Blog PostsFriends | BlogWhen Love HitsWhen Love HitsSometimes at night, when I look to the sky, I start thinking of you and then ask myself, why? Why do I love you? I think and smile, because I know the list could run on for miles. The whisper of your voice, the warmth of your touch, so many little things that make me love you so much. The way you support me, and help with my emotions, the way that you care and show such devotion. The way that your kiss, fills me with desire, and how you hold me with the warmth of a blazing fire. The way your eyes shine when you look at me, lost with you forever is where I want to be. The way that I feel when you're by my side, a sense of completion and overflowing pride. The dreams that I dream, that all involve you, the possibilities I see and the things we can do. How you finish the puzzle that lies inside my heart, how that deep in my soul, you are the most important part. I could go on for days, telling of what I feel, but all you really must know is my love for you is real. You Are....You Are....You are my air The sun in my day The moon in my night The spring in my step You are my everything. You are the stars in the sky The birds in the trees The shimmer, the sparkle, the shine. Without the light you put into my life I would be nothing A single leaf on the ground in autumn, Lost, forgotten, alone. Before i knew you, I was nothing. Now I am everything, With you at my side, I am invincible! Feel the same my baby, You are loved so much, I love you now and forever You are my darling, my baby, my love You are my everything I love you so much. What I Love About YouWhat I Love About YouI love the way you look at me, Your eyes so bright and brown. I love the way you kiss me, Your lips so soft and smooth. I love the way you make me so happy, And the ways you show you care. I love the way you say, "I Love You," And the way you're always there. I love the way you touch me, Always sending chills down my spine. I love that you are with me, And glad that you are mine. BRITTANY ITS SO HARD TO SAY GOOD_BYE TO YESTERDAYthis is for brittany saying good bye is hard but you got the good years ahead of you!!!! bullet proof rosebullet proof rosedaggers are thrown and try to reach the core the wind blows making the petals sour guns are shot ,but no holes are made thunder roars but nothing is displayed the ground pushes its branches away but she is still standing with us today the rose sits in the dessert and watches her life slowly go by but even in her last moments she will not back down and die she stands bravely like a build up soldier the weather gets much more colder and life begins to scarce ,but she is bolder she stays were she is unwanted and she knows she will be hunted but her strength is admirable her life is so desirable the rain drops fall down her petals and thats her cry that says she will not die she ignores the call of heaven because she still has seven seven more ways to make it she wont sit down and take it such an amazing gentle rose who has all alone rouse life isn't easy , and never will be the rose was strong not silly we must see reality but also be strong stand tall and look young To FlyTo FlyHow can I always lend a hand But ignore the cries within myself It brings me joy to bring you a smile But my emptiness still sits up on the shelf Inside my heart will always bleed But I will never let it be shown on my face Only the tear that falls down my cheek Will give you a glimpse, a shadow, a trace I suffocate when I try to breathe The chains you gave won't let my body go I have dreams, and needs, and wants My body is numb, I think maybe you should know I struggle with my demons each day You feed them while you slowly watch me die Please let me be and please set me free I want to smile as I look up at the sky I want the moon to brighten the night I want the clouds to pass me on by I want the stars to guide me Those Words Held BackThose Words Held BackYou say you don't love me but that you just care about me. Why are you holding back from loving me and why don't or can't you love me? Is it because you are too afraid of what love means? Are you afraid of the word, love? Love shouldn't be something that's feared. Love shouldn't be over thought, it should be felt. People change but some qualities remain. Even with the change they are still the same. A part of them remains and should be loved the same way. Life is change and you change with it or die in it. Love is a hope to survive. Love is a desire to live. Love remains the sole hope to keep those qualities in a person most cherished and admired. They OWN MeThey OWN MeMy heart has been broken many times. My body used in the most abominal ways without consent Bruises and physical signs of my loses were once visible to all. My emotions and mentality have been mangled, torn to shreds. I'm just a pile of worthless pieces that have been used and broken so much that no longer holds value. I walk among reality in this broken, tangled, painful, mangled void of a body! My loses cannot be forgotten, their traces can never be hidden, THEY OWN ME! this is short but it just shows that pain can last a life time when you are broken so many times. Daddy and His Lil' GirlDaddy and His Lil' GirlAs a father looks into