still not feeling good.

well got a tooth pulled yesterday and iam still hurting in my jaw and every thing so iam going to just try and get some sleep. i woke up with a headacke that wont stop this morning so maybe if i lay down to get some sleep i will be able to get rid of it. i ate something that helped a bit but it didnt get rid of it all the way witch i was hopeing that it would. the kids are in school so i can rest and every thing like that i dont have to worry about them up runing around all alone in the house so this would be the best time to get some rest. once the numbness weres off it hurts like hell i know that much. feels like they broke my damn jaw when they pulled my tooth. i have had a few pulled but i have to say this one hurt more then all the other ones. so i might be back on some time today if not i will come on and chat a bit more in the morning or afternoon all depending on how i feel. have a good one and all yall try to stay out of trouble lol. have fun. dont miss me to much.

I Love You

I Love You



My love for you will never fade.
With both our feelings combined is how love is made.
You give me the strength to stand up tall.
You reach out for my hand every time I'm about to fall.
There is not a day your not on my mind.
A person like you, is really hard to find.
A weekend without you is so hard to do.
I can not even live a day without you.
I love to hold you, and hold your hand.
From this day on, you are my very best friend.
I'm happy to wake up beside you everyday.
"I love you" is my favorite word you always say.
I love it when I look in your eyes
I see no hatred, and no lies.
Forever in my heart is where you will be.
Nobody else will enter because you have the only key.
Just to keep you, there isn't anything I wouldn't do.
Because baby I Love You.

A Broken Heart

A Broken Heart



How do I mend a broken heart?
My entire world has fallen apart.
How do I find hope in a brand new day,
when the one I love has gone away?
My mind overflows with memories of you,
of all that we've shared, all that we knew.
I long for your touch and your warm embrace,
the look in your eyes, the smile on your face.
My dreams are filled with your soft gentle kiss,
I wake and cry for all that I miss.
How do I mend a broken heart,
when my one true love and I are apart?
My heart knows to love only you, it won't let go, what do I do?
Our moments together were precious and few,
but I cherished them all more than you knew.

Dreaming Of Our Love

Dreaming Of Our Love


Drinking an early morning coffee
As I so often do.
I find my mind wandering, thinking
Longing thoughts of you.

I go about my day doing
All the usual things.
But you are always there
Forever creeping in.

When the night arrives and
It's time to go to bed.
Even when I sleep
you're always in my head.

Dreaming all night long
Sweet and loving thoughts.
Daylight comes again once more
Now I can daydream as before!

Where I Want To Be, Where I Belong

Where I Want To Be, Where I Belong


Within his arms where his strength lies
This is what I see through my eyes

Within his arms there is warmth of love
as soft as a white winged dove

Within his arms there is a sweet embrace
When I look up I see a smile on his face.

Within his arms there is security
I feel so secure and purity

Within his arms I feel safe and sound
against his chest I hear his heart pound

Within his arms I can't go wrong
Within his arms is where I belong

Until I Found You

Until I Found You

Somewhere in my heart beyond all my pride
holds a secret desire so intense, deep inside.
Imprisoned with all my passion and love,
unknown to anyone but the one above.
A desire for someone to cherish and hold,
the need for a love to call my own.

Someone to kiss and make up with after fight.
Someone who can respect all I can be.
Someone who's strong enough to commit and love only me.
Someone who will be there and kiss away my tears, secure my doubts, and release me from all my fears.

Someone I can depend on to be my friend, someone who can restore my faith in love once again.
This love is like a dream yet to come true,
Or so I believed until I found you.

This is in memory of a old wire club user R.I.P

most of us just called him axe his name was axemuderboy tho. good friend to every one that he met and helped every one he came into contact with. just a really careing and loveing person. he passed away 4/21/11 hes no longer with us but once i post his pics some of you might know who iam talking about.


