The Dilemma

The Dilemma

She thought she spilled the contents of her heart
But deep inside, she knew she had retreated
From that precipice of exposure
She had to keep some thing alive
And private
And only “hers”
To write with heart and soul but to keep that ‘something’ back
How is that to be achieved?
Or should we spread our best wares in the sun
To fade, at another’s disapproval?
Disinterest? disappointment? distress?
Disgust?

So she divulges that which keeps her sane
And holds to her breast those things
Which could be mis-interpretated, mistrusted,
Misunderstood, misrepresented,
Ruined

And so it is.

A Voice on the Wind

A Voice on the Wind



You will find me
Though I change my name
And move into the country
Withdraw to the dark

You will find me
Should I change my form
And swim with fish
In the deepest sea

You will find me
Should I fly from this world
And soar to distant galaxies
Laughing at the trail of stars
I leave in my wake

You will find me
Should I run into the distant hills
And camoflague myself
In the deep, purple heather

Yes, You will find me
For your task consumes you
As my longing echoes to you
Through this world's misty places

There could be no escape
For our futures have been
Forged in spiritual steel
Sealed in my spirit's blood.

Leave your place and work
Set out on your best adventure
Too much time has passed
Hear my voice on the wind

I will look for you
As you come to find me
For we are one and the same
Soulmates, awaiting discovery.

The Path Ahead

The Path Ahead


I am not yet dead
Therefore I cannot be dismissed
As one who tried and failed
Some sad victim of fate
I am not yet dead
For I feel the life blood surging
Deep inside this neglected body
This abstract work of art

I am not yet dead
So while the breath rises in me
And the urge to write remains
So, too will my heart contract

I am not yet dead
Though almost dead have I been
Still the wraith wandered in my dreams
Prompted me onwards
Though my hope was almost gone

I am not yet dead.

My Innerself

My Innerself


a sense of wonder
a whisper of fate
a cold cruel world
love dissipates
somehow things will work out
all which is true
until then
i follow through
your dreams have been forgotten
do what your told
look back and regret
by then your too old
a war to tug
a chase to dream
attempting to fill this void
with something obscene
the plot thickens
and so does my affliction
hope u enjoyed this
petty addiction


Day by Day
lonesome and agitated
I don't need your guidance
these dogmas can't hold up
who's the one in control?
blase at best
confused
never able to rest
a mind full of nothingness
a soul worth the fight
battling these demons
my spirit ignites


predisposed
a myriad of nothing
hopes and dreams pummeled
i can be anything that i please
as long as its void of being free
my inner self jostles vigorously
should it really be this tedious
to fight so long
for a perpetual downfall
Its all a dream
pull the plug
until then
I creep on
like a slug

Thinking about LEAVEING WIRE.

the only way iam going to stay here after what happen to me today is if yall can give me a reason to stay. this crap with the stalkers is geting way out of hand. i got kids that i have to think about when it comes to shit like this. i dont know what to do but leaveing seems like the best think to do. i got alot of friends here that i care about very much. know that its not you guys the reason iam leaveing. this place use to be a fun place to come to and now every time i trun around i got dumb ass men hrassing me. i dont want to leave but i dont see any thing else that i can do. if i stay its just going to keep happen and iam really sick of it. i dont know why they are doing this and at this point i really dont care why they are doing it. its just really getin on my last nerv. so yall tell me what i should do. yalls oppin is what iam looking at here this time.this isnt fair to all my friends and its not fair to me either but this is the last straw. iam done with all the crazy shit going on here. i like it here but this place is geting out of control and it use to not be this way here. well yall give my your advice on this and let me know what u think.

thanks,
lilsis

Thinking Of You







I sit here quietly and watch the sun set
Thinking of someone that I've never met
I wonder does he think of me too
Needless to say I am thinking of you

Wanting to hold you, to see your face
To take you away to a better place
You feel so right, too good to be true
I just can't stop thinking of you

My friends say that I might regret
Losing my heart to a man I've not met
I say there is nothing I can do
I cannot help thinking of you

I believe you were made special for me
But wonder if that could possibly be
I'm tired of being so alone and blue
But I always smile when thinking of you

Desire

Desire



Just like rivers desire the ocean

And waves desire the shore

Lips desire to kiss you

And greed desires more

Desire for you is great in me.



Sun is loved by earth

And earth is loved by moon

My arms are eager to hold you

And wish it to happen soon

Love for you is great in me .



Skin to soak your warmth

Ears thirst to listen

Eyes are hungry to see you

And hands have similar mission

Lust for you is great in me .

If I Could Make A Wish

If I Could Make A Wish








If I could make a wish
And have it last forever and a day,
I would take you in my arms
And this is where I'd stay..
For there's no one else I know
That holds my heart like you,
And I know someday, baby,
You'll realize this is true.

If I could make a wish
Your lips would be on mine,
I'd slowly sip and savor you
Like only the finest wine.
For there's no one else I know
That gives me so much pleasure,
And I know someday, baby,
You'll see that you're my treasure.

If I could make a wish
Our bodies would unite,
There's nothing I'd love more
Than making love all night.
For there's no one else I know
Who gives me passion like you do,
And I know someday, baby,
All my wishes will come true.

If I could make a wish
I'd start by making things right,
I'd take away all your doubts,
And hold you through the night.
For there's no one else I know
That means as much you see,
And I know someday, baby,
You'll learn to trust in me.

If I could make a wish.
It would be just you and me,
No worries in the world,
Just happy as can be.
For there's no one else I know
Who with me, makes the perfect rhyme,
And I know someday, baby,
In another place in time.

If I could make a wish
I'd go to the next lifetime to be with you,
I know that you're my soulmate,
There's no doubt I know it's true.
For there's no one else I know
That is my destiny,
I know I'm meant for you,
And I know you're meant for me

I Will Always Know This To Be True

I Will Always Know This To Be True





Days were filled with tears
Moments were filled with pain
Thoughts were filled with memories
Dreams were filled with nightmares

Till not long ago I though it was impossible
To find the friend most search for all their life
I lost so many friends as years came and went
After all I've been through
After all those who left my life

I never thought I'd find a friend as good as the ones I've lost
A friend who'd be by my side and who'd listen to my thoughts
Maybe these are just words
Maybe it'll all change with time

Even though we only know each other from far, far away
Even though the Internet is the only communication we share
I Trust you more with every word
I would stand by your side when no one else would
I would tell you the truth even though it might hurt

The words I'm trying to say is that you are one of my true friends
You know what I feel, you know my little ways,
You never judge me, you never have.

You're there for me to wipe the tears
You're always there to lend a ear
Maybe someday you'll forget my face, you'll forget who I am,
But I will always know to be true
That there aren't many friends as good as you

LONELY HEART

LONELY HEART



If I had a heart I'm sure it would say
How lonely its been since you went away,
With no one to snuggle and no one to hold.
I guess I'll adjust, or so I've been told.

It's hard to sit back as the line seems to grow
And watch all the flirting, when deep down I know
There's nobody there who can know your heart
Or feel your thoughts even though apart.

To know your thoughts with just one word
Without the others being heard.
To feel your heart and share what you love
Like some magic secret from up above.

The music flows and so do the smiles
From you to them across the miles.
Even our songs that were special there
Are followed by smiles for all to share.

I guess it's me... I just don't understand
You told me you loved me and held my hand.
How can I trust anything you say,
When I'm yesterdays news the very next day.

If I had a heart it would beat in place
Instead of having this empty space.
And yours would beat along with mine,
And I'd be yours til the end of time.

Let Me Trust You

Let Me Trust You


Everyday I get more afraid
Of giving my heart away
Scared of what love will bring
Too nervous to hear the words you’ll say
I find myself lost in you
Not sure if I want to be
I see the looks that you give
And wonder what you see in me
I don’t want my heart broken
But I am so in love
I can’t seem to give up
A guy sent from above
So I’m gonna trust you
Please don’t let me down
For I am giving you a chance
To turn my life around
Don’t take it for granted
‘Cause it might not last long
I have weak thoughts
And my heart isn’t too strong
I’m putting my life in your hands
Now it’s all up to you
I look forward to the places we go
And the things we’ll be put through
But remember that I’m vulnerable
And I can’t stand to be hurt
I want to be at the top of your list
But I don’t have to be first
Believe me when I tell you
That I love you with all my heart
That I’m here for you forever and always
Just like I was at the start...