his daughter's eyes, all she can see is her daddy's love for her. She may be small and she may be a baby, but she is daddy's lil' cowgirl for sure. He says he will teach her how to ride, teach her what she needs to know. She can only coo but when he leaves for work she will want to say "Don't go". When daddy is stressed all he needs is to look into those big brown eyes and see her smile. He knows he has her love and his heart skips a beat and jumps a mile. Staying up to feed her and change her diapers ain't his game. Without her though, he is lost and knows he wouldn't be the same. She will look at him and see her very own hero, he will look at her and see his star. Even when he is away on the hunt, his heart and his love will never be far. She wakes up in the morning with a smile and a head full of bushy hair. Her daddy says "Don't worry Munchkin, I'll always be there" When she cries, she will be swept up into arms so tender and strong. FRONT PORCHFRONT PORCHTHE OLD FARM HOUSE HAD A NICE LONG FRONT PORCH GRANDMA SAT THERE WAVING A WARM FRIENDLY HI, AS FOLKS PASSED IN THEIR OLD MODEL T. FORDS SHE WATCHED IN THE AFTERNOONS AS THEY PASSED BY. THERE WASN'T AS MUCH TRAFFIC IN THE OLDEN DAYS THE PORCH PROVIDED A LOT OF SHADE, RELAXED AFTER DOING ALL THE MORNING HOUSE WORK ENJOY A GLASS OF LEMONADE THAT HAD JUST BEEN MADE. THE WASHING HUNG OUT ON THE LINE THE DISHES WERE ALL DRIED AND PUT AWAY, GRANDPA WAS BACK OUT IN THE FIELD THE FARMER AND MULE WERE BUSY CUTTING HAY. GRANDMA HAD PUT ON A FADED CLEAN APRON IN CASE A NEIGHBOR SHOULD HAPPEN TO STOP, HOPE THE MAILMAN BRINGS A LETTER FROM HER SON OVERSEAS SIT AND REST A SPELL - THEN THE FLOOR SHE WILL MOP. BUT FOR NOW, SHE WOULD REST IN THE WICKER CHAIR THE NEW CUSHIONS HAD BEEN PLACED OUT HERE YESTERDAY, BUT NOW CAN'T KEEP THE CAT OFF KITTY THINKS THIS IS A NICE PLACE FOR HER TO LAY. SITTING HERE CAN SEE DOWN THE ROAD ON THE BANK GROWS THE LOVELY PINK SWEET PEA VINE, THE WILD ROSES ARE CLIMBING THE FRONT FENCE THE PEARS WILL RIPEN IN A SHORT TIME. THE BIG MAPLE TREES THAT SHADE THE HOUSE THE BRANCHES ARE FULL OF BIRD SONG, ONCE FALL ARRIVES AND THE LEAVES WILL CHANGE COLOR SUMMER IS GOING FAST - IT WON'T BE VERY LONG. GRANDPA SITS HERE LATE IN THE EVENING HE LIKES TO READ A WESTERN BOOK, DOESN'T SEEM TO TAKE NOTICE OF ANY TRAVELER THERE'S A REASON - A NAP HE JUST TOOK. A FARM HOUSE WITHOUT A PORCH NO PLACE TO SIT - THAT WOULD BE A SHAME, Too LateToo LateIts too late , too much was said . The cruel words running through my head . You come on so strong , Then act as if you did nothing wrong . Your words cut through my heart , Why did I trust you from the start . You seemed so sweet and true , Never knowing you would have a dark side such as you do . You tortured me a little everyday , But all the while smiling in that cute way . All that charm you have inside fooled me ..... I will admit , I loved you and just didnt want to quit . Now the pain has come to a end , I have tossed it into the wind . DiminishingDiminishingSome dismiss it as selected others feign not to know All the while they watch, with relish your decent into madness, slow They see the screams behind your eyes But deafen their ears to suit Lest they somehow be infected By this emotive mute To all is displayed your sorry state Too extreme to conceal, too intense to hide Still they begrudge you, your meagre slice Your motives they decide No words seep from their set mouths To acknowledge what is seen Attempts to convey emotions are quickly revered, clean Still they envy you, your strength it musts To keep it ever silent That piercing internal scream WHAT A HELL OF A DAYwell this morning i called my docter told him that the spider bite was not doing any better and i was not felling any better. so he tells me to go to the er that he had to do his rounds today and he would meet me there to check it out and cut it out if need be. so my kids go with their daddy to a pool thing that he had to go to. well i take the car to the hospital like i was supose to do to check this spider bite out. i get to the hospital and iam pulling in to the parking lot or pulling around to the er part of the hospital. well this lady is doing 50 threw the damn parking lot and iam going 15mils per hr. she hits me well tbones me in our car. so they had to get the emts to come get me and the woman out of our cars. shes haveing chest pains i cant feel my left leg or any thing like that. it felt like i was hit by a train because of how fast she was going. so when the emts get to us and get us into the er iam in a neck brace on a back bored and all of this shit iam in alot of pain feels like iam dieing. well the neck brace is on this spider bite that has been bothering me for days now. my docter was going to cut it out. so befor they can cut it out they have to take xrays of my neck and all of this to make sure they can remove the neck brace to do so. now my back,knee,hip and neck is messed up. i got the spider bite cut out so i got all this pain going on and i have been threw hell and back today. now we dont have a car and all that shit. so i dont know how iam going to get back to my docter come monday to get the packing out of the hole in my neck due to them cuting out the spider bite and not only that hes going