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When Love Hits

When Love Hits


Sometimes at night, when I look to the sky,
I start thinking of you and then ask myself, why?
Why do I love you? I think and smile,
because I know the list could run on for miles.
The whisper of your voice, the warmth of your touch,
so many little things that make me love you so much.
The way you support me, and help with my emotions,
the way that you care and show such devotion.
The way that your kiss, fills me with desire,
and how you hold me with the warmth of a blazing fire.
The way your eyes shine when you look at me,
lost with you forever is where I want to be.
The way that I feel when you're by my side,
a sense of completion and overflowing pride.
The dreams that I dream, that all involve you,
the possibilities I see and the things we can do.
How you finish the puzzle that lies inside my heart,
how that deep in my soul, you are the most important part.
I could go on for days, telling of what I feel,
but all you really must know is my love for you is real.

You Are....

You Are....




You are my air
The sun in my day
The moon in my night
The spring in my step
You are my everything.

You are the stars in the sky
The birds in the trees
The shimmer, the sparkle, the shine.

Without the light you put into my life
I would be nothing
A single leaf on the ground in autumn,
Lost, forgotten, alone.

Before i knew you,
I was nothing.
Now I am everything,
With you at my side,
I am invincible!

Feel the same my baby,
You are loved so much,
I love you now and forever
You are my darling, my baby, my love
You are my everything
I love you so much.

What I Love About You

What I Love About You

I love the way you look at me,
Your eyes so bright and brown.
I love the way you kiss me,
Your lips so soft and smooth.

I love the way you make me so happy,
And the ways you show you care.
I love the way you say, "I Love You,"
And the way you're always there.

I love the way you touch me,
Always sending chills down my spine.
I love that you are with me,
And glad that you are mine.

BEST LOVE EVER





KATHLEEN AND BRITTANY MOMMY AND DADDY LOVE YOU WITH ALL OUR HEARTS

BRITTANY ITS SO HARD TO SAY GOOD_BYE TO YESTERDAY





this is for brittany saying good bye is hard but you got the good years ahead of you!!!!

bullet proof rose

bullet proof rose



daggers are thrown and try to reach the core
the wind blows making the petals sour
guns are shot ,but no holes are made
thunder roars but nothing is displayed
the ground pushes its branches away
but she is still standing with us today
the rose sits in the dessert and watches her life slowly go by
but even in her last moments she will not back down and die
she stands bravely like a build up soldier
the weather gets much more colder
and life begins to scarce ,but she is bolder
she stays were she is unwanted
and she knows she will be hunted
but her strength is admirable
her life is so desirable
the rain drops fall down her petals
and thats her cry that says she will not die
she ignores the call of heaven
because she still has seven
seven more ways to make it
she wont sit down and take it
such an amazing gentle rose
who has all alone rouse
life isn't easy , and never will be
the rose was strong not silly
we must see reality
but also be strong
stand tall and look young

To Fly

To Fly

How can I always lend a hand
But ignore the cries within myself
It brings me joy to bring you a smile
But my emptiness still sits up on the shelf

Inside my heart will always bleed
But I will never let it be shown on my face
Only the tear that falls down my cheek
Will give you a glimpse, a shadow, a trace

I suffocate when I try to breathe
The chains you gave won't let my body go
I have dreams, and needs, and wants
My body is numb, I think maybe you should know

I struggle with my demons each day
You feed them while you slowly watch me die
Please let me be and please set me free
I want to smile as I look up at the sky

I want the moon to brighten the night
I want the clouds to pass me on by
I want the stars to guide me

Those Words Held Back

Those Words Held Back

You say you don't love me but that you just care about
me.
Why are you holding back from loving me and why don't
or can't you love me?
Is it because you are too afraid of what love means?
Are you afraid of the word, love?
Love shouldn't be something that's feared.
Love shouldn't be over thought, it should be felt.
People change but some qualities remain.
Even with the change they are still the same.
A part of them remains and should be loved the same
way.
Life is change and you change with it or die in it.
Love is a hope to survive.
Love is a desire to live.
Love remains the sole hope to keep those qualities in a
person most cherished and admired.