Reach out

Reach out

In times of stress,
When mountains look high.
In times of pain,
When all you feel is cut up.

In days of glory,
When your heart feels merry.
In days of serenity,
When you want to preserve,

Your feelings, your fervor,
When you want to safely bury,
All your secrets, All your hopes,
All you should do is,

Reach out for nothing but one.
The firmness of a hand,
The warmth of a palm.
it is a gift from your best friend,

The only thing tangible he can give today.
Make sure you hold the Right hand always.
For it's there for Right deeds,
Right days and Right friend.

My Right hand is forever yours,
Do take care of the love it pours.

Not So Fast

Not So Fast


Have you ever watched kids on a merry-go-round?

Or listened to the rain slapping on the ground?

ever followed a butterfly's erratic flight?

Or gazed at the sun into the fading night?

You'd better slow down. Don't dance so fast.

Time is short. The music won't last.



Do you run each day on the fly?

When you ask, "How are you?"

Do you hear the reply?

When the day is done do you lie in your bed

With the next hundred chores running through your head?

You'd better slow down. Don't dance so fast.

Time is short. The music won't last.



Ever told your child, we'll do it tomorrow?

And in your haste not see his sorrow?

Ever lost touch,

Let a good friendship die

Cause you never had time

To call and say "Hi"?

You'd better slow down. Don't dance so fast.

Time is short. The music won't last.



When you run so fast to get somewhere

you miss half the fun of getting there.

When you worry and hurry through you day,

It is like an unopened gift... Thrown away.

Life is not a race, do take it slower

Hear the music, before the song is over.

What Did I Do Wrong

What Did I Do Wrong

We were so close together
Now so far apart
What happened in between
I can only feel in my heart

I wish you were here
To talk with me today
But I can't give a call
My body won't obey

Things seemed to be so perfect
Now they seem so wrong
I don't feel as though I know you
Where has our friendship gone

You used to be able to talk with me
About everything you felt
Now I feel I'm a stranger
My heart is starting to melt

We always used to talk
Until the middle of the night
I don't know what we talked about
But never once in a fight

I need you in my life
I need you as a friend
I need to laugh and cry with you
Forever 'til the end

I still don't know what has happened
Our friendship has lasted so long
But I can't help from wondering
What did I do wrong ?

hit again

hit again

he hit me again,
when dose it stop?
dose he know it hurts me?
cant he see the blood i lay in?

he hit me again,
now i lay in a bloody,
mess on the bed,
where he left me.

he hit me again,
what did i do?
he cuts deeper ever time,
yet nothing stops,

he hit me again,
i hate him,
he hit me again,
what do i do?

he hit me again,
im done,
i give up.
what else can i do?

sick of puting up the fight,
sick of trying to win,
sick of being black and blue,
sick of this and sick of you.

he hit me again,
what did i do?

A Poem For Best Friends

A Poem For Best Friends






A friend to cry with
To know your tears
A friend to hide with
To know your fears


A friend to hold
A friend to care
One you know
Will always be there


A friend of hope
A friend of love
A friend to do for you
All of the above


A special person
Could be hard to find
One who will always be
In a part of your mind


A friend to talk with
To know what you're saying
A friend to depend upon
when you feel straying


Go out and party
Not out alone
Someone to be with
Gone or at home


An arm to carry you
To help hold you strong
A person to help you
No matter how long


A voice of comfort
A voice of fun



A power of faith
A power of hope
A power through pain
Will help you cope


This is a person
Someone to be there till the end
This is what makes someone
Your best friend

Love

Love

For most it is holding a lover's hand
Watching the sunset on the horizon
A candlelit dinner on Valentines Day
The exchange of rings

For others love can come from another source
Those special souls that welcome you with a smile and hug
They stand beside you in sadness and joy
They laugh with you
Cry with you

Always treat you with kindness and respect
These special souls give their love freely
Never asking for anything but the like in return
This is the love that comes from friendship,
True friendship

A love that is treasured throughout a lifetime
Few are fortunate enough to know this kind of love
Those who do are the few that ever
truly understand the definition of love

Healing From The Pain

Healing From The Pain

Spirit of the earth,
Mountain of the sky,
Seek the waiting answer,
And you shall only find.

The world, it waits for no one,
So you must take the chance,
Reach out with your heart,
For you must start the dance.

You may turn away from me,
And walk the path of loneliness,
But I will reach out with my hand,
And offer you just this.

I would like to love you,
for all you are,
But it's you who must return,
The love I gave so far.

I know you've felt the sting,
Of angry bitterness,
But the world, it waits for no one,
And you I'll surly miss.

I Never Asked You

I Never Asked You





I never asked you to stay around.
But you kept saying that you would.
I never asked you to make me smile,
But yet you always could.


I never asked you to stop your life
To show how much you care.
But no matter what the circumstance,
You were always there.


I never asked you to listen,
But you always heard what I had to say.
And all those things I never asked for,
You gave me anyway.


I know you never asked but,
Thank you.
Now I want to do the same for you

words We Said

words We Said

Yes I am a keeper
You gave me things to keep
Thoughts, memories, words
All comfort in my sleep

We both chose those words
Keeper I don’t use lightly
Where do you keep yours
I think about mine nightly

The keeping lasts forever
Forever is what you said
Happy to have them with me
Each time I go to bed

Hope this is not in vain
A keeper I chose to be
Hope you hold the thoughts
I keep those sent to me

Remember what you said
Because I always do
A keeper of fond memories
Should last a lifetime through

Why Say Goodbye

Why Say Goodbye

Why say goodbye?
Why turn away?
Why say we won't see each other
after this day?

Why do you frown?
Why shed a tear?
Why do you bow your head,
as if in fear?

Why that hurt in your eyes?
Why that look on your face?
Why do you feel
this is the last place?

Why all the sorrow?
Why all the pain?
Why all the sadness,
why again?

Goodbyes are not forever.
They are not the last word.
They are just something to say,
something to be heard.

They are a continuation,
A forwarding of what is to begin,
A promise, a hope,
not something to condemn.

Goodbyes should not bring torture,
Torment, or despair,
Feelings of comfort and patience
should instead be presented there.

This is not the end,
This is not our last chance.
For in this thing we call life,
it is only one dance.

So I say once more,
why say goodbye?
To end this way, to make it final,
why even try?

Hold On To Me

Hold On To Me


Hold on to me
Let me comfort you when you hurt


Hold on to me
Let me love you when you hate yourself


Hold on to me
Let me help you through your trials


I am the joy in your smile
I am the tears that you cry
I am in every beat of your heart


Hold on to me.

Falling for Illusions

Falling for Illusions


The day that I first saw you,
I never would have guessed,
that thinking of you and your words
would cause my heart to race in my chest.

I still don’t understand, I cannot comprehend,
just what this is between us, a love that doesn’t end?
I wonder if I really even know the person that you are,
or if I’m putting all my faith in wishes upon stars.

So complicated things do seem, the puzzle that we are,
are we meant to fit together with all our missing parts?
Can this be truly love or what is it really at all,
somehow though I cannot help myself, for you that I must fall.

