Blood And Tears

drakness surounds me no light in sight,
wanting to find my way but no light do i
see.
i craw on hands and knees,
blood comeing from my hands,
blood comeing from me kees,
sweat pooring from my body,
tears flowning from my eyes.

wanting help no one can hear,
darkness all around me and fear,
is all i see,
something comes to me dont give up,
keep going you will find the light,

i keep puching no matter the pain,
no matter the tears keep going,
blood comeing from my hands,
blood comeing from my knees,
sweat pooring from my body,
the tears from my eyes.

i see a small light nothing big,
im reaching for the light,
still crawing threw the dark.
hopeing the light gets to me,
befor darkness is all i know,

i want to give up,
a voice says keep going,
the light will come soon,
the pain is depper then,
any one else can bear,

blood comeing from my hands,
blood comeing from my kness,
sweat comeing from my body,
tears running down my face.

weaker my body gets,
still keep trying to go.

the light is so close,
my hands and knees cant
take much more.

the blood is comeing from my hands,
blood comeing from my knees,
sweat comeing from my body,
the tears are ever so deep,

my legs and hands give,
i cant go on,
i see that small light and know,
never will i see it again,
as my body lies there,
the darkness takes over,
alone i die in the dark,
with my bloody hands,
bloody knees,
sweat pooring from,
my body,
tears flowing from my eyes.


good bye i wisper then i take my,
last breath,

My Dad

My Dad

If I could write a story
It would be the greatest ever told
Of a kind and loving father
Who had a heart of gold

If could write a million pages
But still be unable to say, just how
Much I love and miss him
Every single day

I will remember all he taught me
I'm hurt but won't be sad
because he'll send me down the answers
And he'll always be MY DAD

Sexual Abuse

Sexual Abuse





Tears are always running down my face
I hang my head low thinking "what a disgrace?"
The tears are coming from all the damage you caused
What do you want now, a round of applause?

I've watched you rape and molest me right before my eyes
Now the only thing left to do is cry
You stole my virginity without my consent
PLEASE tell me why this is the way it went

All I wanted was for you to get off of me
But getting you off of me just wasn't that easy
You hit me in my face then ripped my shirt
Then you pushed it in to the point where it hurt

I remember it like it was yesterday
Answer this, will I ever forget about this and be okay?
The thoughts are crucial and all I can do is cry
Sometimes I just think then ask myself "why didn't I die?"

Sorry

Well I haven't been putting my poems or any thing up sorry for that. Just haven't had a lot if time to do that being sick and all. He'll to be honest I haven't had time to sit down and put any thing on paper in mos the kids have been sick I have been way to sick. Have a lot of new stuff going to be done tho a few short stories, poems, even songs just going to take some time to do. It should be fun tho once I get them started all tho ill have 50 going at once I always do but it's been backing up from where I ain't had time to do any thing but worry about the kids. Myself a bit but not to much I never worry about me like I should but that's what a mommy dose them babies come first always and for the rest of a mothers life.