get past the hurt and sading of lost some1 you love
i been deal with the guilt of not been able to say good bye to my father when pass away this feb7,2010. most of my dad family does not forgive me for not make it down to louisiana to buried my father. i even have a younger brother that piss off but he will get over it. i was snow end when they buried they were closed state highways and ground planes that month.it not like i don't have feelings i know i guilt of not been the best daughter are the perfect sister and hell i even guilt of not been a good wife.
but i did love my father and he know it. but sometime i just want to say the hell with it and lay down beside him and than maybe everybody would be happy. i am guilt of lot of things but here late i been try to get past the lost of my father so why and hell can't my aunt and uncles understand i did not want to put my mom thought another hell try to make it down south when the town i am living was a stand still . damn it the whole states was at stand still . my father last words to me was to look forward and never back so here i am try not look back on my life and at my faults but why does people have to remind you of the thing you guilt of.
lol
Alan