They OWN Me

They OWN Me


My heart has been broken many times.
My body used in the most abominal ways without consent
Bruises and physical signs of my loses were once visible to all.
My emotions and mentality have been mangled, torn to shreds.
I'm just a pile of worthless pieces that have been used and broken so much that no longer holds value.
I walk among reality in this broken, tangled, painful, mangled void of a body!
My loses cannot be forgotten, their traces can never be hidden, THEY OWN ME!


this is short but it just shows that pain can last a life time when you are broken so many times.

Daddy and His Lil' Girl

Daddy and His Lil' Girl


As a father looks into his daughter's eyes, all she can see is her daddy's love for her.
She may be small and she may be a baby, but she is daddy's lil' cowgirl for sure.
He says he will teach her how to ride, teach her what she needs to know.
She can only coo but when he leaves for work she will want to say "Don't go".
When daddy is stressed all he needs is to look into those big brown eyes and see her smile.
He knows he has her love and his heart skips a beat and jumps a mile.
Staying up to feed her and change her diapers ain't his game.
Without her though, he is lost and knows he wouldn't be the same.
She will look at him and see her very own hero, he will look at her and see his star.
Even when he is away on the hunt, his heart and his love will never be far.
She wakes up in the morning with a smile and a head full of bushy hair.
Her daddy says "Don't worry Munchkin, I'll always be there"
When she cries, she will be swept up into arms so tender and strong.

FRONT PORCH

FRONT PORCH


THE OLD FARM HOUSE HAD A NICE LONG FRONT PORCH
GRANDMA SAT THERE WAVING A WARM FRIENDLY HI,
AS FOLKS PASSED IN THEIR OLD MODEL T. FORDS
SHE WATCHED IN THE AFTERNOONS AS THEY PASSED BY.

THERE WASN'T AS MUCH TRAFFIC IN THE OLDEN DAYS
THE PORCH PROVIDED A LOT OF SHADE,
RELAXED AFTER DOING ALL THE MORNING HOUSE WORK
ENJOY A GLASS OF LEMONADE THAT HAD JUST BEEN MADE.

THE WASHING HUNG OUT ON THE LINE
THE DISHES WERE ALL DRIED AND PUT AWAY,
GRANDPA WAS BACK OUT IN THE FIELD
THE FARMER AND MULE WERE BUSY CUTTING HAY.

GRANDMA HAD PUT ON A FADED CLEAN APRON
IN CASE A NEIGHBOR SHOULD HAPPEN TO STOP,
HOPE THE MAILMAN BRINGS A LETTER FROM HER SON OVERSEAS
SIT AND REST A SPELL - THEN THE FLOOR SHE WILL MOP.

BUT FOR NOW, SHE WOULD REST IN THE WICKER CHAIR
THE NEW CUSHIONS HAD BEEN PLACED OUT HERE YESTERDAY,
BUT NOW CAN'T KEEP THE CAT OFF
KITTY THINKS THIS IS A NICE PLACE FOR HER TO LAY.

SITTING HERE CAN SEE DOWN THE ROAD
ON THE BANK GROWS THE LOVELY PINK SWEET PEA VINE,
THE WILD ROSES ARE CLIMBING THE FRONT FENCE
THE PEARS WILL RIPEN IN A SHORT TIME.

THE BIG MAPLE TREES THAT SHADE THE HOUSE
THE BRANCHES ARE FULL OF BIRD SONG,
ONCE FALL ARRIVES AND THE LEAVES WILL CHANGE COLOR
SUMMER IS GOING FAST - IT WON'T BE VERY LONG.

GRANDPA SITS HERE LATE IN THE EVENING
HE LIKES TO READ A WESTERN BOOK,
DOESN'T SEEM TO TAKE NOTICE OF ANY TRAVELER
THERE'S A REASON - A NAP HE JUST TOOK.

