Scorpio Queen

Scorpio Queen

Scorpio Storm

Beat the Storm or BE the Storm !

The Storm

Clouds were gathering in the distance. Grey and black and most foreboding. The winds were gaining strength as well and I wanted to quickly run from the approaching storm, hiding my face from the oncoming ugliness of it all. Courage and bravery are not borne from running, so I turned my face to the oncoming fury, determined to stay in place while the gales onslaught around me raged. Faster they approached, whipping dust and debris into the air and choking my lungs, piercing my eyes. My heart beat hard as I stood in my determination and feeling as though my very soul should be ripped away from my body. A thunderclap was released so loud that I covered my ears and was thrown to the ground and I cried and trembled from fear. "I can't" escaped my lips as I lie there feeling each outburst that swept across the land with such jarring anger. "I don't want to die like this. Not this way !" I screamed out loud and gritted my teeth and squeezed my eyes tight. I lay there 'til all was quiet again. Slowly, slowly I opened my eyes and gazed around at the now blue skies, the flitting of butterflies, and heard the song of the birds. "I am alive" I thought softly, "and I have made it through". I finally stood straight, firm and looked from where the storm had come. Gradually, eyes piercing the landscape, I knowingly smiled.......

WineNSarcasm
March 8, 2022

The Road

Ever wonder where that Road goes ? I did, too. Sometimes I would stand and look and see all the wonderful things: trees, flowers, birds, I would be in awe of the openness and the path that Road made through it all. And then one day I decided to walk down that Road and see what Life had for me. Oh, it wasn't long before I tripped over some things in the Road, but I picked myself up and moved on. Only this time, the Road I thought so straight and unchanging had opened up a new path for my journey. It was different and for awhile I was contented walking this new way until I found myself climbing over boulders that skinned my knees and made my hands bleed. I didn't know if walking this Road was a good idea, but then another one opened up before my eyes and I thought "give it another try". Well, that way didn't appear to have as many wonderful things appearing, but it is the way I went and spent years caring for others. An unexpected surprise befell me and yet another path beckoned. The journey here was a matter of ups and downs; twists and turns and honestly, I'm a bit tired now. I long to find a pond with a shady tree and to lie on a blanket in the warmth. But, Life is not like that, is it ? Another path someday. Or two. Or three. Sometimes you get to walk the Road with friends and family. Other times it's a solitary journey. But, in the end, all Roads lead home....

In The Arms of Sorrow

I only wish to lie, in the arms of sorrow's submission
Held captive in her song; a sweet, heartbroke rendition
"Come lie still. Let the tears fall where they might
Tomorrow will be better, when grown weary of the fight"
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Dreams so oft' come in the middle of the night
And they vanish swiftly with the morn's dawning light
So we constantly ebb between the light and the dark
Our soul's journey on which we all must each embark
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WineNSarcasm
January 29, 2019

Ordinary

It was a love like no other
I arranged my entire days so I could spend time with him
For years. For 20 years
Just talking
Just talking about nothing and everything !
And every time was the very same
My heart beat fully. Loudly. Stong
For I was with him
A short time, a long time; didn't matter
We were together
Just talking
Nothing more
And I was more than content with only this
And unbelievably in love
Beyond anything I ever thought possible

Until it wasn't any more

The dictionary defines ordinary as standard, usual, or common.

Yes, having been thrown down from my previous estate,
so callously and abrupty, that is exactly how I feel now.
Ordinary.
Just like everyone else.

I get up in the morning and check to see the weather,
then eat, then dress and go about my day.
Just like everyone else.
I come home and relax, then eat and go to sleep.
Just like everyone else.

And the days come.
And go.
One by one.
One cruel day after another.
Taunting me.
Reminding me of just how ordinary I am.

And so I live out my days agonizing over things that cannot be changed;
cannot be undone.
The days seem long and unproductive
and I am but merely a woman who was once in love
and lost.
A story as old as time. Through millions of years.
What makes me think I was so special to hurt more than any other ?
Because he....was no ordinary man.
He was quiet. And kind. And unlike anyone I had ever known before

Before he came I had my fortress ! I was comfortable behind there.
I controlled everything that came and went in my life.
And I was happy in my solitude !
And it is here that I shall return
For it is here that I am kept safe once more
And no one must come near
Ever.
Never again.

