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Oh Yeah New Project

Yeah That's right i'm gonna do a video blog. Why not? Don't seem the harm in it. So I'm gonna do it. Go Here For the Announcement Video (http://s11.photobucket.com/albums/a157/Rellik_the_JPS/Unnamed%20Vlog%20Project/?action=view&current=VID_20120316_154646.mp4) Here for Episode 1(http://s11.photobucket.com/albums/a157/Rellik_the_JPS/Unnamed%20Vlog%20Project/?action=view&current=VID_20120316_160238.mp4) or Go Here for the Main Album page with the Videos(http://photobucket.com/Unnamedvlogproject) Let's have fun with this Greenies. Help me name my new Project!?

Unnamed Vlog Project?

http://photobucket.com/Unnamedvlogproject

Go here to Check out my newest Project!?

Don't know anymore

Some days I sit and just think. Wondering what everything means and if it will end with a bow wrapped on top. I try and try to move on.....and it just doesn't happen. I put my neck out and try. I meet people I take them out and what happens? After a meal that i spent half of my rent to pay for? "I'm interested in someone. I'm sorry. But thank you for the evening." .....LIke...what the hell? What happened to the world that a guy can court a woman for 2 weeks, ask her to dinner, and take her to dinner. Then after dinner he takes her home, maybe a hug, a kiss on the cheek maybe, and then they set another date the day later after they marinate? Now it's "Oh you just spent money on me? Oh heh I'm sorry eff you I'm not interested in you're weird ass, just wanted free food." I'm begining to want to give up. I hate feeling like giving up because thats not me. BUt then again I'm stuck in the middle of a rock and a hard place on that theory alone. On one hand I have the love of my life. We were together for 5 years, Nearly 6. She leaves, I still love her. All i want is for her to come home to the house we made. The bedroom we set up. The living Room we decorated. Nope, she's off with her New Boyfriend. Mr. I work for a company designing Childrens games, and Work at UPS. I live with my mom so i have a shit ton of money to spend on this really nice 2011 Ford Truck, and make your ex look like a loser. All i want is her to forget him and come home to ME. I refuse to give up on that. But all i can think about is maybe i should? But then that would ruin My whole theory on giving up.... I give up on trying to ger or love back and then.....I'm still giving up. But if i try to find someone to fill the void....wouldn't that also be giving up?......I just dont know what to do anymore.

Random Rhyme

Sometimes when I'm sittin' and wishin', my Dreams in remission. Something would come and tell me I'm destined for something greater. Like I'm the next fuckin' savior. This is what happened after she left, sittin' in my dark room, wishin' the end would come soon. But it didn't come I'm still here, mind full of fear. Waiting to fall again just to have my heart smashed, wishin' this wasn't the time death passed. If it ain't my time then when is it? Someone tell me please, pay me a visit. My dead family and friends, someone come tell me when it all ends. I just want to know. I'm tired of the pain, it's effecting my soul. I can't think straight i'm loosing my grip on humanity, These days i don't care about my vanity, the dark and twisted road has led to my insanity.