I'm a happy weird girl... musical theatre nerd... In love with a Russian boy named Kirill... (relax... he's been in New Zealand since 1996 lol)
Obsessed with True crime, British comedy and RuPaul's Drag Race
All about the fur baby life... have had cats in the past... looking to get one again when Kirill and I move in together, and possibly some little baby ratties and hopefully if the budget allows a wee doggo...
2 part time jobs that can get a bit nutso (boy do I need a holiday...)
I'm fat and I love cheese... I think those are all the important details... if you need to know anything else ask away! (Except if you're gonna be rude and gross lols)
Songbird_nz: Can’t explain why I like this song! Please send help!
Songbird_nz: I haven’t been on in a million years... I gots no computer access on the reg now... so using my crappy cracked to shit iPhone lols. Anywho... birthday went really well until I basically had to cut ties with my Dad and Step Mum... I am officially done with them... and although there are some people that would disagree with this course of action, I can NOT handle the toxicity of my Step Mothers behaviour and how my Father refuses to do anything every time the woman wrongs me. So that also means no more Monday job. I’m financially worse off but my mental health has never been better. So what’s everyone else been up too?
Songbird_nz in reply to BugHug: Thank you for understanding! It’s actually so refreshing to not have to defend my actions here. Life for my general mental wellbeing has been SOOOOOO much better in the last two months. My night terror count is at zero, which is phenomenal! I’ve never had that happen! I don’t have to dilute myself AND I don’t have to pray to every single deity that she’s not going to be a bitch and hoping that for once my Dad will stick up for me. Relieved, happier and I’m my own person capable of making her own decisions. 😊😊😊😊
Songbird_nz: Birthday is not next Sunday but the Sunday after... as a gift I am being treated a trip to Melbourne to visit my sister! (yay! ) which will be happening the Monday after my birthday...
But what should I do on the actual day? My Dad wants to know so he can make plans lol! But I'm completely stumped! All I actually want to do is spend the day with my Boyfriend and our friend Debs. Is that a good enough thing to do?
Peeps who know how to do Birthday things please advise!!
Songbird_nz: I can't win with this ridiculous woman...
Purposefully waited until she had no clients to see so I could go on lunch. I was super hungry.... Breakfast had been at 6am and I went on lunch at 12.30pm. She then completely berated me for going on lunch "too early". I tried to explain to her that she had a gap now, the phones and emails had been very quiet and the fact that I was stupendously hungry meant I'd strike while the proverbial was hot. The next available moment for me to have lunch in between her clients wouldn't have been until 2.30pm and I wasn't going to wait that long considering how hungry I was.
Can someone PLEASE make her see sense? Coz I am having no luck at all!
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Songbird_nz: Ok... so you want me to work around you aye?
You wouldn't have a bar of it last time I asked a favour from you...
I'm fed up of being spoken to the way I've been spoken to these last several weeks. Boss or no boss, step Mother or no step Mother, you have NO right to speak to other people like that. Next time she does it, I'm firmly telling her that I will be leaving out the front door and I'll never be coming back.
Songbird_nz: Absolutely bloody LIVID with today's events.
Get to work, and then get the announcement that Step-Monster/Boss has a virus and has "never been sicker in her entire life"
I get very concerned and tell her to just go to bed. She says "no, I've got a few things that I need to do" All the while standing less than a metre away from me.
She then had the audacity to SIT IN MY OFFICE CHAIR AND COUGH OUT BOTH HER LUNGS OVER MY KEYBOARD AND MOUSE.
Normally, I'd be ok with co-workers or bosses showing up to work under the weather, but if it was the case, every single time that's happened I've been made aware of this situation well before coming in for the day. Not only was I not informed of her illness but the fact that it's A BLOODY VIRUS! Has me so angry, I hope she's aware that if this virus is still active, then she's exposed me (and everyone else I come in contact with) to it.
Also, another contributing factor to my anger is my staffing issues at my other job. In the course of one week we've had one resignation, one termination and my assistant manager on a rather sudden bereavement leave. Also, ALL of our casual staff and other part timers are now back at university, so that leaves only one OTHER staff member to cover some shifts mid week and that is (yep, you guessed it) me.
I absolutely CAN NOT afford to take any time off work if I were to get sick. So, now she's running the risk of getting me sick, but also getting me sick and having to go to work REGARDLESS of conditions coz of our unfortunate staffing issues. She really is not seeing the fact that there are actually HUGE ramifications to her actions today.
I'm sorry for the novel, here endeth the rant
Songbird_nz: Alrighty folks, time for another life update, this one's a bit tricky to write and it may alarm some of you, but please everything has been sussed out so please don't worry or panic too much.