Love

love and mean many diffrent things. love can hurt brake and kill. what do you do when its like that? do u still love or hold back? me i say love with all you have with out holding back because if you dont u will lose the chance and that will suck. be sure to tell the people that you love that u love them every day because you never know when the last time will be when you get to say i love you. and if any thing happens to you u want them to know that u did love them. be sure to tell them. i lost the chance one time and now i live with that every day because they are no longer here with me. i have been threw so much and the things that i have been threw u would think i would be to cold to love again, but my heart couldnt not love thats just the person that iam. i give every one a chance until they give me a reason not too. life is short and you got to live for the moment. dont let the little moments pass you by for them are the ones that mean the most. loveing can do alot to you. its just crazy what some one would do for love, i mean we are all looking for the same thing love and happness. then by the time it dose get here u are scared to death. its all rite to be scared just tell the person u are scared if they dont understand that u are scared then most likely they arent worth it. happness is hard to come by any more when u find it its best to hang on to it. don,t let it go for what other people think or what people are talking about. dont let other people deside your happness. dont let people talk for you. and if they talk about u fu** um is how i look at it. they can talk but do they really know you and who you are?
people will love you or hate u for who u are. and the ones that love you love u for you. and the ones hate u because they cant be u. people talk because they have nothing else better to do. dont let them get to you.

it all comes down to love and happness for us all thats what we want what we long for. u know it and so do i. when u find the love and happness dont let it go. dont let it go because u dont think that he or she is not the one because he or she could very well be the one. dont let it gos because you are scared. alot of people let good things go because they are scared. i have almost done it and iam sure we all have. then i backed up and said wait a min why back out because iam scared? why hurt some one that most likely would never hurt me? alot of people do it. but befor you do it think about what u are doing. because u could lose the best thing that has ever happen to you. you could lose it all.no one knows what life is going to bring. no one knows who is going to hurt u or love u. u just have to trust your heart you head. u have to take the chance of knowing u could be hurt or not. we all know that. and we have all loved and lost. it happens to us all. but can we get back up and move on is the thing? and i know alot of u here and i know that alot of us can get up and move on. it might take a wile but we bounce back. i found some one that loves me with every thing he has and i love him too. even tho iam scared to death iam going to take a chance with him. i just hope that he dosent hurt me. thats all we can hope for is for some one not to hurt us.

A Life That's Wasted

A Life That's Wasted


a life that's wasted
a breath that's gone
he knows he's been fighting this addiction too long

he says he's sorry
he says he'll try
he thinks of a prayer and looks up to the sky

It hurts so much, he just can't stop
he shoots the drugs until he drops

he drops his hopes
he drops his spirit
his soul cries out, you just can't hear it

a life that's wasted
a breath that's gone
the results of hy&$y%
he just couldn't move on

he slowly lets go
he slowly is dying
he takes his last breaths
and quickly starts crying

his life is gone now, wasted away
the day his life ends, today is the day

It's Broken

It's Broken


In the midst of a sentence I felt it!
It hit me, a gut feeling things weren't quite right.
The love I had come to know had changed.
It faded as if slowly dying.
I ask myself what is this, why is it happening to us?
We were perfect, compatible, uniquely in love with our life.
Something was changing.
It had all changed.
Everything was different.
I looked on the floor, and in front of me lie, a million little pieces, covered in memories.
My heart ripped from my chest.
It lie on the ground in a million pieces.
My life was shattered.
What do I do with these pieces,
How do I pick them all up?
I dropped to my knees picked them up, one by one, piece by piece.
I was taking the first step in getting my life back.
I realized the person I still loved with all my heart was symbolized in all the tiny pieces.
I sat down and put them all back together again.
I had the answer.

Kiss Me

Kiss Me


Kiss me with passion
or tender care
kiss me with promises
that you'll always be there

Kiss me with love
or to make my heart dance
kiss me with promises
always full of romance

Kiss me so gently
or with heart-stopping might
kiss me with promises
that will last through the night

Kiss me for hours
or until our stop sign
kiss me with promises
that you'll always be mine

Kiss me wrapped up
and safe by your side
kiss me with promises
that we'll never hide

Kiss me so deeply
or in a warm embrace
kiss me with promises
that'll make my heart race

Kiss me so rough
or light and mild
kiss me with promises
that'll make me go wild

Kiss me, very calm
or to let your love show
but kiss me with promises
that you'll never let go!

Long Distance

Long Distance


When it hurts so bad,
why does it feel so good?
I wish this all made sense,
I wish I understood.
Not having you here with me is tearing me up inside,
but I can't stop thinking about you no matter how hard I try.

You know how I feel about you,
and I know I want to spend the rest of my life with you,
but it's so hard to do when I can't even be next to you.
Why does it gotta be so complicated?

Loving you feels so right,
but at the same time,
knowing I can't have you keeps me awake at night.
I just want this to be simple,
I just want you here with me,
to look into your eyes,
be held in your arms...then I'd truly be happy.

Right now this distance between us is out of our control,
but I'm still hoping one day soon,
I'll get what I'm wishing for.

Sent From Heaven's Sky

Sent From Heaven's Sky


I thought you were my angel,
Sent from heaven's sky.
I thanked God for your presence,
But now I wonder why.
You took your bow and arrow,
And aimed it at my heart.
You let it rip right through my soul,
And left me torn apart.

I started to wonder what went wrong.
I love'd you without fail.
But above all else I figured out,
You're just a typical male.

Miles Apart

Miles Apart


I wish I could wipe
your falling tears away,

as you bravely smile through your pain...
You see me suffer,

then you break down and cry
miles apart...

In your dreams
I softly kiss you,

no one can see the pain,
that we both feel inside

miles apart...
You whisper I love you

and I whisper to the skies,
I love you too

When will this pain ever go away
even though we are

miles apart...
To be by your side

is a dream I can't deny
But I will wish for it to come true.

I miss you so badly
my heart is breaking

as we cry
miles apart...

Secret Love

Secret Love


What can define love?
Is it the softness of a smile?
A twinkle in the eye?
The gentleness of a mother holding her new-born child?
Or is it something we can not define.
So complex and so divine?
Either way it is something I feel for you.
You do not know.
Nor will you ever.
For I know you would turn away.
Yet, nonetheless it is still there,
You, of course don't feel the same,
Something I will have to accept,
But, the feeling is still there,
It is faithful and new,
Something that makes me feel as if I can do anything,
Makes my adrenalin start flowing,
As if my heart could not feel any better,
As if all the care of the world have been taken off my shoulders,
If you knew my heart would plunge from the highest it was from,
And my heartstrings would be snapped from the force,
Making me feel as if the falling would never stop,
And then be shattered when it finally hit the floor.
So I sit here looking at you.
Thinking of what could be,
Letting a tender smile creep across my lips,
And comfort me.

IT HURTS (ALL READ)

IT HURTS


I'm sure you can't imagine
it's as simple as can be
the place is very private
the players are he and she
She whispers softly it will hurt
of course not he replied
It's just a simple proscess
lay back and close your eyes


She say's I'm rather frightned
I've never done this before
He wanted to continue
it won't hurt much more


It's getting rather painfull
as tears come to her eyes
it's hurting something awful
it must be quite a size


Calm yourself my darling
the pleasure refolds your sin
Now open slightly
so I can fit more in

Suddenly with a jerk
she gave a shout
Now that it's all over with
He slowly pulled it out

*Now if you read this carefully
you will find
it's not what you think
it's just your dirty mind

It is just a visit to the dentist!!!

In The Twilight

In The Twilight


She was frail and fragile.
A girl on the edge of despair.
Too shy to show her emotions.
She was found,
From the scent of her hair?

He was strong and powerful,
Yet trapped in his endless thought.
Too strong to show his emotions,
He fell in love,
With the scent of her blood?

Their paths were crossed,
Under a cloud of rain.
He healed her loneliness,
She covered his pain.

He gave his cold heart,
She gave him her life.
She fought for his freedom,
He fought for his bride.
She understood his metaphors,
He understood her flaws.

Forsaken

Forsaken


Lost in the darkness,
drenched in pain,
seeking the answer,
that doesn't seem
to fade away,

words unspoken,
in reality wide open,
I'm running out of lines,
just for us,
not to fall apart

With this one night
give me a chance,
I'll tell what's inside,
I won't hesitate, no,
and one day you'll see,
that your heart's whispering,
was not her all along,
"but me".

Thirsty

Thirsty


Are you thirsty?
We'll bring you what you need.
Are your muscles twitching
Because you crave what we can provide?
Do you salivate
Because you pine for what we'll bring
Come in, Come in
Your pulse is thin
We'll draw you in
To blackest sin.
What they abhorr,
We understand
That thirst, parching thirst
We know, forces your hand.
So many close shaves, near clips and bare misses
Wouldn't it be better to surrender,
To bring death's sweet kisses?
Shower them upon pretty, meaty white flesh?
To endow upon them Tch'muchgar's behest?
To be what you truly are.

A Kiss From You

A Kiss From You

I can't resist
One precious kiss.
Your lips are so inviting.
There's nothing more delighting.

I crave so much
They're delicate touch.
The sensation I feel
Seems so unreal.
When your lips press to mine,
My Love, it's divine!

You cannot conceive
The thrill I receive
As a quivered breath or two
Speak of love that is true.

The sweet kisses you place
Upon my face
Are ones I hold dear
For I know they're sincere.

