 |  vigilanthiphop: Trapped inside a fake smile lies a demon that's awake now, I learned to stop Giving a fuck, I used to chalk up ignorant people and bad relations to dumb luck, but it isn't. The problem might be some of them its true, But in the end the only one left to blame, is you. You opened the door and enter they're life say you appreciate the feedback with intentions to fight, That's life. At least the one I'm livin. This is just a warning getting to know me is a bad decision. The worlds worse nightmare, Don't fear a single soul and when I plant my foot I remain up right there. Some people respect me for the way I behave, Some people shun me tellin me to act my age, There's nothing that these words could do to show you how I ended here, Just please keep your distance or I will become a monster in a never ending nightmare. 11 years ago • Report • Link 0 vigilanthiphop: There you are judgin me Fuck it I dont care, "look at you pushin 30 with fuckin grey hair" that's stress! "Might be but your lifes a mess" fuck you, what do you know? "Everything that you do" I'm about 2 seconds away from..... "nah uh cause that'll kill you" Leave me the fuck alone please! "I can't its my job to make sure you spend your nights in front of the toilet on your hands and knees, sooner or later your gonna break! you cant fake it and the art that you create, Nope it wont make it" Enough already I'm gonna eat every last one of these pills and wash it down with some rum, ya how does that feel? I succumb, take one last victory shot, you won. "Atleast your going to finnaly follow through with one thing that you've done, stupid.. To think you coulda had the world by the horns but instead you'd rather play the victim who can't weather the strom, pussy." Before my last breath I gotta know one thing, Who the fuck are you and whyd you choose me? "I didn't choose you, I over took you... Its self criticism that everybody goes through, like demons you can't see us but were always there I thought you knew that and that's why you walked around the house avoiding mirrors, Couldn't stand your reflection could you? I wouldn't be able to either and I am you" I didn't quit, Im fuckin sick of bein sick. "Ya? then you better call 911 and get over it, Worried you wont amount to shit but the only thing you ever put your all into is to give up quick, If I ease up a bit on the stress and the stomach will you walk away from this conversation and learn from it?" I promise I will, I wont quit not again... "good cause this was a dream its time to wake up and grab that pad and pen" damn. vigilanthiphop: I have a strong dislike for people that are always right and quick to judge others thinking they are better than the rest of the world. I also can't stand people that tell you how you should live your life, Everybody see's things and handles things in a different light. Is your way right? is they're way right? Who is to say. It shouldn't be an issue to begin with. If someone Can't accept you for you they can kick rocks, Your life in the long run will be better off without someone constantly putting you down or judging or telling you what you should or shouldn't do. Take a left and save breath and avoid the headaches. I am a big ass man child with more issues than most, But I have still found a way to be healthy in a materialistic format and have achieved more success than I had expected. However I lack communication or tolerance for people that try to change who I am even down to the clothing that I wear. I won't beg for acceptance just because someone doesn't like the way I do things. The day I will take your tips & Judgement is the day that I lose it all, all of the materialistic shit and my friendships with others who accept me for me..... vigilanthiphop: I take a breath and breathe it out Life has been a bitch holding onto me, I'm always freaking out I don't play well with others, I panic in a crowd And I'm quick to fall in love, that's why I'm always on the ground So pick it up Pop the umbrella over my problems And understand I'll never be a man until I solve 'em And sometimes I wish that I could go back home Yeah, crawl into my childhood dreams and be alone And that be everything, just another boy left with nothing An object of security slowly losing its stuffin' The Sumter Square slum king Looking for another motherfucking chance to re-break the broken in is something And that's the part I'm never going to get Growing up is more than just a mind state and owning all your debts Blowing out the breath I don't feel so tall So tell me how am I supposed to reach anything, anything at all Anything at all Tell me how, can I, grow to see the change in my life I wanted, to overcome the battle inside what is owed to anxiety's hold Is there a better way to figure it out? I sweep it all under the rug Cover up the loss found inside of me and wash it down with blood I was born with an option and taught to swim a flood But the older I become I start to humor giving up So pick it up Listen to all of the words in my head And understand I'll have a shaky hand until they're said And I don't know if I can get my mind state back But I would travel to the end just to feel that grasp And that be everything, speak it through the can on the line And prophesize the future from the twinkle in my eye I could wrinkle up and die In that room where the dreams started talking to me constantly And dancing through the sky I'm alive, but growing up has proved to be a task And left a couple daydreams broken down and smashed Looking through the glass I don't feel so tall So tell me how am I supposed to reach anything, anything at all Anything at all Tell me how, can I, grow to see the change in my life I wanted, to overcome the battle inside what is owed to anxiety's hold Is there a better way to figure it out? |
