am and not who i think they want me to be. besides, how many lies can you juggle before you yourself forget who you are or are not supposed to be? how many masks can be worn before you forget which one is for which stage?
Now that i recognize the flaw and seeing how ucomfortable it can make me and those around me, i think it's better not to be here trying to appease other people. i am who i am and i can't take that for granted. I can not be the person just anyone wants me to be. i think it's better to be honest about that up-front from now on. besides, i think it takes more courage to be who you are and risk rejection than it does to lie and get caught doing it later.