Quick kisses good-bye
They cause me to sigh.
For I starve for more
When you walk out the door.

"Hello!" kisses are sweet
But the ones you can't beat
Are gentle and slow
By candlelight's glow.

So, my Dear, you can bet
I'll take what I get.
If they're kisses from you
It's a dream coming true.

If Not For You

If Not For You


If not for you, I wouldn’t know
What true love really meant.
I’d never feel this inner peace;
I couldn’t be content.


If not for you, I’d never have
The pleasures of romance.
I’d miss the bliss, the craziness,
Of love’s sweet, silly dance.


I have to feel your tender touch;
I have to hear your voice;
No other one could take your place;
You’re it; I have no choice.


If not for you, I’d be adrift;
I don’t know what I’d do;
I’d be searching for my other half,
Incomplete, if not for you.

Bring Me Down

Bring Me Down


Bring me down
to the ground
if not verbally
then physically

Yes it's me
I know it's me
You wouldn't hurt me if I didn't speak

Yesterday
I didn't put it away
so you made me understand

you wouldn't be a man
if you didn't raise your hand
to put me in my place

I talk too much
and I shouldn't say
what made me hurt so bad today

cause if I do
that's when I'm screwed
I just made you bring me down.

Final Breathe

Final Breathe


I can't remember my name
I don't remember much at all
drowning in pitiful shame
trying to beat this final fall

seeking for some kind of key
the slightest glimpse of a spark
that will let me remember me
I can only see a future of dark

I see a hand come towards me
it strikes the side of my face
it is red and there for all to see
it goes on for days and days

I'm in the bedroom alone
when I hear a knock at the door
and he quickly crosses my zone
and I fall to my knees on the floor

this feeling inside me feels so real
my dark demented soul sensation
my heart is broken with no seal
I am trying to hold on without temptation

I'm seeing a world of butterflies
a loving home with lots of care
what can I do? I cannot see
this home is loving and fair

I don't want to walk alone
beckoned to this final stage
all worrying cares of life atone
inside all the iniquity and rage

beaconed to this empty room
unfolded by my brain
it seems to be one empty tomb
and it's driving me insane

no one can hear my pray
but I'm trying to put a smile on to stay
when you feel locked up with nowhere to hide
and you feel as if there's no one beside

when you feel as if you want to cry
and the days just aren't going by
you just want to disappear
and in your eye there's a glittering tear

when you feel as if everyone's talking about you
and you just don't know what to do
when your head just doesn't want to heal
the thing is this pain is just so real
and no one knows just how you feel

Scars

Scars


I've been with you far too long
and all you did was treat me wrong.
I loved, and cared, and catered to you;
I lost my mind and all you'll find
are all the scares that are left behind.
I was told once, twice, three times or more
to leave you alone and be on my own.
I wouldn't listen to anyone but you
because when you said you loved me,
I was head over hills.
You used me and abused me and hit me hard;
The scares will leave, disapear;
but what will never fade is the fear of you in my heart.

Lonely

Lonely


You left me alone, I didn’t cry,
I didn’t call you didn’t try.
Out of all the things I chose you,
I said I love you I really do.

But now that you are with her,
I don’t know why I really care.
I tried to get over you,
But I realized that my love is true.

I did all I could to forget,
But I couldn’t do it you bet.
I waited for you on cold nights,
And watched over you from great heights.

Now that you have forgotten me,
I always stand under the tree.
Waiting for you to hold me tight,
And then I see you with her at night.
Finally you start coming to the tree,
just to say, you never loved me.

Still Thinking Of You Baby

Still Thinking Of You Baby

I ask myself why am I thinking of you so much.
I think about all the moments we shared together and the way we touched.
You know that this was hard for me,
but you decided not to see.
I know I’m still stuck in my past,
but I had a feeling that this was going to last.
I guess my heart was wrong,
Why couldn't I live threw it and not stay strong.
Thinking of you makes me feel this way.
"Why couldn’t I just stay".
I ask myself that everyday.
Hold on!! I had a reason why?
Now that I think of it I want to cry.
Still feeling you so much.
I still think of the moment when we touch.

Missing You

Missing You


My heart aches within from missing you,
My lips long for the feel of missing you,
Right now all I need is to gently touch your skin,
To look into your eyes and see deep within,
Just one warm embrace,
Just to look upon your face,
Just one little touch,
From the one I love so much,
If I could gaze upon your smile,
For just a little while,
To know that you miss me too,
As I'm thinking of you,
To hear the sound of you breathe,
Knowing you'll never leave,
To see you walk up to me,
Then embrace you tenderly,
To just be with the one who's sent my heart feeling,
And brought about this downpour of emotion and feeling,
I sit here alone in my room tonight,
And pray that somehow this all turns out right,
I've never been one to do more talking than giving,
I'm not well off but I work hard for a living,
I've told you many thoughts that weren't borrowed or bought,
And in lifetime, who would have thought,
That I have found someone who was just meant for me,
I can't explain the magic or why this should be,
But there is one thing that I know for certain
That this just isn’t over till one of us draws the final curtain,
For I've seen an angel and I want you to know
If it's my choice to make, I'm never let you go,
Don't know what life holds, maybe there's no reason or rhyme,
To think you may be mine in a matter of time,
And though I cannot touch you and we are now apart,
My Love, you do dwell, so deep within my heart.

"Love's Sad

"Love's Sad


Tears I cry in this endless dream
Pain I feel flows like a waterfall into the
river's stream
I hear the tune of sorrow and despair
Forever alone in this dark place
love does not live there

Love quit me, I did not quit him
Memories of sweet moments and what could have been
He sung this song as he walked towards the door, "I don't want to know you or see you anymore."

I cried and pleaded and asked "Was it me?"
He said, " you and I were just not meant to be." He left me alone with rage, anger, and pain. How could something so sweet be so vain?

"Don't cry my dear we can still be friends."
I let out a sigh and told him that this is the end. At that exact moment I felt as is I wanted to die, because everything he ever told me was a lie.

Pieces of my hear began to shatter even more, as I saw him walk out the door. Don't know where to start or where to began. To pick up the pieces so my heart can mend

Falling

Falling





falling isn’t fearful

with your arms ending my descent

your embrace allows no pain

elation fills my heart when you catch me

in your arms I soar above the clouds

your kisses take me beyond the sky

and the lightness of my heart

prompts me to ponder

why call it falling? I’m

flying in love

with

you

When Daytime Turns to Twilight

When Daytime Turns to Twilight




When daytime turns to twilight
When you and I are old
When many years have come and gone
And all the leaves are gold

When we have walked many more miles
Through the grass so green
And we have talked many more times
Of all the things we've seen

When we have held each other's hands
Through all the trials that came
And I have heard a million times
Your lips whisper my name

I'll still have you and you'll have me
And through remaining years
I'll smile with you and laugh with you
And kiss away your tears.

This Love I Give To You

This Love I Give To You



The night sky twinkles above
The stars mirror the light in your eyes
They fill with the look of love
And with the bond that ties

The eyes are the window to the soul
Open to expose the heart's real need
What is the payment of the toll?
A spark that is planted like a seed

This spark is a fire burning within
A desire to expand the glow
To some, it's simply a sin
To others, the heart will know

The eyes show the love you feel
The heart is open wide
My soul has to close the deal
Then you walk with me by my side

Love is a gift I give to you
My heart for you to hold
If you feel the love I feel too
Our hearts will warm and block out the cold

To Love

To Love

Can someone from above
Please send me someone to love?
Someone who will always be true
Someone who will love me no matter what I say and do
Someone who only wants to be with me
Someone who makes me feel so glad and carefree
Someone who'll be mine to keep
With a love so strong and deep
Someone who'll set my heart and soul on fire
Witha love that's more than just desire
Someone who'll treat me right
And stay with me every day and night
So, can someone from above
Please send me someone to love?

Memory

Memory


Deep in the darkest part of my head,
there is a memory of what you once said,
it sits there alone in the shadows of depth,
a memory of you that I have kept,
it wants to come out of this dark scary place,
but it is a memory I could never erase,
it sits there alone through night and day,
listening to everything I hear and say,
I want it to leave and never come back,
to leave me alone, the feeling of sadness to go away,
so that I can once again see the light of day.