So 2 weeks ago on Saturday in the midst of my mini staycation while my Mum was visiting I had some sort of weird episode.
I had what initially presented itself as a seizure, I was found by my boyfriend on the floor of his room unconscious, convulsing and unresponsive. We were actually due to have lunch with my family that day, and while this was happening I hadn't been in contact with my Mother, but quite luckily she called my mobile and Kirill answered and informed her of the situation to which the response was "CALL AN AMBULANCE!"
So an ambulance was called, apparently all my vitals were completely normal (temperature, blood pressure, blood sugar) except I completely failed the "follow my finger with your eyes" test and I started to be responsive but only one word at a time and once every 2 minutes or so, for about 4 hours the only words I could say were "Help" "Scared" and "Mummy".
The paramedics couldn't for the life of them figure out what was wrong with me, but Kirill did inform them of my night terrors and panic attacks, which some of these symptoms initially seemed like, but to a much more serious extent. They initially put me down as having a panic attack, but because no one was sure, off to the hospital I went.
Spent a whopping six hours in the hospital with my boyfriend, Mum came and joined us a little bit later needless to say it was a much more interesting experience for her than a run of the mill family lunch lol. I must have had my temperature and blood pressure taken about 5 or 6 times since I got to the hospital, every single time the readings came back normal. So the doctor comes to see me and runs some tests, now I'm starting to pass the "follow my finger with your eyes" test and she's shining some lights in my eyes to see if there was anything going on in there, got me to push against her with my hands and feet (I was capable of doing so, but very weak). Although, there was some minutes there where I wasn't able to tell my right hand from my left hand.
Doctor went off and had a chat with her superiors, everyone sort of just went "I dunno!" So they had to send me home as there wasn't much they could do except make sure that I went to my GP so he could refer me to get further testing. So that's what we did!
So been in and out of hospitals and specialist centres for blood tests (all normal) urine tests (also, all normal and not pregnant, but I think the entire planet knows that lol) An ECG (again... normal) and a CT scan (surprise surprise! Normal!) So, we're not 100% sure what happened and why it happened but we are incredibly thankful that it isn't anything nasty or serious, just confused as to what the heck lol. Kirill has been incredible, basically "babysitting" me, as I couldn't really walk normally without losing my balance or getting dizzy or a headache for over a week, so if I had to leave the house he'd be holding my hand. He monitored my sleeping habits and when and where I was taking my pain medication so for that I thank him, in fact BOTH of my parents called him on numerous occasions to thank him for "looking after our baby" which made him feel special
Anywho! I'm so sorry for the novel but I did feel like I needed to explain almost everything haha! I hope I haven't worried anyone significantly as it is all sorted and I have been given the all clear by all doctors and am back to both my jobs without any interruptions! Have a great day guys!
Songbird_nz: Bloody hell...
Just got my ear chewed off for "not listening" to a request from boss from hell aka Step Monster...
In my defence... I was on the phone at the exact same time. So I think it's a little tricky to listen to two people talking to you at the exact same time...
Songbird_nz: Things are getting super real now. Kirill has listed me as his "next of kin" when he signed up for the doctor and the dentist. I'm also his emergency contact as well... does that usually mean good things?
He's also having (finally!) his wisdom tooth extraction today. So I'm having a half day at work, leaving here at lunch time to meet him there, so I can make sure he gets home safely.
He wasn't too chuffed about having to fast for 6 hours before hand though... So I told him that if he didn't he'd poop his pants when he goes under Is this a true thing? I think it's a true thing...
Songbird_nz: Life Update:
Literally as soon as I got chucked out of my flat, I found me a new one! Moved in last Tuesday and it is fantastic! It's in a wee suburb called Aro Valley and... well... it's a little bit foresty... lols. I have seen too many spiders in a week and my flatmates have already invited me to go hunting for shrooms! (lol!!!!! )
Had our jazz gig on Saturday night as well, so it's been a crazy busy week! My only real rest day last week was Thursday, coz if I wasn't moving I was at work or rehearsal or on stage at a gig. But yea, our jazz gig performing the music of Mary Poppins went down a treat! Our audience was tiny, but perfectly formed. I was (essentially) Mary Poppins for the whole night so I had a lot of strangers throw their arms around me lol.
Oh and Kirill is amazing too... I love him so much, he bought a Korg workstation and him and I have been singing and playing a lot. We've also discovered a Podcast where Dan Harmon plays Dungeons and Dragons in front of a live audience! So... that's a bit of fun!