A FARM HOUSE WITHOUT A PORCH
NO PLACE TO SIT - THAT WOULD BE A SHAME,

Too Late

Too Late


Its too late , too much was said .
The cruel words running through my head .
You come on so strong ,
Then act as if you did nothing wrong .
Your words cut through my heart ,
Why did I trust you from the start .
You seemed so sweet and true ,
Never knowing you would have a dark side such as you do .
You tortured me a little everyday ,
But all the while smiling in that cute way .
All that charm you have inside fooled me ..... I will admit ,
I loved you and just didnt want to quit .
Now the pain has come to a end ,
I have tossed it into the wind .

Diminishing

Diminishing


Some dismiss it as selected
others feign not to know
All the while they watch, with relish
your decent into madness, slow

They see the screams behind your eyes
But deafen their ears to suit
Lest they somehow be infected
By this emotive mute

To all is displayed your sorry state
Too extreme to conceal, too intense to hide
Still they begrudge you, your meagre slice
Your motives they decide

No words seep from their set mouths
To acknowledge what is seen
Attempts to convey emotions are quickly revered, clean
Still they envy you, your strength it musts
To keep it ever silent
That piercing internal scream

WHAT A HELL OF A DAY

well this morning i called my docter told him that the spider bite was not doing any better and i was not felling any better. so he tells me to go to the er that he had to do his rounds today and he would meet me there to check it out and cut it out if need be. so my kids go with their daddy to a pool thing that he had to go to. well i take the car to the hospital like i was supose to do to check this spider bite out. i get to the hospital and iam pulling in to the parking lot or pulling around to the er part of the hospital. well this lady is doing 50 threw the damn parking lot and iam going 15mils per hr. she hits me well tbones me in our car. so they had to get the emts to come get me and the woman out of our cars. shes haveing chest pains i cant feel my left leg or any thing like that. it felt like i was hit by a train because of how fast she was going. so when the emts get to us and get us into the er iam in a neck brace on a back bored and all of this shit iam in alot of pain feels like iam dieing. well the neck brace is on this spider bite that has been bothering me for days now. my docter was going to cut it out. so befor they can cut it out they have to take xrays of my neck and all of this to make sure they can remove the neck brace to do so. now my back,knee,hip and neck is messed up. i got the spider bite cut out so i got all this pain going on and i have been threw hell and back today. now we dont have a car and all that shit. so i dont know how iam going to get back to my docter come monday to get the packing out of the hole in my neck due to them cuting out the spider bite and not only that hes going to have to check my knee and back and all of that

Words Forgot

Words Forgot


If I forget to tell you just how much you mean to me, I hope that you will remember while your not here with me.
If I forget to tell you that you are my world and more, I hope that you will remember what I am waiting for.
If I forget to tell you I want you in my life, I hope that you will remember that I am always by your side.
If I forget to tell you I love you more than words, I hope that you will remember regardless of the hurt.
If I forget to tell you I am sorry for my mistakes, I hope that you will remember with every one I make.
If I forget to tell you no other can compare, I hope that you will remember the love that we both share.
If I forget to tell you I miss you everyday, I hope that you will remember your absence causes pain.
If I forget to tell you that forever is what I want, I hope you will remember that forever is what we have got. Whether I say these words to you, or wait until you are here with me, I will show you this forever, and these words will have no need.

The Way He Gets To Me

The Way He Gets To Me



His eyes are georgeous
Like the waves of the sea,
His smile is wonderful
Which will always get me.

He makes me laugh
With the little noises he makes,
He doesn't even know
How it makes me shake.

The way he holds my hand
Lets me know he cares,
It gives me that feeling
The feeling lovers share.

He tells me he loves me
And I know this is true,
Thats why I answer back
I love you too.

We're together forever
Friends and family can see,
He's what I've always wanted
And he's all for me.

Do You Ever Wonder?

Do You Ever Wonder?