It’s Okay To Cry…

It’s Okay To Cry…


You look around, day in day out
There is always pain, without a doubt
People fight and die everyday
Children, bloody and bruised, never play

Parents hooked on drugs and fights
Reminded all day about the hurtful nights
Words are thrown, fists are swung
Loved ones die when they’re way too young

Blood and tears, they’re too well known
The things we learn, the things we’re shown
Some give up and some move on
The joy was here but now is gone

How did it come to start? When will it finally end?
Physical cuts heal, but emotional ones never mend
So next time you see hurt in someone’s eye
Don’t forget to remind them that it’s okay to cry…

Break Me

Break Me


Hate me for being me
look at me and scream
push me hard pull me back
try to crush my dream

tears flood from me like rain
drowning who I used to be
suffocating my inner self
who’s crying to be let free

don’t touch me I’m to fragile
to breath is to hurt
my pain is my endless life
pushed face down in the dirt

tattooed with the scars of hate
labeled like I’m fake
break me for what its worth
rob me of what you take

slap me down when I rise
call me for what I feel
laugh and leave me, walk away
sell my soul, the devils deal

whats left of me is broken
look at the scars and see
I didn’t do this to my self
but I did let you break me

I Need Love Too

I Need Love Too


I need love too,
But it can’t be found;
I scream forever,
But there’s no sound.

I search in vain,
Where can it be;
We all have a soul mate-
Why not me.

I’m not ugly,
Far from it;
And yet I feel like,
It’s time to quit.

Stop searching for someone,
I’ll never find;
This haunting loneliness,
Is blowing my mind.

My heart is full,
I’m gentle and kind;
But my other half,
I just can’t find.

Are you out there searching,
For me as well;
Two misguided souls,
Living in hell.

I won’t settle for less,
Than a love meant to be;
I won’t cheat myself,
From destiny.

So I’ll go on seeking,
For the love of my life;
And until I find him,
I’ll face the sorrow and strife.

Battlefield (jorden sparks )

Battlefield


wrote by jorden sparks


Don't try to explain your mind
I know what's happening here
One minute, it's love
And, suddenly, it's like a battlefield
One word turns into a
Why is it the smallest things that tear us down
My world's nothing when you're gone
I'm out here without a shield - can't go back, now
Both hands tied behind my back for nothing, oh, no
These times when we climb so fast to fall, again
Why we gotta fall for it, now...
Chorus:
I never meant to start a war
You know, I never wanna hurt you
Don't even know we're fighting for
Why does love always feel like a battlefield, a battlefield, a battlefield
Why does love always feel like a battlefield, a battlefield, a battlefield
Why does love always feel like
Can't swallow our pride
Neither of us wanna raise that flag, mmm
If we can't surrender
Then, we're both gonna lose we have, oh, no
Both hands tied behind my back for nothing (nothing), oh, no
These times when we climb so fast to fall, again
I don't wanna fall for it, now...
Chorus:
I never meant to start a war
You know, I never wanna hurt you
Don't even know we're fighting for
Why does love always feel like a battlefield, a battlefield, a battlefield
Why does love always feel like a battlefield, a battlefield, a battlefield
Better go and get your armor (get your armor), get your armor (get your armor)
I guess you better go and get your armor (get your armor), get your armor (get your armor)
I guess you better go and get your
We could pretend that we are friends, tonight (oh)
And, in the morning, we wake up, and we'd be alright
'Cause, baby, we don't have to fight
And I don't want this love to feel like a battlefield, a battlefield, a battlefield
Why does love always feel like a battlefield, a battlefield, a battlefield
I guess you better go and get your armor...
Chorus:
I never meant to start a war
You know, I never wanna hurt you
Don't even know we're fighting for
Why does love always feel like a battlefield, a battlefield, a battlefield
Why does love always feel like a battlefield, a battlefield, a battlefield
I guess you better go and get your armor (get your armor), get your armor (get your armor)
I guess you better go and get your armor (get your armor), get your armor (get your armor)
Why does love always feel like (oh, oh)
Why does love always feel like a battlefield, a battlefield
I never meant to start a war
Don't even know what we're fighting for
I never meant to start a war
Don't even know what we're fighting for...

Tears Of A Broken Heart

Tears Of A Broken Heart


I have given all my love to you, but what do I get in return?
A broken heart.
I have given you my heart, and you stomp on it like a doormat.
I have given you my youth and you took advantage of my un-experienced heart and played with my emotions.
I gave you all the trust, but you misused it.
I gave you the benefit of the doubt, and you proved everyone right.
I gave you my life and you killed me day by day.
I want to pull my aching heart and tear it piece by piece, So I no longer love you.
I want to loose my memory so I no longer think of you.
I want to go so far so I no longer have to see you.
I want to cry but I no longer have any more tears to fall down
my sad lonely face.
I want to sleep but my dreams haunt me with you in them.
I can’t seem to find a way out. What do I do?
I don’t want anyone to see this not even you.
How do I get out of this?
How do I stop this misery? How do solve this mystery?
I can’t seem to find anyone to make feel the way you do,
The way you look at me,
the way you say my name,
the sound of your voice when you tell me that you care.
I love you so much I think I’m going to die from this pain that haunts day and night.
How can I forget you? If the only love I know is you.
How can I move on? If life is not the same with out you.
I want to brake free and move on but I think I’ll be doing something wrong.
I just have to close my eyes and let things fly and let the days pass me by.

lies

lies




You broke my heart in two
And took me like a bet,
with all you put me through
I have so many regrets.

To lose you was worth it,
although I wasn't sure,
it seemed to make me happy,
but still so insecure.

We always said Forever
we would take it to the end
never give it up
but this time my heart couldn't mend.

It cut so deep into me
I guess it hurt you too
but when you did it, then you lied
I had to say "we're through."

I gave you all I had
I tried to make it last
but now all we have
are memories from the past.

So look me in the eye
and tell me what you see
a girl so broke inside
who's been through misery.

And now I’m moving on
with the pain that kills inside
but I’m starting to forget
by reminding myself, how you lied!

Don't Forget

Don't Forget


Don't forget me when im gone,
Don't forget our song,
Don't forget we are strong,
Don't forget me when you are alone,
Don't forget iam the one,
Don't forget our love.

Don't for get i broke you,
Don't forget i never ment to hurt you,
Don't forget i made you strong,
Don't forget your the one,
Don't forget me when im gone.

A Reason to Love Again

A Reason to Love Again



Allow me one moment love

To tell you how much you have changed my life

How you make my world worth living in

And how you can make me smile



At the fact that I've never been this happy

I've never felt so safe in someone's arms

Like nothing else matters and when I'm with you

the world is no longer there



There's just you and me

And the feeling between us

And I can remember the times in the past

When i never thought I could be happy again



But you proved me wrong

You gave me a reason to be happy

And showed me that loving him was nothing like loving you

All I can think about now Is how lucky I am

To have found someone so perfect

Someone who can make me feel beautiful



Even after I wake up in the morning

So I wonder now If you weren't to have come into my life

Would I be able to smile at this point in time?

Could I even take a breath of air?

Or stop for a minute not to cry?




Thank you, love.

You have given me the world

You have given me a reason to live

A reason to smile again

And a reason to love again.

Confusion of Love

Confusion of Love


Those simple words confuse me.

For I thought I knew what they meant.

Until I lost and won some,

My love today is for rent.

I love you.



Those simple words I know so well.

I wish for you to know.

That just liking someone is so different.

So I will say it real slow.

I L O V E Y O U



Those are the words of a million feelings.

My hopes and dreams and joys.

Little girls writing love letters.

Chasing after boys.

I…L…O…V…E…Y…O…U



Those are the words that I say to you.

I whisper them to your heart.

You turn and look back at me.

I loved you from the start.

Tears

Tears



They run from my eyes

Carving lines across my face

Breaking through my armor

Making me cold



These tears wont stop

These tears for you

They break through my armor

They bring me down



These tears can't be undone

Like a dream that can be undreamt

No matter how much you try they will never fade

They never leave



These tears are for you

But you'll never see them

When you're around my armors to thick

Not even these tears can break it



I wish you would see

What this has done to me

I try my hardest to tell you

But all I can do is cry



Alone with no one

Alone with myself

It isn't fare to make you cry

So I'll wear these tears for us both

I love you.

