Learning to swim
At the precipice of change, I find the tools of overcoming in the forefront of thought. Yet I struggle in the current to get upstream. Mistrust has washed my walls of self preservation to an eddy of this circling whirlpool. Yet in the current, the familiar strength wells from within to kick & paddle to the shore. And just as i reach to my rock of Gibraltar within, finding the familiar friend in me. The waters rise & drag my battered spirit to the depths. As if to guide me to another shore.... To slam me on an unwelcome jagged edge! A painful reminder that reaching to the one once given the gift, is an improbable safety line. The effort to seek that side of the stream continues to batter me on awaiting rocks further downstream. I am just learning to swim hear... So why would I choose to jump in head first to these dangerously deceptive currents. Back to the eddy I'm swallowed. With another serge from within I seek a safer shore. To the comfort of my smiles, I remember the strength I am. And in the shallows I begin to re-learn to swim. All my familiar friends are there awaiting me in shallow pool of joy. Their welcoming hands reach to lift me out of the abyss. I am born again, in the shallows, I learn to swim!!