Do You Ever Wonder? Do you ever wonder if the one you loved still thinks about you? If they wonder what it would be like if you hadn't broken up. If you would still be together to this day. Do you wonder if they cry at night holding the stuffed animal that you gave them. Just like you do. Or when their with there new love, do they compare them to you. Do they wish it was your hands they were holding, instead of the new love. Or do they wish that it was your eyes that there gazing into. Or everytime they kiss there new love, do they picture it's you and your warm lips. Do they wish it was your heart that they were saying I love you too. Then at night when they wish upon a star, do they wish you were wishing on the same one. Or does it hurt them everytime they walk by, and wonder if you hurt too. When they see you smile do they smile too, just to see that your happy. Or does it secretly hurt them, cause they wish that they were the one making you laugh. Well I do, I wonder these things everyday. And that's what I wonder when I think about you. This is to the one I love.

When

When





When I went to bed last night, my last thought was of you.
When I woke up this morning, my first thought was of you.
You are my everything; my sun, my stars, my sky.
You are my everything... and this is the reason why:

For when we met it was fate, fate from the soul within.
For when we met it was choice, choice to be your friend.
For when we first laughed together, I knew it was meant to be.
For when I fell in love, I knew you had fallen in love with me.

You are my everything, my breath belongs to you.
You are my everything, hold these words to be true.
You are my everything and
I'll always love you...
and whats more
I know you'll always love me too.

Yes Said,He

Yes Said,He

Will you be there for me,
Yes, said he
Always! A care for me?
Yes! Said he
Can I believe in you, secrets reveal to you
Can I be real to you?
Yes, said he.

Is it safe if I cry for you?
Yes, said he.
Other's deny for you?
Yes, said he
Surrender my heart to you, yes EVERY part to you
'Till death us do part' to you?
YES! Said he!

I have my history
Yes said he
Bit of a mystery
Yes, said he
Yet will you stay with me, right down the way with me
And never stray from me?
Yes, said he.

Are you the 'real thing?'
Yes, said he
Give me a wedding ring?
YES! Said he.
See all is well for me, truth always tell to me
Go down to hell for me?
Yes, said he.

Are you willing to die for me?
Yes, said he
Grow wings and fly with me?
Yes, said he
Will you be true to me, one of the few to me?
Always anew to me?
Yes, said he.

YOU ARE A LIAR!
NO! Said he
Climbed out of the mire!
No, said he
Angels revealed your lies
Hell is YOUR paradise
Demons are in your eyes
… Yes, said he.

Ghost Of Your Past

Ghost Of Your Past

Love of my life,
I stand in the background
Through your ups and downs,
Your winning and losing
Your dark nights
And waking hells.

Love of my life
I think of you with kindness
Although you left me
I know you suffered
And died a death
When you remembered

Love of my life
My arms were waiting
And would have done through the torment
Of what we let slip away
Till the end days

What infinite sadness
What total lack of courage
What misplaced bravery I saw in you
What pain and suffering
You and your “loving”
Put me through.

Love lies Bleeding

Love lies Bleeding


The quiet moon glistens
on my cold shivering sweat,
Awakened
from this dream of you
In a room full of emptiness

The mountain stars are fading
though still shining in my eyes
with tormented thoughts
I stand here defeated
Locked away in this
heart-shaped box of mine

By the window
my silhouette embraces
Its lonely shadow in the dark
Alone again,
I'm lost in pieces
because I can't seem to
Get you out of my head

Your smile still lingers
in the back of my mind
Smiling with love
I'm trapped in my heart
Beckoning for you,
not letting go
of what I can't seem to hide

A hemorrhage of you
I needed you the most
The memories are sweet
but they are tearing me apart

Filled with anger
I punch the windowsill
Looking ahead
I whispered to myself
"Leave me alone"

Cloudless

Cloudless


There is a light that flickers, fading -
pulsating vaguely as it connects my reality
to my dreams, and silences
all nightmares. This light,
it licks the wounds others create.
With the quiet in your eyes, my thoughts
are strong, but they don't run as deep
as your loyalty. Bright flashes
snap me back to present, and the touch
of your hand shows me truth,
even through the interruptions.
You're everything that's the best in me.