I Hate

I Hate

I hate that you changed
I hate that you’re the same.
I hate that you left.
I hate how you’ve stayed.
I hate how I cry.
I hate how you make me smile.
I hate how I miss you.
I hate how I feel.
I hate how it hurts.
I hate that it’s my fault.
I hate that it’s yours.
I hate that I can’t be around you.
I hate how I’ve lost you.
I hate how I’ve found out who you really are.
I hate that I can’t tell you any of this.
But most of all,
I hate how I can’t hate you,
Not even a little.
I hate how I still love you.

The Broken Rose

The Broken Rose


A single rose stands alone
In the battlefield of love
Seeking one ending stone
Or the everlasting dove
Searching, searching, she cannot hide
As that last closed door swings open

Running, running, but nowhere to go
She's enclosed in her lover's arms
The fight within seems to slow
Knocked back by his charm
Her heart starts racing, her knees grow weak
The kiss of never ending silence

The door slams shut
Her heart seems to break
The intensity of an infected cut
To take the last thing left to take
The single rose stands alone
In the battlefiel of love

THIS MAN

THIS MAN


Day After Day I See My Life
Right Before My Eyes,
Night After Night
Im Alone Always Wondering Why.
Im Feeling My Heart Ache
As My Dreams Fade Away,
I Feel The Lost Of Love
Each And Everyday.
You Think That We Are Alright
Cause You Think My Pain Is Gone,
But You Seen The Tears I Have Cried
And Yet Im Still Alone.
You Are This Man
That I Gave My Heart To,
You Are This Man
But Do You Feel The Same As I Do?
Where Are You Now
When I Need You The Most?
Where Are You Now
Are You Somewhere Close?
Are You Able To Love Me Back?
Or Will You Trun The Other Way?
Will You Give Me Your Heart
And Make It Easier To Stay?
Can You Treat Me Right
And Calm My Fears?
Take All My Pain Away
By Wiping My Tears.
Hold Me In Your Arms
Pull Me In So Close,
Let Me Know Im Loved
Thats What I Need The Most.
So Tell Me Now
And Tell Me True,
Are You This Man
I Want From You?

Hurt Bound

Hurt Bound



Fighting emotions that stand taller than I running away from the hurt avoiding the dreadful cry. calling your
name but you're nowhere to be found
scared, lost and alone...hurt bound.
I loved you right...didn't I?
I loved you right...didn't I?
I LOVED YOU RIGHT...DIDN'T I?
You laughed at me when I cried
I opened myself to you and you lied
you left me in a dreadful place never
to return to this lonely and empty
space
I need to get out I need to be free, I
need to run, I need to laugh, I need to love...BE ME!!
You can't hurt me no more I've come too
far I've won this battle, this dilemma,
this war. I no longer call out your name expecting you to be found I'm no
longer scared, lost, and alone....hurt
bound

Long Distance Love

Long Distance Love


When it hurts so bad,
why does it feel so good?
I wish this all made sense,
I wish I understood.
Not having you here with me is tearing me up inside,
but I can't stop thinking about you no matter how hard I try.

You know how I feel about you,
and I know I want to spend the rest of my life with you,
but it's so hard to do when I can't even be next to you.
Why does it gotta be so complicated?

Loving you feels so right,
but at the same time,
knowing I can't have you keeps me awake at night.
I just want this to be simple,
I just want you here with me,
to look into your eyes,
be held in your arms...then I'd truly be happy.

Right now this distance between us is out of our control,
but I'm still hoping one day soon,
I'll get what I'm wishing for.

Greatly Missed

Greatly Missed


A Fathers touch, A Daddy's kiss,
A grieving Daughter, You're greatly missed.

An empty house, An empty chair,
A fathers love, No longer there.

A broken heart, Tear filled eye,
Another soul laid to rest.

Many memories in my mind,
Some I laugh, Some I cry.

The times we shared, The laughs we had,
Things I miss when I think of you Dad.

Realizing that's all I have to hold on too,
Only memories, Of what once was you.

Missing your laugh, I will never again hear.
That is the reality that fills me with so much fear.

No more smile on your face,
No more warmth of your embrace.

The last hug, The last kiss,
The last "goodbye" leaves me with one last wish...

To have you Dad, here today,
Never to leave your Daughter this way.

A Father's touch, A Daddy's kiss,
A grieving Daughter, YOU'RE GREATLY MISSED!

I Still Miss You

I Still Miss You



This yearning in my heart
This confusion in my mind
The words left unspoken
Haunts me all the time

Everyday I watch pass by
With an emptiness in my life
And a hole in my heart
Where only you belong

There are nights I wake up crying
And wishing you were here
To hold me in your arms
And kiss away my tears

There is something that keeps me holding on -
What I'll never know
But one day things will go my way
And I'll have you in my arms

Whispers

Whispers


As I lie here in your sleeping arms
No words spoken
No sound made
Just lying here with you says enough

With your arms around me
Your breath whispering across my face
So warm
Yet so cooling

Your comfort and
Your love surround me
You mean so much to me
I've never felt love so strong

I love looking into your heavenly eyes
But not as much as I love to gaze upon your
face
It fills me up inside
With emotions too great to express

I want to give you my all
Everything I have inside
How can I prove my love to you
Words just aren't enough

You're what I've been waiting for
I've been lonely for so long
But when I'm with you
I know in my heart;
my soul, it was worth the wait

The stillness breaks
Your body awakes
You turn over towards me
Your eyes open

They look into mine
They make me glad to be alive
To breathe the same air as you
To touch you

Your soft lips meet mine
They whisper words I could live forever in
"I love you"
My heart melts

I return your kiss
And the words you speak
I return your love
And all that you've given to me

I love you, my sleeping baby.

Can You

Can you
tell me you love me
even if I was not rich?

Can you
hold me
Till my final breath?

Can you
say something
Even if I'm upset?


Can you
forgive me
if you were mad ?

can you
Understand
Even if I'm in hell?

Can you
love me
even if we are own?

Can you
Call me your king
Even without a crown?

Can you
see me
Even if I'm not around?

Can you
be
the one I'm searching for?

can you
make me laugh
With a smile or a frown?


I can go on like this for ever in a day

and can you
answer
everything I say?

Can you
Deal with
the temper at bad times?

Can you
Cook for me
If nothing is what I had?

Can you
Be honest half the time?
for we are only human not as perfect as a dime!

Can you
walk
with me around the hood? <-- may nt aplly to all posh type


can you
play
every single day?

Can you
Kiss
me in the hardest of the rains?

can you
hug
all my pains away

can you
make
my nightmares go away?

and can you
Baby
just give me all of you

even if i waslost and a little comfused?

can you
repost this so I can see? for all my questions love is what I aim to be!

What You Do Best!

What You Do Best!





Fw#@&@z me off...It‘s what you do best...
Putting my love to the ultimate test,
While leaving my heart a huge f*~w#%# mess!
So mean, so hateful, so unbelievably cold...
If I was to wait on your love...
I would first die from mold!
You say it‘s all me that I‘m such a By$%$...
I wish for just one day...
That our lives could be switched.
You would be floored...
And quite shocked at what you‘d see...
Things wouldn‘t last long...
The way things would be...
Cause you wouldn‘t put up with me treating you...
The way you treat me!

Just Go Away

Just Go Away


Please don‘t hurt me
I‘m really not that bad.
I try to stay out of your way
But things still end up real bad.
People say you hate me
I really don‘t know why,
I‘ve done nothing to hurt you,
So please don‘t make me cry.
The bruises and bleeding hurt
And all I do is weep
Just please don‘t hurt me
This has gotten way to deep
It‘s really not that fair,
That you take it out on me.
You‘re hurting me so much,
That I‘m afraid to fall asleep.
Your killing me inside,
And I just can‘t fight this anymore...
I‘m just about ready to go...
Just to go away and die...
Please dont hurt me anymore.