Tim/aka axe



Even though he's gone
his memory still remains in our hearts.
His smile and face will never fade.
We think of him as we go on each day.
The good times we remember
and the days spent together
will be in our memories forever.
So when you start to get down
and you really want to cry
just think of the fun times
and don't wonder why.
Just leave it at that
and know he's better now.
He's in a better place.
His heart was right with God.
So Tim we love you
and we miss you so much
but we know you're much happier.
So watch over us and make sure we're okay
and we will see you again someday.

Okay. Tim was pretty much my brother. he was always here for me and told me when i was stupid or when i was smart. a true juggalo. hes really missed more then any one could know not only by family but friends. he had kids that will now not have a father.

Holding our memories in my hands...

Holding our memories in my hands...




Today I shall wait for you,
Holding our memories in my hands.
Hoping to see you today,
keeping my steps in little strands.
I miss you more than anyone,
I'm sorry I haven't been here Hun.
My life has been a mess,
I guess I just don't wanna leave you in distress.
I know if I had told you, you would have been here for moral support,
I'm sorry I couldn't do that they're just some problems that I on my own have to sort.
So I am sitting here holding our memories in my hands,
I really do hope you understand.

I Miss you

Thinking of you...

Thinking of you...


Lie on the ground,
and stare into space,
the stars start to move,
into the shape of your face.

I see you there now,
looking down at me,
with that cute little smile,
that I like to see.

You say "close your eyes",
"tell me what you see",
I see only two people,
just you and me.

We're walking the shoreline,
with our feet getting wet,
the horizon turns pink,
as the sun starts to set.

We make love through the night,
on that white sandy shore,
then I hold you while thinking,
I could want nothing more.

Life Truned Her That Way

Send "Life Turned Her That Way" ringtone to your cell

(Harlan Howard)

If she seems cold and bitter then I beg of you
Just stop and consider all she's gone through
Don't be quick to condemn her for things she might say
Just remember life turned her that way.

She's been walked on and stepped on so many times
And I hate to admit it but the last footprint's mine
She was crying when I met her she cries harder today
So don't blame her life turned her that way.


She's been walked on and stepped on so many times
And I hate to admit it but the last footprint's mine
She was crying when I met her she cries harder today
So don't blame her life turned her that way.

So don't blame her life turned her that way...

My Hero

My Hero



My hero never fought in a war
He never drove a big fancy car
He did not go very far in school
But he lived his life by the golden rule

He never had much money to spend
But he had the respect of all his friends
He was born and died in the same county
He never felt the need to search the world for bounty
He got up each morning
Ate breakfast.

It takes a lot of work with a family to feed
A lot of devotion to meet their need
But he did it for years till his family was grown
Then he could r get to stay home

A time for rest but it didn't last long
He became sick and then he was gone
I guess I thought he would always be there
When I had a problem I needed to share
But when I am low and feeling sad
I still draw strength from my hero, my Dad.


they say that when you lose some one that time heals the pain if you lost a father like mine you would know that not to be so. some days it seems harder then others some days the overwelming feeling of loseing my father takes its toll on me. my father was not only my hero but was the one that i went to when i was sad,when i got in to trouble when i was sad or even if i was haveing a good day and just wanted to tell him about the good day. my dad was my world then i grew up and had kids of my own and then i knew where my father was comeing from when he said it takes alot to take care of a family. still my father was my world,but so was my family that i had started as well.

this pic is of my father me and my oldest.

Thinking of You

Thinking of You

I spend my time thinking,
Wishing you were here.
I stop and look around,
Hoping you were near.

Just because You are not with Me,
Doesn't mean a thing.
It's knowing that You know,
That I'm Your everything.

So whenever You feel lonely,
Just look inside Your Heart.
And know without a doubt,
That in our spirit We will never be apart.

One Last Im Sorry

One Last Im Sorry


I’m sorry you can’t trust me
And won’t ever let me in
I’m sorry you don’t believe in me
And that I could not win

I’m sorry for not being perfect
And being able to break your fears
I’m sorry for messing up
And causing all your tears

I’m sorry I can’t fix it
And make you want to stay
I’m sorry I wasn’t good enough
And now I have to pay

I’m sorry I ever doubted it
And made you second guess