to have to check my knee and back and all of thatWords ForgotWords ForgotIf I forget to tell you just how much you mean to me, I hope that you will remember while your not here with me. If I forget to tell you that you are my world and more, I hope that you will remember what I am waiting for. If I forget to tell you I want you in my life, I hope that you will remember that I am always by your side. If I forget to tell you I love you more than words, I hope that you will remember regardless of the hurt. If I forget to tell you I am sorry for my mistakes, I hope that you will remember with every one I make. If I forget to tell you no other can compare, I hope that you will remember the love that we both share. If I forget to tell you I miss you everyday, I hope that you will remember your absence causes pain. If I forget to tell you that forever is what I want, I hope you will remember that forever is what we have got. Whether I say these words to you, or wait until you are here with me, I will show you this forever, and these words will have no need. The Way He Gets To MeThe Way He Gets To MeHis eyes are georgeous Like the waves of the sea, His smile is wonderful Which will always get me. He makes me laugh With the little noises he makes, He doesn't even know How it makes me shake. The way he holds my hand Lets me know he cares, It gives me that feeling The feeling lovers share. He tells me he loves me And I know this is true, Thats why I answer back I love you too. We're together forever Friends and family can see, He's what I've always wanted And he's all for me. Do You Ever Wonder?Do You Ever Wonder?Do You Ever Wonder? Do you ever wonder if the one you loved still thinks about you? If they wonder what it would be like if you hadn't broken up. If you would still be together to this day. Do you wonder if they cry at night holding the stuffed animal that you gave them. Just like you do. Or when their with there new love, do they compare them to you. Do they wish it was your hands they were holding, instead of the new love. Or do they wish that it was your eyes that there gazing into. Or everytime they kiss there new love, do they picture it's you and your warm lips. Do they wish it was your heart that they were saying I love you too. Then at night when they wish upon a star, do they wish you were wishing on the same one. Or does it hurt them everytime they walk by, and wonder if you hurt too. When they see you smile do they smile too, just to see that your happy. Or does it secretly hurt them, cause they wish that they were the one making you laugh. Well I do, I wonder these things everyday. And that's what I wonder when I think about you. This is to the one I love. WhenWhenWhen I went to bed last night, my last thought was of you. When I woke up this morning, my first thought was of you. You are my everything; my sun, my stars, my sky. You are my everything... and this is the reason why: For when we met it was fate, fate from the soul within. For when we met it was choice, choice to be your friend. For when we first laughed together, I knew it was meant to be. For when I fell in love, I knew you had fallen in love with me. You are my everything, my breath belongs to you. You are my everything, hold these words to be true. You are my everything and I'll always love you... and whats more I know you'll always love me too. Yes Said,HeYes Said,HeWill you be there for me, Yes, said he Always! A care for me? Yes! Said he Can I believe in you, secrets reveal to you Can I be real to you? Yes, said he. Is it safe if I cry for you? Yes, said he. Other's deny for you? Yes, said he Surrender my heart to you, yes EVERY part to you 'Till death us do part' to you? YES! Said he! I have my history Yes said he Bit of a mystery Yes, said he Yet will you stay with me, right down the way with me And never stray from me? Yes, said he. Are you the 'real thing?' Yes, said he Give me a wedding ring? YES! Said he. See all is well for me, truth always tell to me Go down to hell for me? Yes, said he. Are you willing to die for me? Yes, said he Grow wings and fly with me? Yes, said he Will you be true to me, one of the few to me? Always anew to me? Yes, said he. YOU ARE A LIAR! NO! Said he Climbed out of the mire! No, said he Angels revealed your lies Hell is YOUR paradise Demons are in your eyes … Yes, said he. Ghost Of Your PastGhost Of Your PastLove of my life, I stand in the background Through your ups and downs, Your winning and losing Your dark nights And waking hells. Love of my life I think of you with kindness Although you left me I know you suffered And died a death When you remembered Love of my life My arms were waiting And would have done through the torment Of what we let slip away Till the end days What infinite sadness What total lack of courage What misplaced bravery I saw in you What pain and suffering You and your “loving” Put me through. Love lies BleedingLove lies BleedingThe quiet moon glistens on my cold shivering sweat, Awakened from this dream of you In a room full of emptiness The mountain stars are fading though still shining in my eyes with tormented thoughts I stand here defeated Locked away in this heart-shaped box of mine By the window my silhouette embraces Its lonely shadow