day three, i think i'm the only one alive on earth

i joined this site to meet others that are looking for the same things that i have been searching for. i have reached out to four people and not one of them has answered nor has a stranger checked my site felt the urge to reach out to me. rejection is becoming a constant in my life as of late. i'm tired of smiling while my mind is screaming to these idiots in front of me, that don't give a rat's ass about me or anything else outside of their perfect plastic world. what the fwy@ is your problem!!! my brain screams in agony taking my being over that i have no control of my actions. i have lived this nightmare for years and i know that there is no answer, no reality of what could, what must be done to ease the pain i have carried straight into hell.