 Friends   | Nothing interesting to put here. Just a broken down old war dog who hasn'tbeen for over twenty years.  Brat_: Scary! 4 years ago • Report 0 View all 5 posts  Jenngardium_Leviosa: There is so much more to life that you have yet to explore! You have friends who care about you. Like Brett and myself! I know life can be hard and painful. Believe me i have had my unfair share of pain. I too have been to the point of no return! But yet i am here breathing and happy! I had 1 friend who listened who cared and thats all i needed. I never knew 1 caring soul could be such a rock for me but it changed my life and perspective of things. Please let Brett or myself help u thru this.   Srchng4Truth: This is a resource I found for you. There are groups that you will be able to attend in person and online. The online chat is also very helpful. https://suicidepreventionlifeline.org/help-yourself/veterans/  dukekeagan to wheelgirl: Heya Wheels. Hows things. Been gone. Wont be on much but I wanted to tell you how much I respect and admire you. I understand a lot of what you go through and the strength you need to keep on keepin' on. (that corny?) You always remember to do fun things twice. Its a rule you know.  wheelgirl: Thank you for your kind words keagan, and no that wasn't corny at all . And as for that rule, I got it noted!!! Your a blessing!! God bless you my friend  dukekeagan: Hey all. Its been nice meeting all of you. I wont be on much any more but thank you for taking the time to visit with me. Remember Hope, Faith and Belief are the steps that will lead to truth. You must be sincere in your efforts, finding truth of any kind can not be achieved through mere lip service. My favorite thought: "And now abideth faith, hope, charity, these three; but the greatest of these is charity." Charity is love. Love of self, love of family...and love of others. Even though I do not believe in religion, I do believe there is a lot of truth to be found from studying all religions. Think of truth to be a full set of piano keys which were separated and lost. You find a couple here and couple there, and even a few keys where you wouldn't expect to find any. Each of our searches might lead to different things but when broken down they emphasize an old, and forgotten thought which I believe is the key to happiness. Some of us old timers call it the "Golden Rule." The Golden Rule is a maxim among all religions: "Do unto others as you would have them do unto you." May life treat you kindly and may you be tolerant of all persons. Lastly, always remember to do fun things twice.   dukekeagan to Bettyest: Greetings Betty. Thanks for becoming my friend. How many kinders do you have? I think I read you have some grown and gone while still having a couple of the youngers using the mommataxi. I have two, Son and daughter. Both grown. Daughter has five kids of her own. Sadly, they have always lived a long way away so I dont get to be a grandpa. My son is another story all together. Him, his girlfriend and the girlfriends two daughters live close. His girl friend doesn't like me and the feeling is mutual. So, thats the short story. You have a grand day today. Remember to do fun things twice. Its kind of a rule.  Bettyest: Hi Great rule! ..I have five kids. Three grown now and two still in high school. I'm not really looking forward to "empty nesting"...but...I'll be proud to see them being self sufficient and pursuing adulthood with the gusto that young adults have. I have no grandchildren yet. My second son married a wonderful gal this last December though...I'll love to being a grandma if the time ever comes. I hope you and your son's gf can find something to appreciate in each other. You both love your son, and your son loves both of you is a good starting point?? I'm sure there's much more to it that caused you not to like her though ::: sigh:::: Anyway, I thought I'd respond back. Have a wonderful evening!!! dukekeagan: For you responsible, working types out there Friday is a positive bump. For us low life lazy broken down folks, Friday could be Monday. I like Wednesdays my own self. Happy Friday all.  View all 4 posts  dukekeagan: Thanks deflory78. There are a lot more folks than just me, going through their lives with much worse things going on. I'm glad I'm not at the bottom of that list. I dont even want to think about being the person who cant say..."Someone has it worse than me." I suppose that is a petty selfish thing to think, huh? Thank you for your thought. dukekeagan: Today is not Saturday. I thought yesterday was Friday before a went to sleep, so that would make today Saturday. But its not or my wife would be here. So it must be Friday...right? How far off can one broken old man be off? It turns out a broken old man can be off by two days!! Two whole days! Today is Thursday. Why is today Thursday of it was Friday when I went to sleep and that was just eight hours ago? I think I'm confused. Is that a bad thing?  dukekeagan to deflory78: Greetings. Read you are a motorcycle enthusiast. Thats great. I used to read all the time, sadly I got hurt and cant ride any more. I was a military motorcycle safety instructor for eleven years. That was a long time ago. So what are you riding? Thanks for the thumbs up on my profile. View all 4 posts dukekeagan: Thank you for your support. The Korean war was interesting. Its to bad the soldiers who served have been forgotten/passed over. But us old timers remember. Your dad still with us? If so give him my respect please...one old solder to another. Kawasaki Vulcan. Nice ride. Have you taken the motorcycle safety course yet? I forget what its called, but its held at Chemeketa. Its a good course. Fun even. I have always wanted to go coast to coast in a big rig. Seems like it would be really interesting. Course if you are making long runs like that all the time I suppose it could get a bit boring. Still, a pot of hot coffee within reach. Some munchies and chewies and a case of mountain dew. Put some good tunes on and just keep rollin' on. LOL...  deflory78 in reply to dukekeagan: Lol! It’s always interesting out there on the road. Yes both my parents are still around. I will give your respect to dad. Thank you! I actually took the course at Chemeketa. It’s called “Team Oregon “. It was a very good 3 day course. 