HAPPY MOTHERS DAY TO ALL THE MOTHERS ON WIRE.

today is the day that mothers are shown how importan they really are. some kids just dont seem how to show it other then on this day for some reason. witch is ok. my kids are sweet they all ways try to show me how importan i really am to them every day. but as we grow older and we have our own lifes some times we for get to thank the ones that made us and put us here to make familys of our own and all of that. it was our mothers and ect. it gos down a long like iam not going to sit here and type all that out iam still tired out from my 6 year olds birthday yesterday. my baby was born on mothers day 6 years ago so her birthday and mothers day has always been really close. i tell you what that is the best gife a mother can get is her child be born on mothers day. i got 2 kids that think the world of me iam gald to have them 2 kids they are my life.

i didnt have a mother like my kids do. my mother was rude stayed doped up and i wouldnt wish her a happy mothers day for any thing in this world. she was always high on mothers day any way and never rembered what us kids did for her any how so why dose it matter if we say any thing to her. now i got a step mother that iam going to be with today she showed me more then my own mother ever could have. i guess what iam trying to say here is rather its your step mother foster mother real mother just make sure on this day if u dont do it every day make sure today you tell them happy mothers day and thank you for puting up with the shit you put them threw lol. tell them that you love them and you are gald that they put all the time that they did in to you it makes a mother feel good to hear these things. not only that what if today was the last day you ever saw your mother will she know that you truely loved her will she know that she did mean the world to you. thats the things that a mother needs to hear.

HAPPY MOTHERS DAY TO ALL THAT ARE MOTHERS. the love of a mother runs deeper then any other love there is the love of a mother is a love that will never end.

For my 6 year old happy birthday Birthday Blessings

Birthday Blessings



Instead of counting candles,
Or tallying the years,
Contemplate your blessings now,
As your birthday nears.



Consider special people
Who love you, and who care,
And others who’ve enriched your life
Just by being there.



Think about the memories
Passing years can never mar,
Experiences great and small
That have made you who you are.



Another year is a happy gift,
So cut your cake, and say,
"Instead of counting birthdays,
I count blessings every day!"


HAPPY 6TH BIRTHDAY KATHLEEN MOMMY LOVES YOU.

Falling

Falling


Falling
I can’t breathe. Please tell me what you think... I can’t breathe
I don’t know what to do
I can’t move or do anything
All because I’m falling for you
You have changed my life
In a way I never imagined
You make me melt away
I feel I am always safe
Until I start falling again
I keep going down
No one will help stop me
No one is around
I hope I land on my feet
I want to feel safe again
Like the way I felt
When you held my hand
I just can’t stop falling
Falling from your heart
Maybe I’ve been thrown
Just like a dart
I’m addicted to you
Like a poisonous drug
I want you to catch me
I think I’m in love
I just can’t stop falling...

A New Love

A New Love


I haven't known you very long
but that's not the way I feel;
I've told you all about me
I have nothing to conceal.

What I say may sound silly now
but you'll find it to be true;
I never thought that when we met
I would fall in love with you.

You are my new beginning,
you're the door to life beyond;
you're all that I could ever want
or ever need to carry on.

You're the future I have dreamed of,
you're a new and brighter day;
with you, there is no looking back,
the past can fade away.

Though I haven't known you very long
you'll find all I've said is true;
I never thought that when we met
I would fall in love with you.

Heart To Heart

Heart To Heart


Sometimes in this lifetime,
we meet a special soul,
who fills our very essence,
to almost overflow,
we drink the cup of friendship,
it tastes like ruby wine,
and you know within your heart,
this meeting was Divine.

This soul that lives within your heart,
no distance can prevail,
an inner spark, within the heart,
becomes a Holy Grail,
the starting of a journey,
in which you both shall be,
a reflection of each other,
for all eternity.