Last Night I Cried

Last Night I Cried





Last night i cried
I cried for everything that hurts me
I cried for my own mistakes
I cried for others‘ mistreatment
I cried because i was hurt
Last night i cried for the pain and sorrow
I consume
For all the love I‘ve lost
For all the sadness inside me
I cry for letting life pass me by
For all the hurt i endure
For all the things i am to blind and naive to see
Last night i cried for the loved ones lost
For the shitty life i live
For all the friends that befriend me
I cry for all my heartbreak
I cry for myself
I cry while being intoxicated
I cry while being f&@x%z up
I cry because i have to be in the wrong state of mind
Last night i cried while listening to music
While closing my eyes before bed
While Calling a friend
Last night i cried for no reason but i always find one
I cry because i feel paralyzed
I cry because i feel handicapped by life
I cry because of fear
My fear makes me cry
I cry because i have lost everything i have gained
Mostly i cry because of my mistakes
I cry for my family
I cry for my parents sadness
I cry for others people‘s pain
I cry because of my own unhappiness
Last night i cried to feel free
I cried myself to sleep
I cried because i could not sleep
I cried because i lack confidence
I cried because i have no will to live
Last night i cried for what others have done to me
I cry because maybe i am a drama queen
I cry because that‘s all i can do
I cry because I‘m alone
Now...today,I cry for last nights sorrow
I cry for empathy
I cry for hope
I cry for guidance
I mostly cry for love
Even more so...
I cry because i am torn, I am broken
I don‘t know when i will stop crying...

A New Love

A New Love



The night I met you, I never imagined,
that I'd feel the way I do.
I promised myself I'd never let anyone get close,
but somehow you managed too.

I've been through so much in this life of mine,
I haven't been truly happy in awhile.
But with you its like everyday gets better,
and I'm always wearing a smile.

When you came into my life, you made things right,
you put together what others tore.
You took away my doubts and insecurities,
and reminded me of what I was living for.

They say love finds you when you least expect it,
and now I believe that to be true.
Cause just when i finally gave up,
god gave me his blessing by sending me you.

You've really made a difference in my life,
I love you baby, I really do.
And I hope and pray you feel the same,
cause I'm looking forward to a future with you.

So thank you for putting a smile on my face,
and giving me the faith that I lack.
Thank you for not being like the others,
but mostly, thank you for loving me back.

VOICES OF YOUR HEART

VOICES OF YOUR HEART



When you think about life
And all its negative things,
Scary thoughts occur,
Great fears it brings.
Dealing with friends
Who betrayed your trust.
Standing alone in the rain
From dawn to dusk.
Losing the man
With whom you wished to share your dreams,
Leaves you with eyes like clouds
And tears like streams.
With family members
Arguing from day to night,
Makes you want to run away
From that unpleasant sight.
Doing work you don’t understand.
Walking down a road
Holding no future in your hand.
Your world is dark,
Empty and confused.
You feel angry, frustrated,
And completely used.
Everything is unclear,
You only see death on the way.
This life isn’t worth living,
It should be taken away.
But then there’s a small voice
That suddenly appears.
Looking all around... you
Can’t seem to find it anywhere.
This little voice said,
“There’s a whole lot more to life.
Everyone goes through joy,
Happiness, pain and strife.
There are people who love you,
And you will meet new friends.
Everyday is a new experience,
It’s just a matter of where and when.”
That is when you calm down
And begin to think.
After all, life can be good
And have its positive things.
You can have an education
If you’re willing to learn.
You’re future is the road ahead,
Considering which way you turn.
You have been hurt,
Betrayed, denied and used.
But people will know your importance
Depending on the kind of friends you choose.
Not having a boyfriend
Isn’t the end of the world.
He’s not worth loving
If he leaves you for another girl.
It’s normal for a family to argue,
‘Cause that’s how they compromise.
If you think problems can’t be solved
Then you’re not very wise.
This little voice saved your life-
Didn’t keep you and the world apart.
That’s when you realize this voice.
Is the “voice of your heart”.

Words Left Unsaid

Words Left Unsaid



I will tell you this much...

your love is there when I lay down,
it is there when I wake up.
I can hear your whispers softly speak,
"I love you" is what they say,
and without a doubt I know this is true,
because I see it in your eyes,
because I heard it from you.

Through it all you've been there;
your tears, my tears- together were shared.
I'm amazed to see your love so strong;
you laughed with me through the right,
and cried patiently through the wrong.

I will tell you this much...

Your love is honesty and devotion;
it is sweet and enduring,
much more than emotion.
I know I've hurt you, and this I will not brag,
but it was your love that held us together;
it was your love that made a way.
Your love I won't forget;
it is locked within my very heart;
your love I do accept.

I will tell you this much.

When You Said

When You Said,


When you said, "I love you,"
I went over the moon.
My heart sang its glory,
The stars sang in tune.
As when with a word
God brought forth light,
So with these words
You ended my night.

So with these words
You made something new:
A bond of devotion
Between me and you.

How powerful words
To shape who we are!
We ponder in silence;
Our words cross a bar.

Your words crossed a threshold
And entered the past,
Yet they have created
A world that will last.

Life is…

Life is…



An unsolved riddle

You try to solve it

Become a part of it

You try to find its secrets

But you are forced to reveal yours

The more deeper you go inside

The more you find yourself outside

And when you think you have solved it

You find yourself knocking on the heavens doors

No More Hiding

No More Hiding

She's trying hard to understand, just what's going on,
She doesn't know why, but everything is going wrong.
She's turning away, from the people that care,
She can not explain it, she just doesn't want to be here.

She finds it hard to trust, she can't seem to forget the past,
Maybe those scars, will be the ones that always last.
She doesn't want to talk, she doesn't want to explain,
She doesn't understand, why she's causing so much pain.

Thoughts go through her mind, she doesn't want to exist,
She leaves her sleeves down, to hide what's on her wrist.
She wears her fake smile, but sometimes it falls,
When people start to realise, she hides behind her wall.

She doesn't want people to care, she just wants to hide,
She wants to be happy, and forget that she lied.
But nothing seems to happen, to make her want to be alive,
And there's nobody out there, to help her survive.

She feels isolated, even in a crowded room,
She can not explain it, but she feels all this gloom.
Depression is a question, she's too afriad to admit,
Maybe if she got help, there could be a way out of it.

But, she has a barrier, she doesn't seem to know,
She tries to hide her pain, but some how it seems to show.
She wants things to end, but time is going so slow.
She still doesn't know why, she's feeling so low.

She has so many insecurities, but never does she confide,
Nobody knows how she really feels, she always seems to hide.
She doesn't know why, but she doesn't think people should care,
But how can she tell them, she doesn't want to be here.

She has a way, of erasing her pain,
Each night she cuts, again and again.
People try to stop her but it's taking control,
She can't seem to stop, and some friends don't want to know.

The girl, she tried, her very best,
And finally it seems she was put to rest,
Now at least, she won't have to hide,
Because of the night, she committed suicide.

Sometimes its the only way

Sometimes its the only way

Its like watching a movie
where the guy could care less
but she just cant let him go
cause she loves him too much.
and your screaming at her,
"Just leave him already!"

then you finally understand
what was going through her head.
you lay in bed every night
going over every detail that happened.
thinking that maybe tomorrow
he'll change.
and show up at your doorstep
and tell you he cant live without you.

but life's not a movie
and its not a fairytale
its not always happily ever after.
sometimes letting go is the hardest part
and you cant "just leave him already."

cant just leave the guy that you met
and knew you couldn't live without.
the guy that made you feel things
you never knew you had inside of you.
the guy that opened up a whole new world
the guy that makes you feel
alive and whole.
cant just leave the guy
that you love with all your heart

its the hardest thing to just let go
of everything you live for.
but sometimes its the only way.

Into Every Life

Into Every Life



She looks into air, herself falling rain
Dripping coldness past, memories old pain.

Drops fall, the puddling her damp water-life.
Spiraling a mirror, self-lonely strife.

A sigh, one frown, crying soft saddened tears.
Storms of remember - through bleak yesteryear.

Clouds a-whorl, dark sky sheltering fair heart.
But how can she joy, while taking no part?

Covring cold soul, corona of defense.
Defying the stab of her fate's intents.

This is madness, she thinks in plaintive cry.
I'm here, on the cusp, of lay down and die.

What my destiny, but an empty-off dream?
A plaything with which gods and angels scheme.

Am I doomed then to live, time never-free?
Subsumed wholly 'neath life's scattered debris?

Is justice, outside this torrential doubt?
Perhaps more than sorrow, painful fall-out?

Is love, perhaps, just a sliver of sun?
Shining through mists, revealing Avalon?

Personal paradise, which I can own,
Evoking happiness, hither unknown?