4 yrs ago I took their riders skills course. Been riding 5 yrs. Time flies LOL dukekeagan: Yes...Team Oregon. (Old and broken brains dont work the best) My wife and I always had plans to ride hwy 1 from Canada to mexico. Just take our time...maybe a month even. Stopping when and where we please. Camping on the beach or taking a few days off the road to relax in a hotel. I think thats been on our dream list for thirty of the thirty-eight years we've been together. Ah well...life changes as we travel through it. Do you have family that rides with you? Today is a new day I suppose. Remember to do fun things twice. Its a rule you know and good for the heart. Srchng4Truth: Much of my life has felt like a struggle. At one point I felt very depressed. I tried to kill myself. I didn't think things could possibly change. I was wrong. Thankfully my brother found me and got me to the hospital, and my attempt was unsuccessful. Four and a half years ago my twin nephews were born. They were born two months premature and each only weighed a little over 3 pounds at birth. They spent the first two months of their lives in a NICU, and we didn't know if they would make it or if they would, would they be significantly damaged from the incident. Because of their premature birth, their lungs were not fully developed, and my brother and sister in law were told they couldn't go to daycare until their lungs developed. My brother asked me if I could help watch them until their lungs developed and they would be able to go to daycare. I never expected to be involved with children. In school, I tried to focus on adolescents and adults(I was in Psychology trying to become a psychologist). Thankfully I was still given a good amount of training on infants and children, not that I thought I would ever use it. So I agreed to help watch my nephews until their lungs could develop and they could go to daycare. Well, my brother and sister in law both work full time jobs with long hours and so even once their lungs had developed enough to go to daycare, they still needed someone to help watch them. Keep in mind that this was not something I wanted to do or thought would ever benefit me. I'm really not fully sure why I agreed to help watch my nephews. Maybe it was a partly a sense of obligation. Maybe it was partly just something I thought that I should do. Maybe I felt called. Maybe it was a combination of some or all of these. Regardless, helping watch my nephews changed my life. It was like being reborn. I saw the world though their eyes, so many things I had forgotten about. These things were all around me, but I had just tuned them all out. I guess an example might be leaves or grass. I certainly was not thinking about what leaves or grass were like or why they existed, but my nephews did. They asked me questions about everything, so I was "forced" to have to go back and reexperience, relearn, and try to teach them. I still am watching my nephews. They are like my best friends and more. I would give my life to protect them. They are not the only thing in my life that has changed, though I think they were very significant. All my life, I've been searching for God and for a way to make my life work. I wanted to be happy. I'm not saying God was not always in my life, nor that I didn't have moments and even periods of happiness throughout my life. He was and I did. However, now I treasure my life. I am SO happy and feel SO blessed. I never imagined that I would ever have gotten to where I am now. As I think back upon my suicide attempt, I realize it was probably the stupidest thing I ever did. By some miracle, thank you God, my brother found me and my attempt went down as only an attempt. Thinking about never having gotten to meet my nephews who I didn't know were coming and had never thought about, brings me SUCH regret, such anger at myself. Not only do I love my life SO much now, but I think of the loss to my nephews, and the selfishness of my attempt. I know it can be hard and things can seem so bleak and hopeless, but my life is proof that in spite of how hopeless things can seem, things can change. So I implore you and everyone who might be considering suicide to hold off. Keep hope. Things can change and change SO dramatically. The thought of missing out on the last few years and where I am now is horrifying to me. The thought that I came so close to missing out on all this makes me SO angry with myself, but at the same time just SO grateful that my attempt failed. As I final note I would like to thank my friends and all the people in my life who I love and cherish, and I would like to apologize to anyone whose life I might have helped or be helping for my stupidity. wheelgirl: Its amazing how God uses people, even children to transform us and give our life purpose. God bless you. dukekeagan to wheelgirl: Greetings Wheels. Interesting name. Are you an avid bike rider? Motorcycle maybe? Any how..greeting from the Pacific North West. dukekeagan: I found the answer. My mom had MS and was wheel chair bound and then bed bound all my life. You are a brave person. All my best to you. Strength and happiness. wheelgirl: Greetings to you sir keagan. A bike rider with 4 wheels maybe.. lol.. Details are in my profile dear. greetings to you from the land down under  dukekeagan to Bettyest: An all purpose Mom. Thats pretty cool. I was a softball dad for a lot of years and a long time before that I was a soccer uncle. In my youth I fenced but never managed to get any of my kids or kin interested. Now I'm just old. Dont stop being an all purpose Mom because as soon as you do, you get old. Unless...you dont have a long wait for grandkids. I would love to be an all purpose Grandpa. Sadly, thats not to be,  dukekeagan to trishtx: Very pretty young lady. They certainly know how to grow young ladies in Texas. dukekeagan to PookiePoohPie: I love Malibu!! Well, the Malibu of my youth. I spent most of my high school days on Malibu and Zuma beaches. dukekeagan to joslynn26: Greetings? Are you still hanging out here at all? Flight school sounds fun. I earned an Air Force pilot slot a long time ago. Happy days. dukekeagan to tatianasouly: Greetings Tatiana. Thank you for the friend request. Made my day actually. Been a rough one hereabouts. Now we are coast to coast. LOL :-D  (Post deleted by dukekeagan ) |