in the dark Alone again, I'm lost in pieces because I can't seem to Get you out of my head Your smile still lingers in the back of my mind Smiling with love I'm trapped in my heart Beckoning for you, not letting go of what I can't seem to hide A hemorrhage of you I needed you the most The memories are sweet but they are tearing me apart Filled with anger I punch the windowsill Looking ahead I whispered to myself "Leave me alone" CloudlessCloudlessThere is a light that flickers, fading - pulsating vaguely as it connects my reality to my dreams, and silences all nightmares. This light, it licks the wounds others create. With the quiet in your eyes, my thoughts are strong, but they don't run as deep as your loyalty. Bright flashes snap me back to present, and the touch of your hand shows me truth, even through the interruptions. You're everything that's the best in me. HAPPY MOTHERS DAY TO ALL THE MOTHERS ON WIRE.today is the day that mothers are shown how importan they really are. some kids just dont seem how to show it other then on this day for some reason. witch is ok. my kids are sweet they all ways try to show me how importan i really am to them every day. but as we grow older and we have our own lifes some times we for get to thank the ones that made us and put us here to make familys of our own and all of that. it was our mothers and ect. it gos down a long like iam not going to sit here and type all that out iam still tired out from my 6 year olds birthday yesterday. my baby was born on mothers day 6 years ago so her birthday and mothers day has always been really close. i tell you what that is the best gife a mother can get is her child be born on mothers day. i got 2 kids that think the world of me iam gald to have them 2 kids they are my life.i didnt have a mother like my kids do. my mother was rude stayed doped up and i wouldnt wish her a happy mothers day for any thing in this world. she was always high on mothers day any way and never rembered what us kids did for her any how so why dose it matter if we say any thing to her. now i got a step mother that iam going to be with today she showed me more then my own mother ever could have. i guess what iam trying to say here is rather its your step mother foster mother real mother just make sure on this day if u dont do it every day make sure today you tell them happy mothers day and thank you for puting up with the shit you put them threw lol. tell them that you love them and you are gald that they put all the time that they did in to you it makes a mother feel good to hear these things. not only that what if today was the last day you ever saw your mother will she know that you truely loved her will she know that she did mean the world to you. thats the things that a mother needs to hear. HAPPY MOTHERS DAY TO ALL THAT ARE MOTHERS. the love of a mother runs deeper then any other love there is the love of a mother is a love that will never end. For my 6 year old happy birthday Birthday BlessingsBirthday BlessingsInstead of counting candles, Or tallying the years, Contemplate your blessings now, As your birthday nears. Consider special people Who love you, and who care, And others who’ve enriched your life Just by being there. Think about the memories Passing years can never mar, Experiences great and small That have made you who you are. Another year is a happy gift, So cut your cake, and say, "Instead of counting birthdays, I count blessings every day!" HAPPY 6TH BIRTHDAY KATHLEEN MOMMY LOVES YOU. FallingFallingFalling I can’t breathe. Please tell me what you think... I can’t breathe I don’t know what to do I can’t move or do anything All because I’m falling for you You have changed my life In a way I never imagined You make me melt away I feel I am always safe Until I start falling again I keep going down No one will help stop me No one is around I hope I land on my feet I want to feel safe again Like the way I felt When you held my hand I just can’t stop falling Falling from your heart Maybe I’ve been thrown Just like a dart I’m addicted to you Like a poisonous drug I want you to catch me I think I’m in love I just can’t stop falling... A New LoveA New LoveI haven't known you very long but that's not the way I feel; I've told you all about me I have nothing to conceal. What I say may sound silly now but you'll find it to be true; I never thought that when we met I would fall in love with you. You are my new beginning, you're the door to life beyond; you're all that I could ever want or ever need to carry on. You're the future I have dreamed of, you're a new and brighter day; with you, there is no looking back, the past can fade away. Though I haven't known you very long you'll find all I've said is true; I never thought that when we met I would fall in love with you. Heart To HeartHeart To HeartSometimes in this lifetime, we meet a special soul, who fills our very essence, to almost overflow, we drink the cup of friendship, it tastes like ruby wine, and you know within your heart, this meeting was Divine. This soul that lives within your heart, no distance can prevail, an inner spark, within the heart, becomes a Holy Grail, the starting of a journey, in which you both shall be, a reflection of each other, for all eternity. |