She raises from streets of lonely no more.
Light slicing through darkness, hopes washed ashore.

Her withered gait now straightening with pride.
She glides like an angel 'cross future's tide.

Belief in life renewed, no, only found.
Footsteps echoing, a cadence of sound.

Caressing the ground, sing the beat of her heart.
Into the sun seeking love's brand new start.

Life's Choices

Life's Choices

Life is full of choices
Make sure you pick the right one
Don't listen to the voices
Hear only yours and you have won

Many people will tell you
You need to change your looks
Don't take to heart their view
Fabulous bods are found only in books

There is only one voice
That you should listen to
It will help make the right choice
That is perfect just for you

Your looks are your own
Someone will always love you
You will never be alone
Look in the mirror and you'll see who

I Regret

My God, why did you take my father?
Angles took the wrong one - not him - another.
Regret is a feeling that I feel everyday;
You took him from me, and I didn't say -

"I Love You, dad," in my own way;
Only to hear him say it back to me.
God, why couldn't you just let us be?
he didn't deserve to die;
Didn't deserve to be in pain,
Only to leave me here asking you why -
Night after night when I cry in vain.

Silence, and emptiness

Silence, and emptiness


Silence builds an awful wreckage of a girl
It feeds on loneliness and creates a void
Gray shadows haunt and torment and torture
A teenager is stricken and destroyed

There is no sound of laughter or happiness here
The little one has thrown in the towel today
Somber, melancholy moods decay the soul
It is futile to hope and dream and pray

Emptiness builds a home in this woman
In this girl, this child where hollows have bred
A deepening sea of nowhereness consumes
And eats away at every connecting thread

Confusion feeds like a savage inside her,
Leaving nothing considered worthy remains
Destined to walk through life less ordinary
Alone, exiled, different and disdained.

I Can't Stop

I Can't Stop

I can't stop thinking about you
Wondering if you think of me, too
I can't stop thinking of your lips
Oh! How soft they are between mine
I can't stop imagining your hands
As they caress my every hair and limb
I can't stop thinking of your face
How I love it and it thanks me in return.
I can't stop thinking of your voice,
As sexy as the body it possesses.
I can't stop feeling your touch inside me.
My temperature rises and emotions explode.
I can't stop thinking of how much I want you,
how I need you
No matter what you do,
I can't stop thinking about you.

Real Life

Real Life


Betrayal
Love
Loyalty
Respect
death

These all part of real life.
All part of everyday life.
Part of the life we live.
Part of life that shall never change.

Real life is no game.
Real life is dangerous.
Real life brings pain.
Real life brings fear.

Real life isn’t easy.
Real life is the world and the world is real life.
Real life is full of sorrow and hate.
For real life brings joy and happiness.
.
Also brings betrayal and death.
Real life is precious and wont last for ever.
So Enjoy real life as long as you can .
Before its gone and never comes back.

Missing Piece

Missing Piece


You do what you're suppose to do,
with no frown or fuss.
Not because you want to ,
but because you must.
Day after day
It's like a routine.
Don’t have too much to say,
You only do the right thing.
Soon you feel empty,
but you don't know what it could be.
You want no sympathy.
But it's something you can't see
Everything used to make sense,
but now you're lost in a maze.
You feel so tense,
and you pray for better days.
Something just doesn't seem right
You look for an answer that's not there.
You stay awake all night,
But you feel like no one cares.
It's right in your face
and you think it's safe,
or should you forget?
Things don't seem the same,
But what should you do?
You think you should change,
But change for who?
Understanding means nothing to you now.
Your heart is pronounced deceased
This should allow you ,
or find your missing piece?

The Secrets We Hide

The Secrets We Hide


we struggle to have meaning
in this world which we all know
we try but yet we wonder
where we all should go
hidden in the questions
which we can not find
the answers are all hidden
deep inside our minds
hidden in our soul
is the life we try to hide
but in time it will find you
and it will release
all of its secrets hidden beneath
so before it ruins the life you have made
release those dark secrets
and the memories will fade
hidden in our lives are stories left untold
of the things we didn’t want them to know
but one you tell somebody
and make your feelings known
the struggle will be over
and you’ll finally be home

Hopeless Love

Hopeless Love

No stupid love song can describe how I feel
Sometimes the words other people say
Are never good enough or real
No one will ever know how I'm feeling today

I put my hopes up way too high
I thought you'd feel the same way
Now all I need to not do is cry
Because tears won't take the pain away

For a moment I thought you knew
For a moment I thought you cared
For a moment I thought you meant "I love you"
For a moment I thought you appreciated the love we shared

What do you know anyway?
You're just a guy
Have your fun today
And tomorrow make me cry

I'll fake my smile
I'll say I'm okay
I'll be happy for a while
And be dead inside

I kept on calling you sweet
Little did I know
Your love is the one thing I can't beat
I just can't seem to let you go!

You make me feel like such a fool
I don’t want to love you
Why did love have to be so cruel?
Why is there nothing that I can do?

Love can sometimes be great
That's something I cannot deny
But when it turns into hate
He won't be just "another guy"

He'll be the guy that broke you into pieces
He'll be the guy that made you a mess
He'll be the love that slowly ceases
After you finally confess

Listening to that song
Makes me feel like the stupidest girl alive
It made me realize that what I felt was wrong
Because I won't get you no matter how much I strive.

Two Countries

Two Countries


Two countries like shadows
fight every day
without end
cold and cruel
one the other.
They are linked with a chain
but the rings are rusty.
They burden and crawl the souls,
bleeding the once common dreams.
Some thoughts, similar actions and reactions
permanent battles without winner
because the opponents have the same character.
And where this battle will lead,
No one knows.
Truth and lie become one
swearing enemies till the end.
Endless games of pain and revenge
but without reason.
Egoisms and reactions
dumb reminders of a forgotten vow.
But look, they are fighting again
silently, with piercing looks
that hide words sharp as knives,
and bleed their hearts.
Two countries like shadows
fight every day.

Broken

Broken


A piece of glass on a family portrait always cracked but never completely shattered.
Strength of love and compassion held us up as weakness knocked on our door.
We always found the way to cover up the hurtful mistakes with some super glue.
And some how eventually the glue could hold no more.
The glass on that once semi-flawed family portrait shattered to pieces.
As I lay upon the shattered nothingness looking up at the causes, I forgive and forget and learn to love again.

I'LL BE THERE

I'LL BE THERE



When you find yourself on your own,
Remember that you are not alone,
And when your feeling down and blue,
Remember that I'll always love you.

When I am not here with you,
Remember that our love is pure and true,
I think about you every night and day,
When Im with you I want to stay.

I hope you will always remember me,
cause' I will remember you for eternity
I never want to let you go,
Cause' I love you more than you could ever know.

If there was anything I could do,
I would do it just to please you,
You know its well and truly true,
I would do anything for you.

When your looking at the stars,
in the eternal blue
Remember that each star out there
Is a reason why I love you
And when you think your alone,
and when no one is there at all
I'll be right in front of you,
to catch you when you fall .

DEEP EYES, DEEP LOVE

DEEP EYES, DEEP LOVE


Eyes of passion,
Green and tender,
A world of love awaits,
A soulmate inside,

Sensual touch,
Sensual sight,
Love is strong tonight,
Love is uniting,

Passion burns brightly,
Bodies engage slightly,
Eyes meet and flutter,
Lips touch and quiver,

Voices play together,
Become one forever,
Stare in his eyes,
See the sky,

For love burns brightly.

YOU ARE MY DREAM COME TRUE

YOU ARE MY DREAM COME TRUE

Always in my heart
you make me feel more loved
than I've ever felt
and happier than I've ever dreamed.
The love and understanding you have
is something I have searched for
my entire life.
Always in my happiest
and saddest moments,
you are my best friend and confidante.
I come to you for everything,
and you listen to me without judgment.

Always, deep within my soul,
I know we have a love like no other.
What we share is something others
only hope for and dream of,
but few ever experience.
Our love is magical beyond belief.
Always, without hesitation,
you give of yourself completely.
You have reached the very depths of my soul,
bringing out emotions I never knew I had
and unveiling an ability to love
I never thought possible.

Always and forever
you will be my dream come true,
the one I have waited for all these years.
From now until the end of time,
I will love only you.
We will be together always.