Forgetting You...

Forgetting You...
~
There is no....forgetting you !
For all we were, for all that we could have been
No. No, I shan't ever forget !
For as long as there is breath in my soul
For as long as the years can creep by
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Day after endless day as I recount
The words, the dreams, the plans we made.
Would that the disappearance from my soul of you
Be found forgotten for all time
And I would have to invent a story as such
~
So that my heart could take flight to the highest of heavens
And soar amoungst the stars to such delights as once were.
Forgetting a love that I had never known 'til you...
Quite impossible, my Love
There is no....forgetting you...
~
WineNSarcasm January 7, 2019

Decisions

Of these things we know as rights and wrongs that surround us in our lives...
we know the nobler choices we should make
and yet...
there are those things that tug at us and call our name;
beseeching us to come forget the blacks and whites of life.
It should cause no turmoil to our soul for we know what we ought do....
and, yet....
'Tis for loss or longing that we even consider those that we should not do ? And so we even think of excuses to justify our choices
that they should appear to us, and others, as right;
or, at very least, understandable.
But there, in the back of our mind, remains the question
of "the price to be paid" for such decisions.
Could we live with the punishment that is sure to come ?
And what of conscience ?
Shall it forever torment us for that for which we have done ?
Is this what we take with us when we depart then ?
An endless list of rights and wrongs ?
A moment or two when we chose correctly
and other times when we thought of self alone ?
How to reconcile and balance the scales, as it were....
And wherein lies our future with the decisions of today ?
Shall we be hated and scorned or thought only scandalous or eccentric ? Wherefore do we find our final decision that we can live with
and move on proudly and contentedly ?
Decisions must be made....

Moving On

There is, strangely, a comfort in despair
To have lost something so precious
That will never be again.
For that moment in time, you are devastated
Torn to pieces that can never be mended
Knowing everything is now changed.
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But, at least you knew where you were
You were here and miserable; utterly
And there. There are your tears everywhere.
You knew you were at the lowest point
You knew it would take time to climb up
You knew from whence came the pain
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But now time has passed on and on
The tears are drying. And the pain
Subsided. And the seas no longer rage.
The nights are not so long anymore
The days bring forth light again
Now and then a smile bursts forth
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But you are no longer there... Nor quite...here
You cannot return; nor is the future ready.
And so you are on a precipice
Gazing into the horizon and pondering
Your existence. Lessons learned. Mistakes.
And where will the path take you now...
~
WineNSarcasm
January 9, 2019

Only One

There can only be one "Love of a Lifetime", you see..
For those who have found that and kept it....
What a wonderful thing ! How splendid !
How your heart must sing every day with gratitude to
the Fates for all your good fortune.
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How full your heart must be upon seeing the face of
someone you love so deeply, cherish so sweetly !
How eagerly you must await their return when they are gone from your sight.
And to see their eyes dance when they glance your way !
~
Your face radiates the joy you have within you.
Your laughter can scarcely contain your jubilation !
How easy and carefree you feel ! How complete and whole you are because of your beloved.
The world has become a wondrous place, indeed !
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For those of you who have loved and lost that person, my condolences to you,
for you have gone to the depths of all that is unimaginable with sorrow and grief.
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All that love could be and should be has been wrenched from your grasp
and you feel as though your very soul was torn from your inner self.
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With tears and groanings, you pled with the Fates to make everything as it once was.
Only to wake and find the nightmare before your eyes still.
You awaited the moment when "Time heals all wounds" and wait still.
Only to realize that there is never "enough" time to ever recover fully.
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That moment when it all ended is forever etched into your heart and mind
The shattered heart and soul still lie at your feet in pieces; too many to count !
All just one more fragment of a memory so precious in their time
There can only be "One Love of a Lifetime", you see.....
~
December 17, 2018