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longpigchef: Well, sports fans.... It looks like I will live for at least another couple of years. A 20% chance of five or more even! I will not live in a diminished capacity ever again. No more treatments that are worse than the affliction. Friends tell me, "pray to God! He will save you!".... Well, God didnt get me into this mess and I have no intention of seeking his/her aid to get me out. I have met a great deal of good people here. I want to thank all of those who welcomed me here. I am grateful to have been accepted into your strange little community. I have a fairly substantial insurance policy for when things do go south for me, and I wish there was some way I could include you people in the windfall of my demise. You all are my only friends. I dont deserve such warm treatment. When one makes the decision to murder and pillage, it is irrelevant what flag they chose to do it for. Such is my quandary. I am choosing to die on my terms. I do not exaggerate when I say you are my only friends. I ran away from a very productive life, in order to die in a place where I would not be mourned. Now I am regretful to not be able to embrace my son, just one more time... A decision made out of selfishness and fear. A decision that will ultimately shape my legacy. I am sorry to the wives and mothers who cannot embrace their loved ones because of me. For those sons ive taken. I'm told that there is eternal damnnation for those who take life. Well as much as I accept that, I would like to give those who I call friends on here mine. My life... It was never worth much, but I owe it to you. Love your children. Don't forget to call your parents and tell them you love them. Do it as much as you can... Do it for those who can't. I'm going to pack my father's flag and my pictures of my family and take one last ride. I wont wait in this unfamiliar place for my cancer to return. I will go on that road trip with my family that I could never take, because I was too busy doing all the things that we were taught were wrong.i will be back, good friends. I am sorry to share my burdens with you. I have no one else to tell. Be good to one another. Dont make the mistakes that I did. You have no idea how hard it is to uproot your life to spare what few loved ones you have.... Only to be told its not over yet... The misery... The pain.... I get to carry that for the next... Fuck I don't know how long... But I know it is time I will spend alone. Time wasted. Heed my warning friends. Never put yourself ahead of any person. I have to try to make amends. I only hope I'm strong enough to do so
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longpigchef
longpigchef: Is there anyone who might be willing to care for my frog? Shes not a very fun pet but she needs a new hone. She eats mice, mealworns, waxworms and fish. I cant take her with me. She is unpleasant and is prone to biting. She still deserves a good home. She comes with an enclosure and everything. I can explain her care needs and provide a gift card that will afford her meals for a while.
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DazzledandDazzed
DazzledandDazzed: I feel for you and wish you the best. Your on the right road to not want to sit back and let it be dictated to you how you should live or die. I was given 3-6 months top to live from the cancer I had. I didn't listen to them and decided I was tired of them killing my body so I left and didn't go back. That was 7 years ago. I later seemed out an alternative doctor to help me because I now have to take meds to keep me alive thanks to the unnecessary surgeries I had and body parts removed. I still have several lymph nodes in my throat that they couldn't get and didn't see a need to since I was already dying. A year after throwing my doctor's away I also went to a different cancer center which will do alternative treatments if they can be used instead of radiation and chemo. There I learned that everything I had gone through wasn't necessary. I am monitored every 6 months and just now graduated to every year to check on the lymph nodes that were left.
You do not have to die and you do not have to believe what our standard care physicians tell us. They work together with the pharmacies. They make their money by keeping us coming back until the very end.
Change your heart and your mindset. Take some time then seek out another way. There's SO MANY treatments now that are not allowed to be promoted. Even RSO with marijuana.
If I lived a couple hours closer I would take your frog. My 17 year old would love it. She has our free range frogs names and watches them like a scientist every year. Take care and know even people you never met know how to love you and your journey will be on their heart while thinking of you while you are learning a new journey. ❣️
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The flying Squirrel
The flying Squirrel: Wow Bro that Sux , Don"t be too hard on yourself , Yeah I hate the way doctors tell people there only got so long to live , and give them Toxic treatments My Mum died of dementure , Im positive the Drugs they were giving her to help, and she was so pedantic about taking on time , Were making her worse , Yeah Bro its true its your Attitude about how you go about it , Don"t burden yourself , ask god for forgivness , Im positive this isn"t all there is ,
Time is never wasted Bro your coming to terms with things , Every thing a lesson ,
Good Luck Brother God speed
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sweetnaynay
sweetnaynay: Oh I'm so sorry to hear this
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Angry Beaver
Angry Beaver: Hope your shit comes together man!
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