Songbird_nz: Silly reasons... I'm not home enough... and when I am home apparently all I do is make a mess. Which is not true, coz all I've been doing when I've been home for the past three months is sleeping and showering. So I fail to understand how that's messy? If I do leave a mess in the bathroom I clean it up straight away, and what I do in my own personal space is my business, so if they are going into my room then that's a breach of my privacy. I haven't used the kitchen AT ALL in the past three months... despite the fact that there are many MANY dishes stuck all over the place, none of which are mine. So... yea... silly reasons.
Songbird_nz: Ok guys... just one small gripe I need to address here and yes I need to do it on here as all the offending culprits are on here.
Can we please just stop asking if me and my boyfriend have had sex??? If I must do a public answer to this question... then it's no, it's not really our thing we aren't fueled by sexual activities, and there are many other ways in which we can make each other feel satisfied and fulfilled without the need for sex acts. If we do decide to change our minds then I'd quite like to say that it is no one else's business except mine and his, so please just for my sanity STOP BLOODY ASKING!!
I feel it is very intrusive and rude. Yes, for sure you can ask me how he is and all those other things, but stop trying to pry into our sex lives (or lack thereof)
Here endeth the annoyed grouchy PSA
Songbird_nz: Just when you thought you were going to have a good day at work... problem after problem after problem surfaced... All of these problems initially occurred on days when I'm not even here in the first place... so can we please explain why I'm getting the blame and why it's now becoming my problem and I have to fix?
Confused... frustrated... annoyed...
Wish I could leave secret reviews of my boss lols
Songbird_nz: What a crazy busy world I live in...
Both my jobs are having some staffing issues... Bendon just needs to hire more staff... and All About Health & Wellness needs to be slightly less lenient in letting the other receptionist take so much annual leave... Last week I worked 6 days in a row... next week I'm working 6 days in a row... Been thinking about taking some annual leave myself... but at this stage that's probably not gonna happen for another month at least. Oh well... more muns for me I guess hehe...
Oh and speaking of annual leave... Kirill says he'd like to join me when I go on my trip to visit my Mum and get to know her properly... we have had a couple of calls over FaceTime so they have been introduced... just not in person just yet but Mum said she'd love to have him visit with me as well so that's a plus!
Songbird_nz: So... been a while...
I'm like never at home anymore these days so that's basically why I'm never on anymore.
Things with Kirill are going incredibly well! His lease is up in November and he has floated the idea of us moving in together then! So that's a super exciting thing! He says he couldn't think of anything more awesome than living with me (I don't know why... I can barely stand to live with me lols) So that's an exciting thing to look forward too. We do a lot of stuff together so I think in the end it just makes a lot of sense.
So... how have things been with you? Let me know what you've been up too and all that jazz!
Songbird_nz: Basically one month in... still going strong!! In fact... we're starting to record our own covers of songs. Thus far we've done "A Thousand Miles" by Vanessa Carlton and "La La Land" by Demi Lovato. Next on the list is definitely something by Paramore, although we can't decide between "Misery Business" "Decode" and "Ignorance". Oh and he also wants me to do a cover of this Got A Girl song... it's a duet with Mike Patton and he's a HUUUUUGE Mike Patton fan... so he's gonna do the weird Mike Patton parts hehe.
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Songbird_nz: Monday job has become a complete nightmare. Step Mother/Boss is claiming I don't tell her important things... despite the fact that I always inform her of EVERYTHING... she just doesn't listen to me. Maybe I should stop telling her things as an experiment just to see what happens LOL!
The boyfriend met the bulk of my family on Saturday night for my younger brothers birthday dinner. He says everyone was super awesome and chill... except for one person and yep... you guessed it... MY STEP MOTHER... well in his defence she introduced herself as "Kat's evil step mother" and then proceeded to act super weird (and actually super drunk) all evening.
He is a massive help through all of this though... he now completely understands all the issues I have and sees where I'm coming from... he feels awful that I have to go through it all though, so he's going to do his best to protect me through everything which is super wonderful He really is doing an amazing job of keeping me sane I love him.
My amazingly wonderful boyfriend decided to refer me to his work... coz primarily he thinks I'm kinda the perfect fit for the role that he's doing. It's a remote work from home tech support/customer service scenario... but he seems to think I'd be super good at it, even tho I'm not super duper tech savvy. He says there's a super extensive training period... but failing that, you don't need to be super smart to Google things.
So last Monday we put through my referral and application and on Thursday I got invited to stage one of the interview. I have been scheduled to have my "life story" interview this coming Wednesday at 12noon for a grand total of 45 mins (phew! that's a long time to talk about myself lol)
I'm equal parts terrified, anxious, thankful and feeling the love all at the same time!